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Temporary Home - 2/3
Title: Temporary Home
Pairing: Jared / Jensen, Jensen / OMC
Rating: PG-17
Word Count: 10,398
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: Title From Carrie Underwood's song, Temporary Home
Beta: No beta. All faults are mine.
Summary: Two men, one child, and a cabin
Pairing: Jared / Jensen, Jensen / OMC
Rating: PG-17
Word Count: 10,398
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: Title From Carrie Underwood's song, Temporary Home
Beta: No beta. All faults are mine.
Summary: Two men, one child, and a cabin
"Daddy, Daddy, wake up," Danny said as he pushed Jensen’s arm.
Jensen slowly opened his eyes to see Danny sitting up next to him.
"What?" Jensen asked.
"It white outside," Danny said.
Jensen looked at him puzzled. Danny grabbed his hand; "Come on, up," Danny said as he stood on the bed and pulled Jensen towards the window.
"All right, all right, I'm up," Jensen said as he climbed out of bed.
Jensen picked Danny up into his arms and then walked over to the window. He looked out to see the ground covered in snow and little white snowflakes falling from the sky.
"What's dat?" he asked.
"It's snow, baby," Jensen answered.
"Snow!" Danny said excitedly, "Can I pway in it?"
"We'll see," Jensen said.
"I wanna go outside," Danny said.
"Not yet," Jensen said.
"Pwease," Danny begged.
"Later, I promise," Jensen said as he kissed Danny’s forehead.
Danny placed his hands on his hips, "Otay!"
"Good," Jensen said as he kissed Danny again, "I love you."
"I wuv you too," he said.
Jensen set Danny down on the bed and grabbed his clothes.
"Daddy's just going to change, so stay right here. Don't leave the room," Jensen said.
"Otay Daddy," Danny said.
Jensen walked down the hall to the bathroom. He quickly changed and then went back into the room to see Danny, standing on the bed, staring out the window.
"Are you watching the snow?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh," he said.
Jensen went over to Danny and hugged him. He picked Danny up and walked down the hall. They walked into the kitchen where breakfast was being made.
"Morning!" Danny said brightly.
Jensen cringed, waiting for the guy to flip out on him. He was not sure whether the guy was such a morning person or not, but he had definitely been a pain in the ass the night before.
"Morning," he replied as he turned around, smiling at Danny.
Jensen silently breathed a sigh of relief as he looked at the guy, finally realizing who he was staying with. He could not believe it, the famous actor, Jared Padalecki had stopped by the side of the road to help him. Jensen stared at him amazed, but still angry that he had stopped to help if he did not want to.
"When can we leave?" Jensen asked, still holding Danny in his arms.
"Leave?" Jared questioned, like Jensen was crazy, "In this?"
"Yes," Jensen said as Jared set food onto the table.
"We don't," Jared said.
"What do you mean?" Jensen asked.
"The car is buried, there's no way we can drive out of here," Jared said.
"So you mean we're stranded here?" Jensen asked angrily.
"Yes, that's what I'm saying," Jared said.
Jensen began getting nervous. Here they were, out in the middle of nowhere, stranded with some stranger. Okay, so he knew the guy’s name and what he did, but personally, he did not know the guy, and that was what scared him. Everything he had seen from the movies started to pop into his head. Like how a famous person could take advantage of someone and it's your word against theirs, and obviously they're not going to believe you.
Jared watched as the man just stood there staring at him. Jared could see the fear in his eyes, but he did a pretty good job of hiding it, or at least from the little kid.
"Sit down," Jared said, breaking into Jensen’s thoughts.
Jensen nervously sat down in the chair farthest away from Jared with Danny still in his arms.
"Daddy," Danny said.
"Yes," Jensen answered.
"Can I have cerweal?" Danny asked as he looked at the box of Apple Jacks, sat on the table.
"Sure, baby," Jensen said.
With Danny resting on his hip, Jensen got up and got him a bowl and spoon that were sitting on the counter. He sat down and poured Danny a bowl of cereals and then sat him on his lap.
Jared noticed how protective the guy was of his child. Never for one instance did he let the little boy out of his arms. Even when he could barley hold the baby and get everything he needed to feed him, he still held him. Jared watched as he sat the boy on his lap. He just sat there, rubbing his son’s head softly as the little boy ate, not even caring that he was not getting to eat. Jared knew he had to be starving, he had not eaten dinner the night before.
"Aren't you going to eat?" Jared asked.
Jensen looked up at him and locked eyes.
"No," Jensen said.
Jared stared into his beautiful green eyes, and then looked down at the little boy. He noticed the little boy’s hazel eyes, with dark brown hair.
Jensen protectively wrapped his arm around Danny as he watched Jared stare at his son. Jensen was afraid that Jared was thinking of hurting him.
“He must look like his mother,” Jared asked.
“Huh?”
“His eyes; they are hazel. Yours are green.”
“Oh,” Jensen said as he tightened his grip around Danny’s waist, “He is,-” Before Jensen had a chance to say something, Danny he raised his spoon up to Jensen, spilling the milk on the table, “Daddy, want some?"
"No, thank you," Jensen said as he kissed Danny’s head.
"You should eat something," Jared said as Jensen wiped up the mess Danny made, "I made a burrito for you."
"No, thank you," Jensen said.
"What? You don't trust my cooking?" Jared asked.
"No. I don't trust you," Jensen said before he had a chance to stop himself. That was not what he had meant to say, but he did anyway. He could not help it. He did not trust Jared or his intentions, whatever they were.
"Why not?" Jared asked.
"First of all, there's the obvious fact," Jensen said.
"And that is?" he asked.
"I don't know you!" Jensen said angrily.
"Oh, well my name is Jared, and I'm a serial killer," Jared said.
Danny immediately began to cry, hearing the word ‘kill’.
"Nice one," Jensen said, knowing Jared was just being a dumbass.
Jensen turned Danny around and hugged him tightly, "It's okay buddy."
"But. . .but he said bad word," Danny cried.
"I know, but he did not mean it," Jensen said as he kissed Danny on the head.
"You said dat when you say kill, you go way and never come back," Danny said.
"I know, but don't worry. I'm right here," Jensen said reassuringly.
"Daddy, I don't want you go way," Danny said.
Jensen wiped away Danny’s tears, "I'm right here. Okay?" Jensen asked, "Daddy's not going anywhere without you."
"Otay," Danny said as he wrapped his little arms around Jensen.
Jensen hugged his son tightly and kissed him on the head.
Jared sat there watching the man comforting his little boy. He had not meant to scare him. The guy knew that he was just being sarcastic, but of course, the little boy did not understand sarcasm. Jared felt terrible for making him cry.
Jensen looked up at Jared and he was just staring at them. He got up and went back to his room. Jared got up and followed the man as he walked down the hall. Jensen walked into the room and sat Danny on the bed. He, then, pulled the suitcase onto the bed. Jared stood in the doorway watching him.
"Here's your truck baby," Jensen said.
"Tank you," Danny said.
"You just sit here and play while Daddy goes and gets his food. Okay?" Jensen asked.
Danny looked at him, uncertain. He, then, looked at Jared with fear in his eyes.
"No, baby," Jensen said, "He's not going to stay here with you. Okay?"
Jensen moved his hand, motioning Jared to leave. He understood and walked down the hall.
"If you need me, you just call me. I won't be long. I'm just going to get a burrito really quickly," Jensen said, kissing Danny on the cheek, "Okay?"
"Otay," Danny said.
"I'll be right back," Jensen said as he slowly walked out. Danny sat there playing with his truck, pretending it crashed.
Jensen walked down the hall and into the kitchen.
"I'm so sorry. I didn’t mean to scare him like that," Jared said as the man walked into the kitchen.
Jensen glared at him. He just wanted to beat him to death for making Danny cry and scaring him. He had left Will hoping that Danny would not be scared anymore, but that did not look like it was going to happen.
Jensen went over to the table and grabbed a plate and the burrito Jared had made for him.
"Well. . .aren't you going to say something?" Jared asked.
"What do you want me to say?" Jensen asked.
"Anything," Jared said.
"Right now the protective father in me is telling me to just bitch you out," Jensen said angrily, "But I don't want to yell and scare Danny, so I'm not going to."
Jensen began to walk away from the table when Jared grabbed his arm. A spark went through Jensen’s body as Jared’s skin touched his. Jensen slowly turned around looking at Jared. He wondered if Jared had felt the same thing as he just had.
‘He is an actor, dumbass, and he is straight. He is not interested in you,’ Jensen thought.
"Look, I said I'm sorry," Jared said.
"I know, I heard you," Jensen said.
Jared just stared into Jensen eyes.
"Can you please let go?" Jensen asked as he looked down at his arm.
"Oh," Jared said, "Yeah, I'm sorry."
Jared quickly let go.
"Thanks," Jensen said.
Jared watched Jensen walk back to him room. The truth was he did not want to let go of the guy. For some reason, Jared wanted to pull the guy closer to him. In fact, he wanted to touch his face and trace his soft lips with his finger. Jared wanted so badly to feel the guy’s skin against his. He felt the need to just hold him in his arms.
Jensen’s heart was racing as he got back to the room where Danny was still playing. He closed the door and sat down on the bed eating.
He could not believe the way Jared’s touch had affected him. At first it frightened Jensen, but then he realized it was not a threatening touch. It was as if a jolt of electricity had shot through Jensen. He had never felt this sort of spark with Will, even before things went down the hill between them.
But Jensen knew that he had to ignore those feelings, whether he wanted to or not. He could not get involved with that guy, it was not an option. For all he knew, the guy was a hotshot, and more than likely straight. He had promised himself to just concentrate on taking care of his son. Danny meant more to him than some little fling.
For all he knew, Jared had felt nothing. He had not shown any sort of emotion. Hell, he probably had a wife or some type of long time girlfriend. Jensen knew Jared would never have any interest in him.
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Danny looked at his father sleeping and laid down next to him. He placed his hand on top of his father’s as he stared at him.
That was when he heard music coming from somewhere outside the room. He sat up and listened to it. He picked up his puppy and then climbed off the bed, curious to see where the music was coming from.
He opened the door and slipped out into the hall way, dragging his puppy by his tail.
Jared sat down behind the piano in the cabin living room. He just needed to clear his mind of everything, and there was no better way than through music. He could always lose himself in music. He just hoped he could still remember playing. It had been a long time since he had played piano.
