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Title: Silent Cries, Mighty Echoes - Chapter Seven
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Word Count: 3,305
Rating: R
Warning: Slash Connotation
Summary: Tommy is second guessing his choices, and he is not the only one.
Note: Story title taken from Eloy's eight album.
Disclaimer: This story is a work of fiction. The characters and events are fictious.
Special Thanks: To my fabulous beta reader, [info]bigj52. You are gold!




Chapter Seven

For the next two days, Adam and Tommy avoided each other like the plague. Not once did they see each other. Tommy didn’t know if they both planned it that way or if it just happened that way, but for him anyway…it was a relief.
 
He was slightly embarrassed by what had happened back in Adam’s room after their “beach” day. It was totally unplanned and totally unlike him to throw himself at the mercy of anyone, much less Adam. But he did and quite honestly, he didn’t regret it. What he did feel was embarrassment. And that was only because Adam had come right out and flatly refused to take him up on his offer.
 
Obviously, an affair behind Amanda’s back wasn’t what Adam was looking for. And if truth be told, it wasn’t what Tommy was looking for either. But he couldn’t give Adam what he was looking for. He just couldn’t give Adam what he wanted…it was too late for anything of the sort.
 
Sitting on his balcony, Tommy stopped reading his book when he heard a familiar voice from down below. He stood up and made his way to the railing. Looking down, he saw Amanda and Adam standing on the ground beneath him.
 
“Amanda!”
 
She looked up at him and smiled. “Hey, sexy.”
 
Adam kissed Amanda on the cheek, without even so much as a glance towards Tommy. “I should probably let you go.”
 
Tommy’s gaze traveled from Amanda to Adam. He loved them…both of them. One held a special place in his heart and one had stolen his heart. Now, he just needed to figure out which one did what.
 
And figure out how he was going to get on with his life without always wondering about the "what ifs..."
 
He walked back into the room and headed towards the door. Once he opened it, Amanda and Adam were both standing there, much to his surprise. He opened his arms and Amanda immediately stepped into them.
 
“I’m so glad to finally be here.”
 
Tommy moaned and whispered in her ear. “Yeah…me too, sweetheart. We have a lot of catching up to do.”
 
“Yeah…we do.”
 
Tommy’s eyes were glued to Adam and Adam’s eyes were fixed on him. He didn’t look too happy, but then again, Tommy probably didn’t either. When he smiled at Adam, his mouth slid into a half-smile. He pulled back. “You guys are still leaving tonight for LA, right?”
 
Amanda nodded slowly. “Yeah…but it’ll only be for the weekend, honey and then I’ll be back for good.”
 
“AMANDA!”
 
Everyone turned around to see Reba running up the stairs. “Amanda…do you have time right now to go over the menu options? The head chef has next week off and he’s leaving in a couple hours.” She nodded her head at Adam, completely foregoing any other type of acknowledgment and then looked at Tommy. “Hi, dear…you don’t mind…do you?”
 
Did he have any other choice but to lie? “No, it’s fine…” Once he thought about what he said though, he quickly added, “You’re not changing the menu, are you?”
 
Reba shrugged. “Just a few things, dear…not much, don’t worry.”
 
Amanda kissed him on the cheek. “I’ll be back in a few. Hold those thoughts.”
 
When she turned to leave, Tommy called after her. “Remember what you promised me, okay?”
 
She smiled as Reba grabbed her arm and headed down the stairs.
 
When Adam started to walk towards his door, Tommy called for him. “Hey, Adam?”
 
He barely turned around. “What?”
 
“You make sure you take good care of her this weekend.” Tommy walked towards him, stopping before he got too close. “And make sure she doesn’t get into any trouble.”
 
“I’ll try.” He turned back around and opened his door. “Who’s going to take care of you?”
 
“I can take care of myself…thank you very much.” Tommy turned to walk away but didn’t get very far when Adam stopped him. “What now, Adam?”
 
“I can’t believe how you just stand there and don’t say anything.” The look on Adam’s face was sincere and it scared him. “This is your wedding, Tommy…not hers.”
 