He placed his fingers on the keys and began playing whatever his heart desired.
Danny crept into the main room where he saw the man sitting down and playing on the piano. Afraid to go any closer, he sat down in a corner with his puppy held close to him, watching the man play his beautiful music.
Jared finished his song, stopping and just sitting there. He felt as though someone was watching him. He turned around to see the little boy walking towards him.
Danny froze as he saw the man turn around. He clutched his puppy dog closer to him.
Jared did not want to frighten the little boy, so he smiled at him, "Hello."
Danny was not sure what to do, whether he should run back to his dad or talk to this man.
Jared watched the little boy. He could tell that he was thinking.
"It's okay," Jared said, "Come here."
Danny looked back at the hallway, as if he were looking for his father to see if he would tell him what to, but he was not there.
Jared slowly got up and walked over to Danny, "I'm not going to hurt you. It's okay."
Danny stared at the man who was now kneeling in front of him.
"Is this your puppy?" Jared asked.
Danny smiled shyly as he nodded his head ‘yes’.
"He's pretty cute," Jared said.
"His name Choc-o-let," Danny answered quietly.
Jared smiled glad that the little boy was beginning to trust him.
"Chocolate, that's a very good name," Jared said as he looked at the dark brown puppy.
"Daddy tought so too," Danny said, "He like it lot."
"He likes to eat chocolate?" Jared asked.
"Yep," Danny said.
"Do you like it too?" Jared asked.
"Its nummy," Danny said as he rubbed his stomach, "You like?"
"Yeah, I like Chocolate too," Jared said, smiling, "So what's your name?"
"Danny," he answered.
"Well, hi Danny, my name is Jared," he said as he stuck out his hand for the little boy to shake.
Danny gave him five instead, "Hi."
"So where's your daddy?" Jared asked.
"He's aseep," Danny said.
"Oh okay," Jared said, "Were you listening to me play the piano?"
"Uh huh," Danny said.
"Do you want to play?" Jared asked.
"Pwease," Danny said.
"Sure," Jared said happily, "Can I pick you up?"
Danny opened his arms wide, letting Jared pick him up.
Jared scooped Danny into his arms and walked over to the piano. He sat down on the bench with Danny on his lap.
"Go ahead," Jared said.
Danny smiled, handing his puppy to Jared, and then began banging on the keys. He giggled as heard music coming from it, realizing he was making those noises.
"Watch this," Jared said.
Jared pressed a button at the top, changing it to sound like a horn, which really sounded like a farting noise.
"Listen," Jared said.
He pressed the button, and it sounded like a loud fart. Danny looked up at Jared strangely, not exactly sure where that sound had come from.
Jared smiled and he took Danny's little finger and pressed the key with it, showing him.
As Danny heard it, he began to giggle, "It's da p-ano!"
"Yep, just press the key," Jared said.
"Otay!" Danny said excitedly and he began hitting as many keys as he could. Both him and Jared started laughing at the sounds that were being made.
Jensen opened his eyes, remembering where he was. He sighed, realizing he was stuck there in that cabin. He sat up and looked around the room for Danny. He was nowhere to be seen.
"Danny, baby," Jensen said. No answer. He looked at the door, slightly ajar.
He quickly got up and walked down the hall cursing himself for falling asleep, and ready to kick some ass if he had to. That was when he heard a weird noise. He followed the sound and walked into the room, to find Danny sitting with Jared, both laughing.
Jared noticed the guy as he walked in. He could see the worry written all over the guy’s face.
"Uh oh, looks like we woke up your Dad," Jared said.
"Uh oh!" Danny said, smiling at Jensen.
"Come here," Jensen said.
"What Daddy?" Danny asked as he climbed off of Jared's lap.
He walked over to Jensen and he immediately picked Danny up, wrapping his arms around him protectively.
"Daddy! You squish me!" Danny said.
Jensen smiled and kissed him, "Sorry baby, I just wanted to make sure you were okay. You scared me cause you weren't in the room."
"He just came out here with me," Jared said.
"Yeah! Daddy, he play pretty moo-sic, like you!" Danny said excitedly.
"Really?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh, come here, want to show you Daddy," Danny said as he leaned his body towards Jared.
Jensen set him down and followed him as he quickly went over to Jared. He got to the bench and climbed into Jared's lap.
Jensen was surprised to see him go so easily with Jared. Normally it took Danny a while to get used to any other person, especially guys, except Jensen. He always stayed away from the guys, fearing that they would yell at him, like Will normally used to. Other than Chris at work, he had clung to Jensen like glue whenever they were around another guy. Jensen stared at Jared, wondering what was so special or different about him that made Danny go to him so easily.
"Daddy! Watch!" Danny said excitedly.
"Okay, I am," Jensen said as he smiled at Danny.
Jared pressed a key at the top and Danny began hitting as many keys as he could at once, all the while smiling at how good he thought he was. Once he was finished, Jensen began clapping.
"Bravo! Bravo!" Jensen exclaimed, smiling at him.
Danny giggled as he watched his dad cheer for him, then he turned to Jared.
"You play you pretty moo-sic now," Danny said to him. He took his puppy from Jared and climbed off of his lap.
"Uh, what do you want me to play?" Jared asked.
Danny shrugged his shoulders, "I don't know."
"All right, then I'll play anything that comes to mind," Jared said.
Jared sat at the piano a few seconds longer, thinking of a song. Once he had it in his mind, he placed his fingers on the keys, lightly pressing down.
Jensen stood there, watching as Jared got lost in the music. His eyes were closed and he was slightly swaying as though the music was flowing through him.
As Jared played, he forgot that the guy and his son were standing there watching him. All he could think about was how much the song affected him. He did not realize that his tears were threatening to fall.
Jensen stood there stunned as he saw all the emotion that Jared was putting into the song, and how much it was affecting him. Once he was finished, he opened his eyes and a tear slowly ran down his cheek.
Jared saw the guy staring at him and quickly wiped away his tear, not wanting to break down in front of him and his son, when that was what he really needed to do.
Jensen smiled at him, "Wow. That was beautiful. You really have some talent."
"Thanks," Jared said, also smiling.
Jared did not feel happy though, but he did not feel like crying like a big baby in front of them either, so he forced himself to smile, willing his tears to go away along with the lump in his throat.
Danny smiled and then began clapping loudly.
"Bavo! Bavo!" he exclaimed.
Both Jared and Jensen began laughing.
"You like music, don't you?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said smiling.
Jared got up and walked over to Jensen.
"I don't think we've been properly introduced," Jared said.
"No, we haven't," Jensen replied.
"Hi, I'm Jared," he said.
"Hi Jared, I'm Jensen," Jensen said.
"It's nice to meet you," Jared said, smiling.
"You too," Jensen said, "And this young man here is. . ."
"Danny," Jared answered, "We talked earlier."
"Oh, I see," Jensen said.
"Is dat otay Daddy?" Danny asked.
"Yeah buddy, that's fine," Jensen said.
The three of them just stood there, Jared and Jensen staring at each other.
"Daddy, can I pway now?" Danny asked as he tapped on Jensen’s leg.
Jensen bent down and scooped Danny up into his arms, "I don't know."
"Pwease. Choc-o-let wants to go out too," Danny said.
"You want to go out and play in the snow?" Jared asked.
"Uh huh!" Danny said as he nodded his head up and down.
"Have you ever seen snow before?" Jared asked.
"No," Danny answered.
"Well then what are we waiting for? Let's get out there," Jared said.
"Yay!!" Danny exclaimed.
"But I don't think I have his heavy jacket, I think it's still in the car," Jensen said.
"Don't worry about it," Jared said, "I think I have one somewhere, I'll be right back."
Jared searched in the closet near the front door. Once he found what he was looking for he went back to Jensen and Danny.
"Here try this," Jared said as he handed Jensen a jacket for Danny, "I have a nephew about Danny’s age, so it should fit you little guy."
Jensen set Danny down and then put the jacket on him.
"What do you say?" Jensen asked.
"Tank you Jared," Danny said.
Jared smiled, "You're welcome buddy."
"Go get your shoes if you want to go out," Jensen said.
"Otay!" Danny said happily as he hurried down the hall in the oversized jacket.
Jensen smiled at Danny’s excitement.
"Do you have a jacket?" Jared asked.
"Uh no, I'll just wear my sweatshirt," Jensen said.
"That won't be enough. Here let's get you something different," Jared said as he took Jensen’s hand. As soon as Jared’s skin touched Jensen’s, it felt like it was on fire again. Jared felt Jensen tense up as soon as he touched him, but he was not going to let go. He still had the need to hold Jensen and touch him.
Jared led Jensen to the closet and opened it, "Go ahead and pick the jacket you want."
"Thanks," Jensen said as he looked through them. He picked the one he liked and then closed the closet door.
"I got 'em Daddy, I got 'em!" Danny yelled as he ran down the hall with his shoes dragging behind him.
Jensen sat down on the couch and Danny sat on the floor. Jensen quickly put them on for him and then tied them, "Okay, you're all set."
Danny smiled happily. He grabbed Jensen’s hand, trying to pull him up, "Snow, now!"
"I have to go get my shoes, first," Jensen said.
"I can take him outside right now while you get your shoes," Jared said.
"Yay!" Danny exclaimed.
"I guess," Jensen said.
Jared came over to Danny and picked him up, "We'll be waiting for you outside."
Jensen nodded his head ‘okay’, as Jared walked away. He got up and went to his room.
Jared opened the door and the ice cold air came rushing in.
"Dat cold!" Danny exclaimed as he felt the air hit his little face.
Jared walked out onto the porch, looking at the snow that was everywhere. Small snowflakes were still falling from the sky.
"What dat?" Danny asked as he pointed towards the roof.
Jared smiled as he walked towards it, "It's an icicle."
"Icee," Danny said.
"Something like that," Jared said. He grabbed onto it and then broke most of it off, "Here you go."
Danny took it and looked at it, "Can I eat it?"
"Sure," Jared said, "It's just ice."
Danny smiled and then began to suck on it. Jared and Danny sat down on the steps of the porch.
"Jared," Danny said.
"Yeah buddy," Jared said.
"How tome you say bad word?" Danny asked.
Jared sat there puzzled. He could not remember swearing in front of him. Then he remembered what had happened earlier.
"You Daddy be mad at you?" Danny asked.
Jared smiled, "Yeah, my dad would have been mad at me."
"Don't do again," Danny said.
"Okay, I won't," Jared said as he pulled Danny closer to him.
Once Danny was through with the icicle he said, "All done."
"Ready to go in the snow now?" Jared asked.
"Yeah!" Danny said excitedly.
Jared picked him up and then walked down the stairs, into the soft white snow.
Jensen walked outside onto the porch. He watched as Jared took his son out into the snow. Jensen sat on the steps exactly where they were once sitting. He watched as he set Danny down in the snow. Danny clung to Jared's leg, afraid that he was going to sink in. While still holding onto Jared, Danny bent down and touched the snow. He giggled as he felt it squish between his fingers as he pushed his hand further in the snow. He grabbed a handful and brought it up to his face. He smelled it and then stuck out his tongue, barely touching it.
"It cold," Danny said as he looked up at Jared.
"Yep," Jared said.
"Can I eat it?" Danny asked.
"Go ahead little guy," Jared answered.
Danny brought his hand up to his mouth and licked the remaining snow off of his hand.
Soon he got brave enough to let go of Jared and realize that he was not going to sink.
Jensen stared out into the snow, remembering his own childhood. He breathed in deeply, smelling the fresh cool air. It was so refreshing and something new, different from Texas, different from his childhood. Jensen saw the images of his parents at their home. He saw images of Joshua and Mackenzie, when everything was still good, when Will was not in the picture yet.
Jared watched as Jensen stared at his son, but he knew that he was not really seeing him. His mind was somewhere else. Then he felt Danny's little hand grabbing onto his pant leg. He looked down and smiled at him.
"Want me to teach you how to make a snow ball?" Jared asked.
Danny smiled, "Uh huh."
Jared bent down so he was eye level with Danny. Then he picked up some snow.
"You get a lot of snow in your hands and you make it into a small ball. Then you press it together tightly so it will stay together when you throw it," Jared said as he finished making the snow ball.
Then he handed it to Danny, "Let's go get your Dad."
"Otay!" Danny said.
Jared picked him up and walked closer to Jensen, "Now."
Danny pulled his arm back and threw the snow ball as hard as he could.
Jensen was snapped back into reality as snow ball landed in his lap, sending the excess snow into his face.
"Aah!" Jensen screamed, "That's cold!"
Jensen heard Danny giggling. He looked up to see him and Jared standing there.
"Ooohhh, you guys are in trouble now!" Jensen said, smiling at Danny as he got up.
After they had their snowball fight, Jared and Jensen sat down on the steps of the cabin while Danny continued to play in the snow.
"Look Daddy! I made an angel!" yelled Danny excitedly, as he rolled around in the snow.
"Yeah, I can see that," Jensen said, smiling at him.
Danny got up and shook his little body, so the snow would fall off of him. He began gathering snow so he would make a snowman.
"So where were you headed?" Jared asked.
"To my brother’s," Jensen replied.
"Really? Why?" Jared asked, "If you don't mind me asking."
"No, it's okay," Jensen said, "My son and I were going to move in with my brother and his wife."
"Oh," Jared said, "Danny's mom isn't moving with you?"
"Umm… well…," Jensen began. Then Danny came running up to them.
Jensen thanked God that Danny had interrupted him; He did not really feel like explaining Will to Jared at the moment.
"Look, snowman!" Danny said excitedly.
Jensen looked to where Danny had pointed to see a large pile of snow gathered together, somewhat in the shape of a snowman.
"Good job!" Jensen said as he kissed Danny’s little cheek.
"Yeah, that's a pretty good snowman," Jared said.
"Tank you," Danny said proudly.
"Oh buddy, your face is so cold," Jensen said as he touched Danny’s cheeks.
"I know," he said, "Can we go inside? It's cold, brrr," he said as he shook his little body.
Jensen smiled, "Okay baby, we can go inside now."
Jared picked Danny up and then helped Jensen up. They walked into the warmth of the cabin.
"Better," said Danny.
Jared smiled, "You know what would be even better?"
"What?" Danny asked.
"How about some hot chocolate?" Jared suggested.
"Yay!" yelled Danny.
"Why don't you sit with your dad here and he can warm you up, while I get it ready," Jared said as he put Danny in Jensen’s arms.
"Otay," Danny said happily.
Jensen took Danny over to the couch and sat him down, taking his shoes and coat off. He then took his off and placed them on a chair. He grabbed the blanket that laid on the couch and wrapped it around Danny and himself.
"Are you getting warm yet?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said.
Jared quickly made the hot chocolate. He wanted to continue his conversation with Jensen. He was curious as to why he was by himself and what had happened to Danny's mom. Why was she not moving with them? Or why was she not helping them move?
"Here's your hot chocolate," Jared said as he handed Danny's cup to Jensen.
"Yay!" Danny said.
"Here's yours," Jared said as he handed another cup to Jensen.
"Thank you. But can you just set it on the table for now?" Jensen asked.
"Sure," he said.
He placed it on the counter and then came over and sat with Danny and Jensen on the couch.
"How is it buddy?" Jared asked as Jensen helped Danny drink his hot chocolate.
"Yummy!" he said as he smiled at Jared.
"Good," Jared said as he got up and put logs in the fireplace, starting a nice warm fire.
"So Jensen, how come you're moving by yourself?" Jared asked.
Danny pulled his hot chocolate away from his mouth and responded, "Cause Will no like me," he then took his cup and continued drinking, getting a chocolate mustache on his upper lip. Jared stared at Danny in disbelief. He could not believe what he had just heard Danny say. Will? As in a man? Was Jensen gay?
Jensen sat there stunned at Danny's quick response. He did not exactly know what to say, so he bent down and kissed Danny on the top of the head, "I love you baby."
"I know Daddy," Danny replied as he smiled at Jensen, "I wuv you too."
Jensen turned to Jared and mouthed, "Not now."
Jared nodded his head, understanding what Jensen meant. He felt terrible for asking that question. He thought it was a safe question, but now he could understand why Jensen had hesitated to answer his question earlier. He looked at Danny, feeling bad that that was the little boy's response.
"So Danny, do you go to school?" Jared asked, hoping that would be a safer subject.
"Yep," Danny said happily, "We learn new song da other day."
"Really?" Jared asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said, "Want me sing it?"
"Yeah," Jared said, smiling at him, "Sing away."
"Otay," Danny said excitedly and wiped his mouth off with his sleeve.
"Danny," Jensen scolded. He grabbed a napkin from the coffee table and wiped Danny’s mouth off.
"Okay, now go ahead," Jensen said as he sat Danny on his lap, facing Jared.
"Twinkle, twinkle, wittle star! How I wonder what you are! Up above so da world so high, wike a diamond in da sky. Twinkle, twinkle, wittle star! How I wonder what you are!" Danny sang.
"Good job little guy," Jared said as he clapped for Danny.
"Tank you," he replied, "Dats all I know."
"Want me to sing a song now?" Jared asked.
"Yeah," Danny said, "Can you sing Silent Night? We learned dat one too."
Jared laughed, "Sure, I can do that."
Danny snuggled up next to Jensen as Jensen wrapped his arms around him. Danny leaned his head on Jensen’s chest as he stared at Jared.
"Silent night. Holy night. All is calm, all is bright. Round Yon Virgin Mother and Child. Holy infant so tender and mild, sleep in heavenly peace. Sleep in heavenly peace," Jared sang quietly.
Jensen looked down at Danny and noticed he was sleeping.
"Wow, I'm so good. I put him to sleep," Jared said.
Jensen smiled, "That's a good thing. It means that it comforted him."
Jared smiled.
"You have such a soothing voice," Jensen said.
"Thanks," he said.
"I'll be right back," Jensen said as he stood up with Danny in his arms, "I'm just going to put him down."
"Okay," Jared replied.
Jensen walked back to their room and placed Danny in the middle of the bed. He put Danny’s puppy close to him and then covered him in many blankets, making sure that he would remain warm. Jensen lightly kissed his forehead before walking out of the room, leaving the door slightly ajar.
As Jensen walked back to the couch, he watched Jared staring at the fire burning. He looked as though he was far away obviously thinking about something or someone.
"What are you thinking about?" Jensen asked quietly as he sat on the couch next to Jared.
Jared turned and looked at Jensen, "Nothing really."
"Nothing?" Jensen asked, staring at him.
He sighed, "Well…"
"Would you like to talk about it?" Jensen asked.
"I guess I can tell you," Jared said, "But only if you tell me who this Will guy is."
Jensen frowned at him.
"Deal?" Jared asked hopefully.
"I guess," Jensen said.
Jensen knew that he could not ask Jared to explain something personal, if he did not share something personal himself.
"Okay, good," he said.
Jensen heard Danny yelling.
"Daddy!" he yelled, "Daddy!"
"I'm sorry," Jensen said.
Jared just smiled "It's okay."
"Thanks," Jensen said as he got up and walked down the hall, "Coming baby!"
Jared got up and followed Jensen to the room.
Jensen walked into the room and there was Danny sitting up, wide awake.
"What are you doing Mister?" Jensen asked, "It's time for your nap."
Danny smiled at Jensen, "I not tired any mo!"
Jared stood in the doorway, watching Jensen with his son. He could not help but smile as he watched the two of them.
"Oh yes you are," Jensen said as he climbed on the bed and sat next to Danny.
"No I not," Danny said.
Jensen laughed, "Yes you are," he said as he grabbed Danny and lay him down again. Jensen then smothered his son in kisses.
"Too many kisses!" Danny yelled while laughing.
"Never too many," Jensen said as he covered Danny and handed him his puppy again.
"I wiped you kiss off," Danny said as he brushed his hand across his cheek.
"Ugh!" Jensen exclaimed, "I guess I have to give you more," Jensen said, smiling at Danny.
"No!" Danny cried, "I rub it in," he said as he pretended to rub the kiss in.
"Oh okay," Jensen said, "That's much better."
Danny smiled proudly and Jensen got up.
"Daddy, can you lay wit me?" Danny asked as he wrapped his arm around his puppy's waist.
"Sure baby," Jensen said as he also laid on the bed.
Danny smiled and then closed his eyes.
Jared stood there looking at Jensen and Danny. He was fighting the urge to go over to them and snuggle with both of them. For some reason, he felt the need to protect them. He wanted to hold Jensen close to him. He wanted to run his fingers through his short spiky hair, trace over his lips with his tongue, and then pull him into a passionate kiss.
After Danny had fallen asleep, Jensen slowly got up and walked over to Jared.