“It’ll just cause problems if I say anything, Adam. Besides, Amanda promised me that she was going to say something to her mom.”
 
Adam grabbed both his hands and looked directly into his eyes. “She’s promised you a lot of things, Tommy…what makes you think this time she’ll follow through?”
 
He didn’t know what to say. Adam was right. But he had to believe that Amanda would follow through, he had to.
 
“Glitterbaby…I’m not saying these things to make you mad, you know that, right?”
 
He dropped his gaze. “Yeah.”
 
Adam squeezed his hands. “I love you…I don’t like to see you hurt.”
 
Tommy continued to stare at their hands. They fit together perfectly and the thought actually made him shudder. “If you love me…why are you trying to make me feel guilty for wanting to marry Amanda?”
 
Adam let go of their hands and pulled Tommy in so that he could hug him. “I’m not trying to make you feel guilty. I’m sorry if that’s how it’s coming across to you. I just want you to make sure you’re doing the right thing because I don’t think you are.”
 
Tommy didn’t say anything.
 
Adam continued whispering in his ear, “Can you honestly tell me that you don’t have any feelings for me? And I don’t mean as a friend either.”
 
Before he knew what was happening, he started crying. More than anything, he didn’t want to get into this with him now. They’d already been over it a million times before.
 
Adam hugged him tighter. “It’s not too late, Tommy…it’s not too late to give us a try.”
 
“Yes…yes…yes…it is.”
 
“No, it’s not.”
 
Tommy pulled back completely in a desperate attempt to try and distance himself. “I’m sorry…but it is too late, Adam.”
 
The attempt failed. They could’ve been standing miles apart from each other and he’d still feel the closeness between them. Adam took his hand and lifted his chin. “Do you love me, Tommy?”
 
Tommy didn’t answer him.
 
“Do you love me?”
 
His reply was so quiet; he barely heard his own voice, “Yes.”
 
Adam let go of his chin and turned to his room. He walked in and then stopped before shutting the door. “Then it’s not too late.”
 
Tommy stormed into his room and slammed the door. Falling to the floor, he began crying so hard that he was finding it difficult to catch his breath.
 
Couldn’t Adam see that it was too late? It was more than too late. The day he became engaged was the day it became too late. He’d committed himself to Amanda and there wasn’t anything he could do about it now. If this would’ve happened before their engagement, he could’ve walked away.
 
Walking away now wasn’t an option as far as he was concerned.
He couldn’t and wouldn’t hurt Amanda.
 
He carried on with his crying until he heard a knock at his door. Startled, he stood up and wiped his tears away. Swinging the door open, Tommy’s heart sank when he realized that it wasn’t Adam.
 
And that’s when it hit him…


The simple fact that he wanted it to be Adam at his door made him realize that he’d probably live his whole life wanting another man…
 
“Come on…we’ve got a lot of catching up to do.” Amanda pushed Tommy inside his room and slammed the door shut behind him. Grabbing him, she drew him in close and pressed his lips against hers.
 
Tommy heard a small moan escape from his throat. “I thought we were gonna wait until our wedding night.” Can’t you tell that I’ve been crying?
 
Amanda frowned. “Ah, shit, you’re right. I want it to be all romantic and special.”
 
“My point exactly…so what’s another two weeks gonna hurt?” You can’t…can you?
 
Amanda ran her tongue along Tommy’s cheek until she found his ear. “But…I need you.”
 
Tommy suddenly became rigid.
 
“Come on, honey…I know you want it too.” Amanda’s hand ran along on the outside of his shirt until she reached his nipple. Squeezing gently, she pinched the hard bud between her fingers. “I can tell.”
 
Tommy closed his eyes. “I do, but let’s keep on waiting. You’re right. It will be more special if we wait until the wedding night.”
 
Her hand jerked away. “I’m horny, damnit!” She walked away and then abruptly turned around.
 
Tommy tried his best to smile. He needed to smooth this out. Walking up to her, he gently placed his hand on her shoulder. “I know you are, sweetheart. Believe me, I am too. Let’s wait.”
 