Jared snapped out of his daze as he noticed Jensen standing in front of him. He smiled and then walked out with Jensen following behind him.
"You're so good with him," Jared said as they entered the living room.
"Thanks," Jensen said, smiling, "He's my everything."
"I can see that," Jared said, "Is there anyone else really close to you?"
"My family," Jensen said, “My friends.”
"I meant someone like a boyfriend or a husband," Jared said, “You are gay or at least bi, right?”
Jensen shook his head ‘no’. "I am gay but…no, there's no one like that."
"Who's Will to you then?" Jared asked curiously.
Jensen frowned as Jared mentioned Will's name. The thought of him made Jensen angry. Will had treated Danny and him so badly, and for some reason Jensen just lived with it.
Jared watched as Jensen's face became serious. He seemed to be angry. Jared hoped that he was not mad at him.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Jared asked quietly.
"Do you want to hear about it?" Jensen asked.
"Yeah, I want to know what made Danny respond that way," Jared said.
"It's a long story," Jensen said.
"Well we have plenty of time ‘cause the snow is not going to automatically disappear right this second," Jared said.
"Okay. Here it goes…" Jensen smiled, "Will, is my ex-boyfriend of 5 years."
"Who’s Danny's mother then?" Jared asked.
"He is adopted," Jensen said, “I adopted him.”
"Is that why you left?" Jared asked.
"Yeah, one of the main reasons," Jensen said, "Will could not accept the fact that Danny was our child. He always acted like Danny was not his child. Well technically, he is not our child, but we raised him; I raised him since he was five months old."
"And Will never accepted Danny as his son?" Jared asked, shocked.
"Yes. He hardly even acknowledged him," Jensen said.
"Jerk!" Jared said angrily, "Your son doesn't deserve to be treated like that. He's a great little boy."
Jensen smiled at Jared.
There Jared was, getting angry about how Danny was treated, when he had not even known them for more than a day or so.
"Why are you smiling?" Jared asked confused.
"It's just that you don't even know us really well, and you're calling Will a jerk," Jensen said.
"Oh, I'm sorry," Jared said.
"No, don't be," Jensen said, "He is a jerk."
"I just can't believe someone would treat a child that way," Jared said.
"Yeah, and unfortunately I stayed with him for 3 years," Jensen said.
"Why?" Jared asked.
"Because…I had to," Jensen replied.
"What do you mean you had to?" Jared asked curiously.
"He's the only thing I have…or had," Jensen said, correcting himself.
"What about your family? Your brother?" he asked.
"I'm sort of scared to confront them," Jensen said quietly.
"But why?" Jared asked.
"Because of what they'll say to me," Jensen said.
"Your brother is letting you stay with him though," Jared said, “Is it your mom and dad?”
"They…they will want to talk with me," Jensen said.
"About?" Jared inquired.
"Some of the choices that I've made," Jensen said.
"They don't agree with them?" Jared questioned.
"That's an understatement," Jensen muttered.
"I don't mean to pry, but may I ask what they were?" Jared asked softly, “Is it because of…your sexuality?”
"Ummm…no. It's not important," Jensen said, "Forget I ever mentioned anything."
Jensen got up and began to walk away.
"Jensen! Wait!" Jared called as he stood up.
Jensen continued walking down the hall, until he felt Jared’s hand wrap around his arm. He slowly turned around to face Jared as tears began to well up. Once he did, Jared immediately wrapped his arms around Jensen. Jensen also wrapped his arms around Jared, resting his head on Jared’s shoulder, as he cried.
"Ssh, ssh, it's okay," Jared said softly as he ran his hand though Jensen’s short hair.
"I ruined their lives," Jensen muttered, "I'm a failure."
"Ssh," Jared said. He lifted Jensen’s chin so that he was staring into Jensen’s eyes. He placed his hand on Jensen’s cheek and gently wiped the tears away. He took Jensen’s hand into his, intertwining their fingers, and began to lead Jensen to his room. Jared turned the light on and they entered the room.
"I'll be back," Jared said, and then walked out.
Jensen just stood there, unsure of what to do. Soon he heard Jared’s footsteps. He turned to see Jared walk in with a blanket in his hand close the door. Jared took Jensen’s hand and led him to the bed, "Go ahead, sit down."
Jensen looked at him and then hesitantly sat down. Jared then also sat down and wrapped the blanket around Jensen, "Are you warm?"
Jensen nodded his head ‘yes’.
They just sat there in silence. After a while, Jensen moved closer to Jared and then laid down on the bed. Jared looked at Jensen and did the same.
"If you want to still talk, I'm here to listen," Jared whispered as they both stared at the ceiling.
Jensen sighed, "I'm such a failure. I disappointed my mom, dad, brother, sister and most of all…myself."
"Why do you say that?" Jared asked softly.
"Because as soon as I revealed my sexuality, things changed for my family. Of course they were very supportive of me, they still are, but being gay in Texas, it’s not that easy you know?”
Jared nodded his head ‘yes’, “I know. I’m a Texan too.”
“Where?” Jensen asked surprised.
“San Antonio,” Jared replied, “You?”
“Dallas.”
“And…I’m gay too.”
“Really??” Jensen certainly had not expected that.
“Uh-huh. Now tell me the rest of the story,” Jared said and Jensen sighed.
“It was really hard for my parents to accept the neighbors’ suddenly weird or hostile behavior. I ruined their lives. Before I met Will, I had all these goals. I was doing excellent in school, and I was looking forward to going to college, so that I could become a physical therapist. I had all of this money saved for college," Jensen said, "But now look at me…I'm 30 years old, I have a 3 year old son, I'm alone, with no boyfriend or any long-term relationship. I have no further education and I have no home."
Jared turned on his side and looked at Jensen.
Jensen faced Jared and asked, "What kind of a father am I? How can I provide him with everything he needs when I can't get a decent paying job? What happens if he gets sick or hurt? Then what do I do? I've failed him as a dad."
"What about the money?" Jared asked curiously, "Were you involved in…?"
"Drugs?" Jensen asked.
"Yeah," Jared said.
"No, it was not nothing like that," Jensen said.
"Then where is it?" Jared asked.
"I spent all of it," Jensen said.
"On what?" Jared asked.
"Trying to pay bills, taking care of Danny," Jensen said.
"How about Will?" Jared asked.
"He wanted nothing to do with Danny. I was all on my own on that part. Will made that very clear from the start," Jensen said.
"Oh wow, I'm so sorry," Jared said.
"It's okay," Jared said quietly.
"So basically you sacrificed your career for your ex and your son?" Jared asked.
"Yeah, I did not really care though," Jensen said, "Nothing mattered because I was in love."
"Do you regret that?" Jared questioned.
"Yes and no," Jensen answered.
"What do you mean by that?" Jared inquired.
"Yes, I regret that I met Will because I could go to college and have a decent job. But most of all, I could've had a better relationship with my family than I do now," Jensen said, "But the one thing I absolutely do not regret is my baby, Danny."
"I understand what you mean," Jared said.
"Danny is everything to me. He's my reason for living," Jensen said.
"So why did you end up staying with Will?" Jared asked.
"Because he seemed to care about me, when I felt abandoned. No one really understood the pain I was going through for simply trying to be me. He understood my frustrations because he was gay too and he was older than me," Jensen said.
"So Will cared about you and took care of you when you thought that there was no one else?" Jared said.
"Yeah," Jensen said, "I thought that there was no one, but I always had people who cared about me. I was just too blind to see them."
"Your family?" Jared asked.
"Yeah, they really tried to be there for me. They did everything they possibly could, and well, they never really approved of Will, but I was in love with him, so I ended up living with Will," Jensen said, "and I did everything I could do to make my family mad. I knew they hated Will and that was part of the reason that I stayed with Will, and from then on, I just stopped talking to them. I did not want them to tell me what to do, because they could never have any idea what I was going through."
"Were they upset about Danny?" Jared asked.
"I'm not sure. I wrote them a letter when we adopted Danny. I did not need to hear them tell me how I messed up my life and how bad Will was, so I just wrote a letter," Jensen said.
"Wow, I'm so sorry," Jared said.
"I guess it was for the best though. I learnt how to be independent and live practically on my own," Jensen said and sighed, "If I would have just listened to them in the first place, then I wouldn't be in this predicament."
Tears began to well up in Jensen’s eyes, "Danny deserves so much better."
Jared wiped away Jensen’s single tear, "Don't be so hard on yourself. You seem to be a wonderful dad. You're doing everything that you can to make sure he has a good life. Plus, he seems to be very happy and very loved. All he cares about is that his daddy loves him."
"Yes, I guess you're right," Jensen said, reluctantly.
"Of course I'm right," Jared said, smiling at him.
Jensen smiled as he stared into Jensen’s kind eyes, while Jared gently caressed Jensen’s cheek with the back of his hand.
Jensen wanted nothing more than to lean forward and kiss him. In fact, he had wanted to kiss Jared since the first time they touched. Jensen could not figure out what it was, but he was drawn to Jared. He wanted to be touched by Jared, held by him, and kissed by him.
Jared could not help but to touch Jensen. For some reason, he felt a strong attraction to him. Jensen was so simple, yet so beautiful, and as he laid close to Jensen, he wanted to kiss those soft lips.
Jared then began running his hand through Jensen’s hair as Jensen slowly moved closer to him. He also began to move closer to Jensen, until their lips met in a heated kiss. Both of them needed the kiss so desperately, it seemed as though they had once been lovers and were just now returning to each other.
"Daddy!" yelled Danny.
Both Jared and Jensen broke away from each other, both blushing, feeling like they had just been caught doing something that they were not supposed to.
"Daddy!" yelled Danny again.
Jensen sat up, moving further away from Jared.
"I'm going to go check on him," Jensen said.
"Yeah, okay," Jared replied.
Jensen got up and quickly walked down the hall to where Danny was. He entered the room and there was Danny, wide awake and sitting up with his puppy clutched to his chest and a big smile on his face.
"Hey sweetheart," Jensen said happily as he went over to Danny and picked him up.
"Hi Daddy," Danny said as he wrapped his arm tightly around Jensen’s neck.
"Did you sleep well?" Jensen asked as Danny rested his head on Jensen’s shoulder.
"Yep," he said.
"Can I get a kiss?" Jensen asked him.
Danny smiled as he gave his dad a kiss on the cheek.
"Kiss your baby too," Jensen said.
"Otay," Danny said. He brought his puppy to his face and kissed the stuffed animal's nose.
Jared stood outside the doorway, just watching Jensen and Danny. He could not believe how wonderful that kiss was. He had waited so long to do that, but unfortunately it did not last long, and it was not because of Jensen; it was Danny. Had Danny not woken up, Jared would have continued to kiss Jensen and continue to hold him. Jared was not sure, but it seemed as though they both needed that kiss. They seemed like they both needed each other, even though they barely knew one another.
Jared cleared his throat.
Danny looked up to see Jared, "Hi!" he said happily.
"Hey buddy!" Jared said as he walked up to them. Danny reached out his arms for Jared.
"Do you want me to hold you?" Jared asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said.
"Okay," Jared said as he took Danny from Jensen’s arms.
"Are you hungry?" Jensen asked.
"Yep," Danny said, "I hungry!"
Jared rubbed Danny's tummy, "You want some good food?"
"Uh huh," Danny said.
"How about some grilled cheese?" Jared suggested.
"Yay!" yelled Danny, "Gwil cheese yummy!"
Jared laughed, "All right then, let's go make some."
Jared and Danny walked out down the hall towards the kitchen.
"I'll be there in a second!" Jensen yelled.
"K Daddy!" yelled Danny.
Jensen sat on the bed and sighed. What was he thinking kissing Jared, a complete stranger, a movie star? He had only known Jared for about a day and a half and there he was telling Jared everything about himself. Not only that, but he wanted to kiss Jared. It was not just because they were having a moment or whatever, although that helped, but it was because Jensen wanted Jared to kiss him. In fact, he wanted Jared to touch him, hold him, kiss him, but most of all Jensen wanted Jared to care for him.
Jensen was not sure why he felt so drawn to Jared, but he did. However, when Danny yelled, Jensen was once again reminded that he could not let himself get involved. His main priority was Danny, and not himself. Danny’s happiness and well being were so much more important than Jensen’s, and that kiss with Jared was selfish on his part. He was thinking about himself and not his son. What kind of a father was he?
"Jensen!" yelled Jared.
Jensen snapped out of his daze as he heard Jared's voice.
"Daddy! Food!" yelled Danny as Jensen heard his feet pitter-pattering on the floor as he came down the hallway.
Jensen got up and walked out. Danny came up to Jensen and grabbed his thumb as he led his father down the hall and into the living room. Jensen found a blanket on the floor with three plates all ready served.
"I figured it would be easier to sit on the floor," Jared said as he came up behind Jensen with two cans of pop.
"Yeah, sure," Jensen said.
"It picnic!" Danny said excitedly.
"Yeah, it is," Jensen said as they sat down.
Jensen poured Sprite into Danny's cup and then handed it to him. The three of them sat on the floor by the fire eating their grilled cheese. Jensen was sort of worried about talking to Jared, but luckily for him, his baby boy was quite the talker.
"And Simba he run way cause that mean lion," Danny said angrily.
"Oh, yeah," Jared said.
"He get lost and he want his mommy," Danny said.
"Yeah, he gets scared," agreed Jared.
"But den Pumba and Timon come and sing and pway!" Danny said happily.
Jared laughed, "Yep, they sing Hakuna-Mata!"
"Mean no worries!" yelled Danny.
Jared smiled and began singing Hakuna-Mata, with Danny joining in.
Jensen laughed as he watched the two of them sing. Once they had finished the song, Danny continued telling Jared about the story of The Lion King, which of course was his favorite movie.
After Danny had finished talking, he asked, "Daddy, can I watch Lion King?"
"No, I'm sorry. It's in the car buddy," Jensen said.
"But I wanna watch," he whined.
"When we get to your Uncle Josh’s house, I promise," Jensen said.
Danny pouted.
"Hey, how about we read your favorite book?" Jensen suggested.
"Yay!" he yelled.
"What's his favorite book?" Jared asked.
"The Monster at the End of the Book," Jensen said.
"Hmmm…I've never heard of that," Jared said.
"It's a cute book," Jensen said.
"I wanna read!" yelled Danny.
"We will, hold on just a second," Jensen said as he turned to Jared, "Do you mind if I take a shower?"
"No, that's fine," Jared said.
"Will you watch Danny for me?" Jensen asked hesitantly.
"Of course," Jared said, "He and I will play on the piano."
"Thanks," Jensen said, "And Danny you be a good boy for Jared."
"I will Daddy," Danny said.
"And we'll read your book once I get out of the shower," Jensen said, "I won't be long."
"Otay," Danny said.
Jensen went into the room and got his things from the bag. Once he had his clothes, Jensen headed to the bathroom and took his shower.
"We'll play on the piano as soon as I clean up this mess," Jared said.
"Otay," Danny said as he nodded his head up and down.
Jared began picking up everything and was ready to take it to the kitchen, when he remembered something. He looked over at the fire and watched as Danny was mesmerized by it.
"Hey buddy," Jared said, getting Danny's attention.
"Yeah," Danny said as he looked up at Jared.
"Why don't you pick up your cup and come into the kitchen with me?" Jared said, "I have a surprise for you."
"A supwsie?" Danny asked excitedly.
Jared smiled, "Yep, just for you."
Danny quickly picked up his cup and followed Jared into the kitchen. Jared threw the plates into the trash. Then he walked over to Danny and picked him up.
"Close your eyes," Jared said.
Danny put his hand over his eyes, but slightly spread his fingers so he could see.
"No peeking," Jared said, chuckling.
"I not," Danny said as he quickly closed his hand.
Jared quickly dug into the bag and then brought something out.
"Okay, open them," he said.
Danny smiled as he saw what Jared held in his hand.
"Choc-o-let!" Danny said happily.
"Yep," Jared said as he opened it for Danny.
He then set Danny down on a chair.
"You sit here and eat this, while I finish cleaning up," Jared said.
Danny nodded his head as he began to eat his candy.
Jared smiled at Danny and walked out and quickly picked up the rest of the mess. When he stepped into the kitchen, he immediately stopped as he saw Danny. Somehow, Danny had managed to get the chocolate all over his little face and hands.
Danny smiled at Jared, "Dat yummy!"
Jared began laughing, "Yeah, it looks like you enjoyed it."
He set the cups in the sink and then went over to Danny.
"I guess we better clean you up before your dad sees you like this," Jared said.
Danny nodded his head, agreeing.
Jared picked him up and sat him down on the counter, next to the sink. Jared grabbed a washcloth and gently began to wipe Danny's face.
Jensen walked out of the bathroom and went into his room. He brushed his hair and then went to go check on Danny.
Jensen stood in the doorway of the kitchen. He smiled to himself as he watched Danny patiently sit on the counter while Jared carefully and slowly tried to get the chocolate off of Danny.
"You know, it's not going to come off if you're that gentle," Jensen said.
Jared was startled as he heard Jensen's voice. He stood up straight and looked at him.
"You have to scrub it off," Jensen said as he went over to them.
"I did not want to hurt him," Jared said.
Jensen smiled, "That's sweet of you."
"Daddy, I eat choc-o-let!" Danny said happily.
"Yeah, I see," Jensen said.
"Sorry about that," Jared said.
"No, it's okay," Jensen said, "This little guy always makes a mess."
"Yep," Danny said proudly.
Jensen smiled, "All right messy boy, let's give you a bath and clean you up."
"Yay, bath!" Danny said, "Can I pway in da water?"
"Yeah, but not for long," Jensen said as he scooped Danny into his arms and headed towards the bathroom.
Jared continued picking up until he heard singing. He walked down the hall and stood there as he looked into the bathroom.
"Row, row, your boat! Gently down the stream!" Jensen sang as he washed Danny's hair.
It was their normal routine that whenever Danny would take a bath, Danny and Jensen would sing.
"Merrily, merrily, merrily…" Jensen sang.
"Life but a dream!" Danny sang happily.
Jared smiled to himself as he watched the two of them sing, while Jensen gave Danny his bath. Jared then quietly left before they saw him.
"All right, time to get out, your fingers are all wrinkled," Jensen said as he took Danny out.
"And my toes," Danny said as he lifted his foot up.
"Oh God, look at those wrinkled toes," Jensen said, "You're getting old!"
Danny laughed, "No, I not! I still dis many."
Jensen smiled as Danny held his fingers up, "Oh okay little buddy. I was getting worried."
"Daddy, I cold," Danny said as Jensen continued to dry him off.
"Well let's get your pajamas on and then we'll sit by the fire and read your book," Jensen said, "Sound good?"
"Yep," he said.
Jensen picked Danny up and took him to their room where he changed Danny into his pajamas. As soon as Danny had his pajamas on, he grabbed his puppy and began yawning.
"Sleepy?" Jensen asked.
"Nope," Danny said.
Jensen smiled as he watched Danny tiredly rub his eyes, "Okay."
He picked Danny up, grabbed his favorite book, and walked down the hall and into the living room where Jared was.
"Are you all clean now?" Jared asked.
"Yep, no more mess," Danny said, "Daddy got rid of it."
"Well that's good," Jared said.
Jensen sat down on the couch and set Danny in between Jared and him.
"Wanna listen to Daddy read my book?" Danny asked as he looked up at Jared.
"Sure," Jared said.
Danny smiled. He made himself comfortable in between the two adults, while Jared got the blanket and covered all three of them.
"So what's this book called?" Jared asked.
"The Monster at the end of this Book," Jensen said.
"Oh, sounds kind of scary," Jared said.
Danny smiled, "Wisten."
"Are you ready for me to begin reading?" Jensen asked.
Danny eagerly nodded his head up and down, then snuggled his head into Jensen’s side. Jensen put his arm around Danny and rested his hand on Danny’s little leg, while Jared placed his hand on top of Jensen’s. Jensen looked up at Jared puzzled. Jared just entwined his fingers with Jensen’s.
"Daddy, read!" Danny said impatiently.
"Okay," Jensen said. He opened to the first page of the book and then rested it on his lap, so that Danny could see the pictures.
"What did that say? On the first page, what did that say? Did that say there will be a Monster at the end of this book?? It did? Oh, I am so scared of Monsters!!" Jensen read.
Jensen continued to read even though he noticed that Danny's eyes were slowly closing. He knew that if he stopped reading and tried to put Danny to bed, he would immediately wake up and he would have to start reading all over again. So he continued on, until the end of the book.
Once he had finished, Jensen looked down at Danny and saw that he was sleeping.