Amanda huffed and then sat down on the couch. “Fine.”
 
He walked over to the couch and sat down next to her. “If you’re going to be a pissy mood now…you might as well go.”
 
She shook her head and sighed. “I’ll be okay.” Tommy extended his arm and she scooted closer to him. “So…has Adam been bothering you?”
 
He froze. “No…why?”
 
“Just curious,” she replied, while Tommy resumed rubbing her arm with his hand that was draped over her shoulder. “I just noticed some tension between you two.”
 
“You did?”
 
Amanda nodded. “What’s going on? If he’s been bothering you, just tell him to back off. He should know how busy you’ve been with the wedding plans and all.” Letting her head fall back, she took a deep breath. “Do you want me to say something to him about leaving you alone?”
 
“No,” he retaliated. “Don’t say anything to him…he hasn’t been bothering me at all. It’s your mother that’s been bothering me, Amanda.”
 
She slowly looked at him. “Shit…that bad?”
 
“Well….”
 
“All right…start at the beginning and go slow.”
 
Tommy’s mind was only able to register one thing, Adam’s comment about Amanda following through. “Amanda?”
 
“What, babe?”
 
“Did you tell your mother that she needed to butt out and let us make our own decisions?” He saw the look on her face and immediately knew his answer. “You promised…remember?”
 
“I will, honey…I will…lay off, okay?”
 

 
Adam and Amanda pretty much kept to themselves the entire way back. The flight was less than an hour, but it felt like ten. The bachelorette party weekend pretty much went as planned as far as Adam knew…except for Amanda taking things a little too far.
 
From what Adam had been told, they’d all gotten drunk…all fifteen of the women that attended the weekend bash. But as far as Adam knew, Amanda was the only one to wake up in another man’s bed. And the sad part was, Amanda didn’t even try and deny it.
 
Oh, she tried to justify it. “This was one of my last weekends as a bachelorette…” or “I was drunk and he was hot…” or “It was my last hurrah…” or “Tommy will never find out so what’s the big deal…” And the more excuses she gave, the more upset Adam got.
 
Adam tried to blow it off, but he just couldn’t. As much as he wanted to let Amanda justify it to him, he couldn’t. He couldn’t shake the horrendous feeling in the pit of his stomach. And for the life of him, he didn’t know how to handle it. And because he didn’t know how to handle it, he didn’t talk about it. He couldn’t.
 
Once they were finally back at the resort, Amanda pulled Adam aside. “Listen…about this weekend…it won’t go any further than us, right?”
 
Adam shot her a disgusted look. “Right.”
 
“God, man…what’s your fucking problem?”
 
“Do you really need to ask?”
 
Amanda’s face was flushed and appeared to be getting hotter by the second. “Like you’ve never cheated on anyone before.”
 
Now Adam’s face was following suit. “I never said I didn’t cheat…but I will tell you this much…I know for a Goddamn fact that I won’t cheat on my fiancé just two weeks before I commit my undying love for him.” He shook his head. “That’s just wrong.”
 
Amanda rolled her eyes. “Oh yeah…easy to say now but let’s see what happens when you finally do decide to settle down…IF you ever settle down. You’re a player too, Adam…so stop with the self-righteous shit.”
 
Adam grabbed her arm and took a deep breath. “Listen, Amanda…being a player while you’re single is a little different than being a player when you’re engaged and getting married.”
 
Amanda yanked her arm away. “So I was fucking horny…shoot me.”
 
“It’s just like you to laugh this off, Amanda. You were so damn horny you couldn’t wait one day until you got home to your fiancé?”
 
“Not that it's any of your business but I tried to do my fiancé before we left. I knew it would tide me over but he wouldn’t budge. I couldn’t get him to be man enough and fuck me!”
 
Nice talk about your soon-to-be husband, bitch…. Adam shook his head in disgust and heaved through a clenched jaw, “If you weren’t such a good friend, and if you weren’t a woman, I’d beat the shit out of you right now.”
 