"Did he fall asleep?" Jared asked quietly.
"Yeah," Jensen said, "He always does when I read the book to him."
Jensen pulled his hand away from Jared as he got up and then carefully pulled Danny into his arms.
"Here, let me help you," Jared said as he also got up.
He grabbed Danny's puppy that he had dropped and the book and followed Jensen back to their room. Jensen turned the light on and held Danny, as Jared pulled back the covers for him. Jensen gently laid Danny in the bed and covered him with the blankets, making sure that Danny was warm enough. Jared came over and placed Danny's puppy next to him.
They both stood there staring at each other.
"Uh…I think I'm going to bed now also," Jensen said.
"Yeah, okay," Jared said.
Jared began to walk out but then he stopped, "I was listening to the radio and they said the roads have been cleared. You'll be able to leave here by tomorrow afternoon."
"Oh, thanks," Jensen said.
Jared still just stood there. Then he slowly moved towards Jensen. He placed his hand on Jensen’s cheek and pulled Jensen closer to him. They began kissing.
All Jensen could think about was how good his kiss felt, about how much he just wanted to stay like that and never let Jared go, about how soft and gentle Jared’s kisses were, about how much he felt cared for at the moment. But he knew that he was being selfish again.
Jensen pulled away from Jared.
Jared looked at him sort of surprised.
"Good night," Jensen said, then went to his side of the bed and fixed the pillow.
"Good night," Jared whispered and quietly left the room and shut the door.
<< Part 1
Jensen slowly opened his eyes to see Danny sitting up next to him.
"What?" Jensen asked.
"It white outside," Danny said.
Jensen looked at him puzzled. Danny grabbed his hand; "Come on, up," Danny said as he stood on the bed and pulled Jensen towards the window.
"All right, all right, I'm up," Jensen said as he climbed out of bed.
Jensen picked Danny up into his arms and then walked over to the window. He looked out to see the ground covered in snow and little white snowflakes falling from the sky.
"What's dat?" he asked.
"It's snow, baby," Jensen answered.
"Snow!" Danny said excitedly, "Can I pway in it?"
"We'll see," Jensen said.
"I wanna go outside," Danny said.
"Not yet," Jensen said.
"Pwease," Danny begged.
"Later, I promise," Jensen said as he kissed Danny’s forehead.
Danny placed his hands on his hips, "Otay!"
"Good," Jensen said as he kissed Danny again, "I love you."
"I wuv you too," he said.
Jensen set Danny down on the bed and grabbed his clothes.
"Daddy's just going to change, so stay right here. Don't leave the room," Jensen said.
"Otay Daddy," Danny said.
Jensen walked down the hall to the bathroom. He quickly changed and then went back into the room to see Danny, standing on the bed, staring out the window.
"Are you watching the snow?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh," he said.
Jensen went over to Danny and hugged him. He picked Danny up and walked down the hall. They walked into the kitchen where breakfast was being made.
"Morning!" Danny said brightly.
Jensen cringed, waiting for the guy to flip out on him. He was not sure whether the guy was such a morning person or not, but he had definitely been a pain in the ass the night before.
"Morning," he replied as he turned around, smiling at Danny.
Jensen silently breathed a sigh of relief as he looked at the guy, finally realizing who he was staying with. He could not believe it, the famous actor, Jared Padalecki had stopped by the side of the road to help him. Jensen stared at him amazed, but still angry that he had stopped to help if he did not want to.
"When can we leave?" Jensen asked, still holding Danny in his arms.
"Leave?" Jared questioned, like Jensen was crazy, "In this?"
"Yes," Jensen said as Jared set food onto the table.
"We don't," Jared said.
"What do you mean?" Jensen asked.
"The car is buried, there's no way we can drive out of here," Jared said.
"So you mean we're stranded here?" Jensen asked angrily.
"Yes, that's what I'm saying," Jared said.
Jensen began getting nervous. Here they were, out in the middle of nowhere, stranded with some stranger. Okay, so he knew the guy’s name and what he did, but personally, he did not know the guy, and that was what scared him. Everything he had seen from the movies started to pop into his head. Like how a famous person could take advantage of someone and it's your word against theirs, and obviously they're not going to believe you.
Jared watched as the man just stood there staring at him. Jared could see the fear in his eyes, but he did a pretty good job of hiding it, or at least from the little kid.
"Sit down," Jared said, breaking into Jensen’s thoughts.
Jensen nervously sat down in the chair farthest away from Jared with Danny still in his arms.
"Daddy," Danny said.
"Yes," Jensen answered.
"Can I have cerweal?" Danny asked as he looked at the box of Apple Jacks, sat on the table.
"Sure, baby," Jensen said.
With Danny resting on his hip, Jensen got up and got him a bowl and spoon that were sitting on the counter. He sat down and poured Danny a bowl of cereals and then sat him on his lap.
Jared noticed how protective the guy was of his child. Never for one instance did he let the little boy out of his arms. Even when he could barley hold the baby and get everything he needed to feed him, he still held him. Jared watched as he sat the boy on his lap. He just sat there, rubbing his son’s head softly as the little boy ate, not even caring that he was not getting to eat. Jared knew he had to be starving, he had not eaten dinner the night before.
"Aren't you going to eat?" Jared asked.
Jensen looked up at him and locked eyes.
"No," Jensen said.
Jared stared into his beautiful green eyes, and then looked down at the little boy. He noticed the little boy’s hazel eyes, with dark brown hair.
Jensen protectively wrapped his arm around Danny as he watched Jared stare at his son. Jensen was afraid that Jared was thinking of hurting him.
“He must look like his mother,” Jared asked.
“Huh?”
“His eyes; they are hazel. Yours are green.”
“Oh,” Jensen said as he tightened his grip around Danny’s waist, “He is,-” Before Jensen had a chance to say something, Danny he raised his spoon up to Jensen, spilling the milk on the table, “Daddy, want some?"
"No, thank you," Jensen said as he kissed Danny’s head.
"You should eat something," Jared said as Jensen wiped up the mess Danny made, "I made a burrito for you."
"No, thank you," Jensen said.
"What? You don't trust my cooking?" Jared asked.
"No. I don't trust you," Jensen said before he had a chance to stop himself. That was not what he had meant to say, but he did anyway. He could not help it. He did not trust Jared or his intentions, whatever they were.
"Why not?" Jared asked.
"First of all, there's the obvious fact," Jensen said.
"And that is?" he asked.
"I don't know you!" Jensen said angrily.
"Oh, well my name is Jared, and I'm a serial killer," Jared said.
Danny immediately began to cry, hearing the word ‘kill’.
"Nice one," Jensen said, knowing Jared was just being a dumbass.
Jensen turned Danny around and hugged him tightly, "It's okay buddy."
"But. . .but he said bad word," Danny cried.
"I know, but he did not mean it," Jensen said as he kissed Danny on the head.
"You said dat when you say kill, you go way and never come back," Danny said.
"I know, but don't worry. I'm right here," Jensen said reassuringly.
"Daddy, I don't want you go way," Danny said.
Jensen wiped away Danny’s tears, "I'm right here. Okay?" Jensen asked, "Daddy's not going anywhere without you."
"Otay," Danny said as he wrapped his little arms around Jensen.
Jensen hugged his son tightly and kissed him on the head.
Jared sat there watching the man comforting his little boy. He had not meant to scare him. The guy knew that he was just being sarcastic, but of course, the little boy did not understand sarcasm. Jared felt terrible for making him cry.
Jensen looked up at Jared and he was just staring at them. He got up and went back to his room. Jared got up and followed the man as he walked down the hall. Jensen walked into the room and sat Danny on the bed. He, then, pulled the suitcase onto the bed. Jared stood in the doorway watching him.
"Here's your truck baby," Jensen said.
"Tank you," Danny said.
"You just sit here and play while Daddy goes and gets his food. Okay?" Jensen asked.
Danny looked at him, uncertain. He, then, looked at Jared with fear in his eyes.
"No, baby," Jensen said, "He's not going to stay here with you. Okay?"
Jensen moved his hand, motioning Jared to leave. He understood and walked down the hall.
"If you need me, you just call me. I won't be long. I'm just going to get a burrito really quickly," Jensen said, kissing Danny on the cheek, "Okay?"
"Otay," Danny said.
"I'll be right back," Jensen said as he slowly walked out. Danny sat there playing with his truck, pretending it crashed.
Jensen walked down the hall and into the kitchen.
"I'm so sorry. I didn’t mean to scare him like that," Jared said as the man walked into the kitchen.
Jensen glared at him. He just wanted to beat him to death for making Danny cry and scaring him. He had left Will hoping that Danny would not be scared anymore, but that did not look like it was going to happen.
Jensen went over to the table and grabbed a plate and the burrito Jared had made for him.
"Well. . .aren't you going to say something?" Jared asked.
"What do you want me to say?" Jensen asked.
"Anything," Jared said.
"Right now the protective father in me is telling me to just bitch you out," Jensen said angrily, "But I don't want to yell and scare Danny, so I'm not going to."
Jensen began to walk away from the table when Jared grabbed his arm. A spark went through Jensen’s body as Jared’s skin touched his. Jensen slowly turned around looking at Jared. He wondered if Jared had felt the same thing as he just had.
‘He is an actor, dumbass, and he is straight. He is not interested in you,’ Jensen thought.
"Look, I said I'm sorry," Jared said.
"I know, I heard you," Jensen said.
Jared just stared into Jensen eyes.
"Can you please let go?" Jensen asked as he looked down at his arm.
"Oh," Jared said, "Yeah, I'm sorry."
Jared quickly let go.
"Thanks," Jensen said.
Jared watched Jensen walk back to him room. The truth was he did not want to let go of the guy. For some reason, Jared wanted to pull the guy closer to him. In fact, he wanted to touch his face and trace his soft lips with his finger. Jared wanted so badly to feel the guy’s skin against his. He felt the need to just hold him in his arms.
Jensen’s heart was racing as he got back to the room where Danny was still playing. He closed the door and sat down on the bed eating.
He could not believe the way Jared’s touch had affected him. At first it frightened Jensen, but then he realized it was not a threatening touch. It was as if a jolt of electricity had shot through Jensen. He had never felt this sort of spark with Will, even before things went down the hill between them.
But Jensen knew that he had to ignore those feelings, whether he wanted to or not. He could not get involved with that guy, it was not an option. For all he knew, the guy was a hotshot, and more than likely straight. He had promised himself to just concentrate on taking care of his son. Danny meant more to him than some little fling.
For all he knew, Jared had felt nothing. He had not shown any sort of emotion. Hell, he probably had a wife or some type of long time girlfriend. Jensen knew Jared would never have any interest in him.
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Danny looked at his father sleeping and laid down next to him. He placed his hand on top of his father’s as he stared at him.
That was when he heard music coming from somewhere outside the room. He sat up and listened to it. He picked up his puppy and then climbed off the bed, curious to see where the music was coming from.
He opened the door and slipped out into the hall way, dragging his puppy by his tail.
Jared sat down behind the piano in the cabin living room. He just needed to clear his mind of everything, and there was no better way than through music. He could always lose himself in music. He just hoped he could still remember playing. It had been a long time since he had played piano.
He placed his fingers on the keys and began playing whatever his heart desired.
Danny crept into the main room where he saw the man sitting down and playing on the piano. Afraid to go any closer, he sat down in a corner with his puppy held close to him, watching the man play his beautiful music.
Jared finished his song, stopping and just sitting there. He felt as though someone was watching him. He turned around to see the little boy walking towards him.
Danny froze as he saw the man turn around. He clutched his puppy dog closer to him.
Jared did not want to frighten the little boy, so he smiled at him, "Hello."
Danny was not sure what to do, whether he should run back to his dad or talk to this man.
Jared watched the little boy. He could tell that he was thinking.
"It's okay," Jared said, "Come here."
Danny looked back at the hallway, as if he were looking for his father to see if he would tell him what to, but he was not there.
Jared slowly got up and walked over to Danny, "I'm not going to hurt you. It's okay."
Danny stared at the man who was now kneeling in front of him.
"Is this your puppy?" Jared asked.
Danny smiled shyly as he nodded his head ‘yes’.
"He's pretty cute," Jared said.
"His name Choc-o-let," Danny answered quietly.
Jared smiled glad that the little boy was beginning to trust him.
"Chocolate, that's a very good name," Jared said as he looked at the dark brown puppy.
"Daddy tought so too," Danny said, "He like it lot."
"He likes to eat chocolate?" Jared asked.
"Yep," Danny said.
"Do you like it too?" Jared asked.
"Its nummy," Danny said as he rubbed his stomach, "You like?"
"Yeah, I like Chocolate too," Jared said, smiling, "So what's your name?"
"Danny," he answered.
"Well, hi Danny, my name is Jared," he said as he stuck out his hand for the little boy to shake.
Danny gave him five instead, "Hi."
"So where's your daddy?" Jared asked.
"He's aseep," Danny said.
"Oh okay," Jared said, "Were you listening to me play the piano?"
"Uh huh," Danny said.
"Do you want to play?" Jared asked.
"Pwease," Danny said.
"Sure," Jared said happily, "Can I pick you up?"
Danny opened his arms wide, letting Jared pick him up.
Jared scooped Danny into his arms and walked over to the piano. He sat down on the bench with Danny on his lap.
"Go ahead," Jared said.
Danny smiled, handing his puppy to Jared, and then began banging on the keys. He giggled as heard music coming from it, realizing he was making those noises.
"Watch this," Jared said.
Jared pressed a button at the top, changing it to sound like a horn, which really sounded like a farting noise.
"Listen," Jared said.
He pressed the button, and it sounded like a loud fart. Danny looked up at Jared strangely, not exactly sure where that sound had come from.
Jared smiled and he took Danny's little finger and pressed the key with it, showing him.
As Danny heard it, he began to giggle, "It's da p-ano!"
"Yep, just press the key," Jared said.
"Otay!" Danny said excitedly and he began hitting as many keys as he could. Both him and Jared started laughing at the sounds that were being made.
Jensen opened his eyes, remembering where he was. He sighed, realizing he was stuck there in that cabin. He sat up and looked around the room for Danny. He was nowhere to be seen.
"Danny, baby," Jensen said. No answer. He looked at the door, slightly ajar.
He quickly got up and walked down the hall cursing himself for falling asleep, and ready to kick some ass if he had to. That was when he heard a weird noise. He followed the sound and walked into the room, to find Danny sitting with Jared, both laughing.
Jared noticed the guy as he walked in. He could see the worry written all over the guy’s face.
"Uh oh, looks like we woke up your Dad," Jared said.
"Uh oh!" Danny said, smiling at Jensen.
"Come here," Jensen said.
"What Daddy?" Danny asked as he climbed off of Jared's lap.
He walked over to Jensen and he immediately picked Danny up, wrapping his arms around him protectively.
"Daddy! You squish me!" Danny said.
Jensen smiled and kissed him, "Sorry baby, I just wanted to make sure you were okay. You scared me cause you weren't in the room."
"He just came out here with me," Jared said.
"Yeah! Daddy, he play pretty moo-sic, like you!" Danny said excitedly.
"Really?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh, come here, want to show you Daddy," Danny said as he leaned his body towards Jared.
Jensen set him down and followed him as he quickly went over to Jared. He got to the bench and climbed into Jared's lap.
Jensen was surprised to see him go so easily with Jared. Normally it took Danny a while to get used to any other person, especially guys, except Jensen. He always stayed away from the guys, fearing that they would yell at him, like Will normally used to. Other than Chris at work, he had clung to Jensen like glue whenever they were around another guy. Jensen stared at Jared, wondering what was so special or different about him that made Danny go to him so easily.
"Daddy! Watch!" Danny said excitedly.
"Okay, I am," Jensen said as he smiled at Danny.
Jared pressed a key at the top and Danny began hitting as many keys as he could at once, all the while smiling at how good he thought he was. Once he was finished, Jensen began clapping.
"Bravo! Bravo!" Jensen exclaimed, smiling at him.
Danny giggled as he watched his dad cheer for him, then he turned to Jared.
"You play you pretty moo-sic now," Danny said to him. He took his puppy from Jared and climbed off of his lap.
"Uh, what do you want me to play?" Jared asked.
Danny shrugged his shoulders, "I don't know."
"All right, then I'll play anything that comes to mind," Jared said.
Jared sat at the piano a few seconds longer, thinking of a song. Once he had it in his mind, he placed his fingers on the keys, lightly pressing down.
Jensen stood there, watching as Jared got lost in the music. His eyes were closed and he was slightly swaying as though the music was flowing through him.
As Jared played, he forgot that the guy and his son were standing there watching him. All he could think about was how much the song affected him. He did not realize that his tears were threatening to fall.
Jensen stood there stunned as he saw all the emotion that Jared was putting into the song, and how much it was affecting him. Once he was finished, he opened his eyes and a tear slowly ran down his cheek.
Jared saw the guy staring at him and quickly wiped away his tear, not wanting to break down in front of him and his son, when that was what he really needed to do.
Jensen smiled at him, "Wow. That was beautiful. You really have some talent."
"Thanks," Jared said, also smiling.
Jared did not feel happy though, but he did not feel like crying like a big baby in front of them either, so he forced himself to smile, willing his tears to go away along with the lump in his throat.
Danny smiled and then began clapping loudly.
"Bavo! Bavo!" he exclaimed.
Both Jared and Jensen began laughing.
"You like music, don't you?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said smiling.
Jared got up and walked over to Jensen.
"I don't think we've been properly introduced," Jared said.
"No, we haven't," Jensen replied.
"Hi, I'm Jared," he said.
"Hi Jared, I'm Jensen," Jensen said.
"It's nice to meet you," Jared said, smiling.
"You too," Jensen said, "And this young man here is. . ."
"Danny," Jared answered, "We talked earlier."
"Oh, I see," Jensen said.
"Is dat otay Daddy?" Danny asked.
"Yeah buddy, that's fine," Jensen said.
The three of them just stood there, Jared and Jensen staring at each other.
"Daddy, can I pway now?" Danny asked as he tapped on Jensen’s leg.
Jensen bent down and scooped Danny up into his arms, "I don't know."
"Pwease. Choc-o-let wants to go out too," Danny said.
"You want to go out and play in the snow?" Jared asked.
"Uh huh!" Danny said as he nodded his head up and down.
"Have you ever seen snow before?" Jared asked.
"No," Danny answered.
"Well then what are we waiting for? Let's get out there," Jared said.
"Yay!!" Danny exclaimed.
"But I don't think I have his heavy jacket, I think it's still in the car," Jensen said.
"Don't worry about it," Jared said, "I think I have one somewhere, I'll be right back."
Jared searched in the closet near the front door. Once he found what he was looking for he went back to Jensen and Danny.
"Here try this," Jared said as he handed Jensen a jacket for Danny, "I have a nephew about Danny’s age, so it should fit you little guy."
Jensen set Danny down and then put the jacket on him.
"What do you say?" Jensen asked.
"Tank you Jared," Danny said.
Jared smiled, "You're welcome buddy."
"Go get your shoes if you want to go out," Jensen said.
"Otay!" Danny said happily as he hurried down the hall in the oversized jacket.
Jensen smiled at Danny’s excitement.
"Do you have a jacket?" Jared asked.
"Uh no, I'll just wear my sweatshirt," Jensen said.
"That won't be enough. Here let's get you something different," Jared said as he took Jensen’s hand. As soon as Jared’s skin touched Jensen’s, it felt like it was on fire again. Jared felt Jensen tense up as soon as he touched him, but he was not going to let go. He still had the need to hold Jensen and touch him.
Jared led Jensen to the closet and opened it, "Go ahead and pick the jacket you want."
"Thanks," Jensen said as he looked through them. He picked the one he liked and then closed the closet door.
"I got 'em Daddy, I got 'em!" Danny yelled as he ran down the hall with his shoes dragging behind him.
Jensen sat down on the couch and Danny sat on the floor. Jensen quickly put them on for him and then tied them, "Okay, you're all set."
Danny smiled happily. He grabbed Jensen’s hand, trying to pull him up, "Snow, now!"
"I have to go get my shoes, first," Jensen said.
"I can take him outside right now while you get your shoes," Jared said.
"Yay!" Danny exclaimed.
"I guess," Jensen said.
Jared came over to Danny and picked him up, "We'll be waiting for you outside."
Jensen nodded his head ‘okay’, as Jared walked away. He got up and went to his room.
Jared opened the door and the ice cold air came rushing in.
"Dat cold!" Danny exclaimed as he felt the air hit his little face.
Jared walked out onto the porch, looking at the snow that was everywhere. Small snowflakes were still falling from the sky.