Amanda blew him off. “I haven’t had sex in over three months, Adam! Sorry…but I just couldn’t refuse the guy when he put his hands down my pants.”
 
Three months?
 
Adam shook his head. “You’re pathetic.”
 
“And you’re telling me that you would’ve been able to refuse him?”
 
Adam swallowed hard. He’d refused Tommy. “Yeah, Amanda…that’s what I’m saying. Maybe you should’ve tried putting your own hand down your pants…that does the trick for me.”
 
Amanda’s eyes grew dim. “Yeah…maybe you’re right. But what’s done is done…can we just forget about it?”
 
Adam didn’t know if he’d be able to do that or not. But at the same time, wasn’t what was going on with himself and Tommy along the same lines? True, they hadn’t actually had sex, but it wasn’t all that innocent either. “I’m not going to say anything to Tommy if that’s what you mean. You should be the one who does that.”
 
Amanda looked at Adam like he was out of his mind. “I’m not telling him anything, Adam.”
 
“Suit yourself, Amanda.”
 
“You know,” Amanda huffed. “It’s his fault in the first place. He’s acting like he is the woman in this relationship. If he would’ve given me some before we left, I wouldn’t have caved so easily.”
 
Adam brought his hands up to his head and rubbed his temples. He had a pounding headache, thanks to the idiot standing before him that he called “friend.” Letting out a perturbed laugh, he followed it up with a snort. “So now you’re going to shift the blame on to Tommy.”
 
“Technically it is his fault. Three months, Adam…three months. That’s a long time not to get any, even for a girl.”
 
“Have you ever thought that maybe there’s something else going on for him not wanting to have sex for the past three months?”
 
Amanda looked at him, confused. “He told me that he wanted it to be special on our wedding night.”
 
Adam had to stifle his laughter on that one. “And you believed it?”
 
“Why wouldn’t I?”
 
“Doesn’t really matter, Amanda…three months isn't really that long.”
 
She threw his arms up in the air. “Of course…being who you are you’ve probably never gone longer than what? A day or two?”
 
Adam glanced over his shoulder to make sure no one was coming towards them. “I’ve gone longer than a day or two, Amanda. I haven’t had sex since Brad and I broke up almost a year ago.”
 
Amanda was silent.
 
“So see…it's possible, Amanda.”
 
Amanda smacked him on the back. “What about Ted?”
 
“What about him?”
 
“You two haven’t fucked?”
 
Adam thought back to the day that Tommy had his fitting and he’d gone back to Ted’s. That was about as close as they came to doing anything. “No, we haven’t.”
 
Amanda’s head lurched back, her face contorted. “Wow…you sick or something?”
 
“I won’t even comment on that question. You know me better than that.”
 
Amanda cocked her head. “Do I?” he asked, scratching her temple to appear as if she were thinking.
 
 “I’ll catch you later,” Adam said, turning to leave.
 
Amanda reached out and grabbed his arm. “You aren’t going to say anything to Tommy about this weekend, right?”
 
Adam simply shook his head and walked away. If there was anything to be said it should be said to Amanda, but once again, it wasn’t his place to say anything. Or was it?
 
When he walked further down the path, he noticed Tommy heading towards him in the opposite direction. Looking at him, Adam felt sorry for Tommy. In more ways than one. He needed to wake up and see what he was about to do. But sadly, it didn’t look like that was going to happen anytime soon.
 
“Hi, Adam…beautiful day we’re having, isn’t it?” Tommy said, stopping when he was just in front of him.
 
He looked up and smiled. “Yep, sure is.” He continued walking past Tommy, trying his best to ignore his feelings.
 
“Hey, Adam?”
 
Adam had two choices. Ignore Tommy and continue on or stop and ignore his own feelings. Either way…he lost. “Yeah?”
 
“Is something wrong?”
 
“Nope…why?” he lied, turning to Tommy.
 
Tommy shrugged. “I don’t know…you’re usually more talkative, I guess.”
 
He took a deep breath, keeping his eyes fixed on Tommy’s. “Not much to say anymore, Tommy.”
 
Tommy looked confused when he acknowledged Adam’s comment with a slight nod. Adam was throwing him for a loop this time and he knew it. Adam took a few steps closer to him and smiled. “I’m pretty much talked out…between you and now Amanda…I don’t have much more to say.” He held Tommy’s gaze. “Unless there’s something you wanted to say to me.”
 
Tommy raised his eyebrows. “No…not really.”
 
His eyebrows rose back. “You sure?”
 
Tommy nodded.
 
“Okay then…if you ever have anything to say…you know where to find me, right?”
 
Tommy nodded again.
 
Adam smiled and turned around. “Catch you later.”
 
“Adam?”
 
He smiled before turning around to face Tommy again. Maybe ignoring him was his best course of action. “Decided to talk after all?”
 
Tommy gave him a smart-ass look, narrowing his eyes. “Just wondering how your trip went.”
 
You’ll talk about anything else besides us…won’t you? Taking a deep breath, he simply shrugged. “You’d have to ask Amanda that one…see ya.” When he turned around again, he shook his head.
 
“Adam?”
 
You want to talk…you just don’t know what to say. He stopped again, refusing to turn around. “Yeah?”
 
“You made sure Amanda kept out of trouble, right?”
 
“I’m not her keeper, Tommy,” he replied softly. “I’ll catch you later.”
 
Adam was pretty proud of himself for that one. Maybe Tommy’d think about that one for a while. He wasn’t going to be the one to tell Tommy that his fiancée was an ass over the weekend. But on the other hand, maybe he if he threw out a few hints here and there, Tommy’d figure it out himself.
 
Then again, maybe not.
 
“Adam?”
 
Stopping, he placed his hands on his hips before turning around. “Yeah, Tommy?”
 
“Why are you getting all pissed off?” he asked, throwing his hands up in the air. “Am I bothering you or something?”
 
He shook his head. “Not at all.”
 
“Have you seen Amanda?”
 
Adam pointed back towards where he came from. “Just left her a few minutes ago.”
 
“Thanks,” Tommy replied, shooting him a sarcastic look. They both stood there for a few seconds before he finally turned around and walked away.
 
“Hey, Tommy!”
 
He stopped.
 
“Time is running out.”
 
Tommy’s head flew around. “What?”
 
“You heard me,” Adam yelled over his shoulder, making his way back to his room.


 

Date: 2011-12-11 04:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dayflower1.livejournal.com
Oh, Tommy, Amanda & Adam what a mess they are all in! There is really only one solution out of this, that's Adams way. Tommy's love for Adam won't stop after he marries Amanda. I think Tommy know that. Adams made it clear with Tommy, no affair is going to happen. Tommy also seen how much self restraint Adam can muster up. Adams seen Amanda doesn't have that same restraint. Yes Tommy's in a very heart breaking mess! If Tommy thinks things will get better between Amanda, him and his mother in law after they are married, boy is he wrong. I have a feeling it will only be worst. A divorce from Amanda would be nearly impossible. If Tommy can't make the break now, it never will happen!!! Come on Tommy make the only decision that will make you happy forever!!!!
Always impatiently waiting for that next chapter.....

God that was long... See how your writings get us sooo involved?! Thank you for being able to do that!!!!
Edited Date: 2011-12-11 04:44 pm (UTC)

Date: 2011-12-11 04:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] huntersprey.livejournal.com
I could seriously like, kick Amanda's ass for Tommy right now lol If you love someone, you never cheat on them just because you were horny. And when she wanted to have sex with Tommy, she didn't even realise that he was upset. I really hope Tommy figures out for himself what she's been up to.

Date: 2011-12-11 08:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fritzie2a-t.livejournal.com
Don't know which one I'm more pissed at right now. Amanda is a bitch,she needs to be left at the altar. Tommy needs to find his balls, he seems to have misplaced them somewhere. Maybe Adam could just kidnap Tommy....... Hoping Tommy comes to his senses real soon.

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