"What dat?" Danny asked as he pointed towards the roof.
Jared smiled as he walked towards it, "It's an icicle."
"Icee," Danny said.
"Something like that," Jared said. He grabbed onto it and then broke most of it off, "Here you go."
Danny took it and looked at it, "Can I eat it?"
"Sure," Jared said, "It's just ice."
Danny smiled and then began to suck on it. Jared and Danny sat down on the steps of the porch.
"Jared," Danny said.
"Yeah buddy," Jared said.
"How tome you say bad word?" Danny asked.
Jared sat there puzzled. He could not remember swearing in front of him. Then he remembered what had happened earlier.
"You Daddy be mad at you?" Danny asked.
Jared smiled, "Yeah, my dad would have been mad at me."
"Don't do again," Danny said.
"Okay, I won't," Jared said as he pulled Danny closer to him.
Once Danny was through with the icicle he said, "All done."
"Ready to go in the snow now?" Jared asked.
"Yeah!" Danny said excitedly.
Jared picked him up and then walked down the stairs, into the soft white snow.
Jensen walked outside onto the porch. He watched as Jared took his son out into the snow. Jensen sat on the steps exactly where they were once sitting. He watched as he set Danny down in the snow. Danny clung to Jared's leg, afraid that he was going to sink in. While still holding onto Jared, Danny bent down and touched the snow. He giggled as he felt it squish between his fingers as he pushed his hand further in the snow. He grabbed a handful and brought it up to his face. He smelled it and then stuck out his tongue, barely touching it.
"It cold," Danny said as he looked up at Jared.
"Yep," Jared said.
"Can I eat it?" Danny asked.
"Go ahead little guy," Jared answered.
Danny brought his hand up to his mouth and licked the remaining snow off of his hand.
Soon he got brave enough to let go of Jared and realize that he was not going to sink.
Jensen stared out into the snow, remembering his own childhood. He breathed in deeply, smelling the fresh cool air. It was so refreshing and something new, different from Texas, different from his childhood. Jensen saw the images of his parents at their home. He saw images of Joshua and Mackenzie, when everything was still good, when Will was not in the picture yet.
Jared watched as Jensen stared at his son, but he knew that he was not really seeing him. His mind was somewhere else. Then he felt Danny's little hand grabbing onto his pant leg. He looked down and smiled at him.
"Want me to teach you how to make a snow ball?" Jared asked.
Danny smiled, "Uh huh."
Jared bent down so he was eye level with Danny. Then he picked up some snow.
"You get a lot of snow in your hands and you make it into a small ball. Then you press it together tightly so it will stay together when you throw it," Jared said as he finished making the snow ball.
Then he handed it to Danny, "Let's go get your Dad."
"Otay!" Danny said.
Jared picked him up and walked closer to Jensen, "Now."
Danny pulled his arm back and threw the snow ball as hard as he could.
Jensen was snapped back into reality as snow ball landed in his lap, sending the excess snow into his face.
"Aah!" Jensen screamed, "That's cold!"
Jensen heard Danny giggling. He looked up to see him and Jared standing there.
"Ooohhh, you guys are in trouble now!" Jensen said, smiling at Danny as he got up.
After they had their snowball fight, Jared and Jensen sat down on the steps of the cabin while Danny continued to play in the snow.
"Look Daddy! I made an angel!" yelled Danny excitedly, as he rolled around in the snow.
"Yeah, I can see that," Jensen said, smiling at him.
Danny got up and shook his little body, so the snow would fall off of him. He began gathering snow so he would make a snowman.
"So where were you headed?" Jared asked.
"To my brother’s," Jensen replied.
"Really? Why?" Jared asked, "If you don't mind me asking."
"No, it's okay," Jensen said, "My son and I were going to move in with my brother and his wife."
"Oh," Jared said, "Danny's mom isn't moving with you?"
"Umm… well…," Jensen began. Then Danny came running up to them.
Jensen thanked God that Danny had interrupted him; He did not really feel like explaining Will to Jared at the moment.
"Look, snowman!" Danny said excitedly.
Jensen looked to where Danny had pointed to see a large pile of snow gathered together, somewhat in the shape of a snowman.
"Good job!" Jensen said as he kissed Danny’s little cheek.
"Yeah, that's a pretty good snowman," Jared said.
"Tank you," Danny said proudly.
"Oh buddy, your face is so cold," Jensen said as he touched Danny’s cheeks.
"I know," he said, "Can we go inside? It's cold, brrr," he said as he shook his little body.
Jensen smiled, "Okay baby, we can go inside now."
Jared picked Danny up and then helped Jensen up. They walked into the warmth of the cabin.
"Better," said Danny.
Jared smiled, "You know what would be even better?"
"What?" Danny asked.
"How about some hot chocolate?" Jared suggested.
"Yay!" yelled Danny.
"Why don't you sit with your dad here and he can warm you up, while I get it ready," Jared said as he put Danny in Jensen’s arms.
"Otay," Danny said happily.
Jensen took Danny over to the couch and sat him down, taking his shoes and coat off. He then took his off and placed them on a chair. He grabbed the blanket that laid on the couch and wrapped it around Danny and himself.
"Are you getting warm yet?" Jensen asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said.
Jared quickly made the hot chocolate. He wanted to continue his conversation with Jensen. He was curious as to why he was by himself and what had happened to Danny's mom. Why was she not moving with them? Or why was she not helping them move?
"Here's your hot chocolate," Jared said as he handed Danny's cup to Jensen.
"Yay!" Danny said.
"Here's yours," Jared said as he handed another cup to Jensen.
"Thank you. But can you just set it on the table for now?" Jensen asked.
"Sure," he said.
He placed it on the counter and then came over and sat with Danny and Jensen on the couch.
"How is it buddy?" Jared asked as Jensen helped Danny drink his hot chocolate.
"Yummy!" he said as he smiled at Jared.
"Good," Jared said as he got up and put logs in the fireplace, starting a nice warm fire.
"So Jensen, how come you're moving by yourself?" Jared asked.
Danny pulled his hot chocolate away from his mouth and responded, "Cause Will no like me," he then took his cup and continued drinking, getting a chocolate mustache on his upper lip. Jared stared at Danny in disbelief. He could not believe what he had just heard Danny say. Will? As in a man? Was Jensen gay?
Jensen sat there stunned at Danny's quick response. He did not exactly know what to say, so he bent down and kissed Danny on the top of the head, "I love you baby."
"I know Daddy," Danny replied as he smiled at Jensen, "I wuv you too."
Jensen turned to Jared and mouthed, "Not now."
Jared nodded his head, understanding what Jensen meant. He felt terrible for asking that question. He thought it was a safe question, but now he could understand why Jensen had hesitated to answer his question earlier. He looked at Danny, feeling bad that that was the little boy's response.
"So Danny, do you go to school?" Jared asked, hoping that would be a safer subject.
"Yep," Danny said happily, "We learn new song da other day."
"Really?" Jared asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said, "Want me sing it?"
"Yeah," Jared said, smiling at him, "Sing away."
"Otay," Danny said excitedly and wiped his mouth off with his sleeve.
"Danny," Jensen scolded. He grabbed a napkin from the coffee table and wiped Danny’s mouth off.
"Okay, now go ahead," Jensen said as he sat Danny on his lap, facing Jared.
"Twinkle, twinkle, wittle star! How I wonder what you are! Up above so da world so high, wike a diamond in da sky. Twinkle, twinkle, wittle star! How I wonder what you are!" Danny sang.
"Good job little guy," Jared said as he clapped for Danny.
"Tank you," he replied, "Dats all I know."
"Want me to sing a song now?" Jared asked.
"Yeah," Danny said, "Can you sing Silent Night? We learned dat one too."
Jared laughed, "Sure, I can do that."
Danny snuggled up next to Jensen as Jensen wrapped his arms around him. Danny leaned his head on Jensen’s chest as he stared at Jared.
"Silent night. Holy night. All is calm, all is bright. Round Yon Virgin Mother and Child. Holy infant so tender and mild, sleep in heavenly peace. Sleep in heavenly peace," Jared sang quietly.
Jensen looked down at Danny and noticed he was sleeping.
"Wow, I'm so good. I put him to sleep," Jared said.
Jensen smiled, "That's a good thing. It means that it comforted him."
Jared smiled.
"You have such a soothing voice," Jensen said.
"Thanks," he said.
"I'll be right back," Jensen said as he stood up with Danny in his arms, "I'm just going to put him down."
"Okay," Jared replied.
Jensen walked back to their room and placed Danny in the middle of the bed. He put Danny’s puppy close to him and then covered him in many blankets, making sure that he would remain warm. Jensen lightly kissed his forehead before walking out of the room, leaving the door slightly ajar.
As Jensen walked back to the couch, he watched Jared staring at the fire burning. He looked as though he was far away obviously thinking about something or someone.
"What are you thinking about?" Jensen asked quietly as he sat on the couch next to Jared.
Jared turned and looked at Jensen, "Nothing really."
"Nothing?" Jensen asked, staring at him.
He sighed, "Well…"
"Would you like to talk about it?" Jensen asked.
"I guess I can tell you," Jared said, "But only if you tell me who this Will guy is."
Jensen frowned at him.
"Deal?" Jared asked hopefully.
"I guess," Jensen said.
Jensen knew that he could not ask Jared to explain something personal, if he did not share something personal himself.
"Okay, good," he said.
Jensen heard Danny yelling.
"Daddy!" he yelled, "Daddy!"
"I'm sorry," Jensen said.
Jared just smiled "It's okay."
"Thanks," Jensen said as he got up and walked down the hall, "Coming baby!"
Jared got up and followed Jensen to the room.
Jensen walked into the room and there was Danny sitting up, wide awake.
"What are you doing Mister?" Jensen asked, "It's time for your nap."
Danny smiled at Jensen, "I not tired any mo!"
Jared stood in the doorway, watching Jensen with his son. He could not help but smile as he watched the two of them.
"Oh yes you are," Jensen said as he climbed on the bed and sat next to Danny.
"No I not," Danny said.
Jensen laughed, "Yes you are," he said as he grabbed Danny and lay him down again. Jensen then smothered his son in kisses.
"Too many kisses!" Danny yelled while laughing.
"Never too many," Jensen said as he covered Danny and handed him his puppy again.
"I wiped you kiss off," Danny said as he brushed his hand across his cheek.
"Ugh!" Jensen exclaimed, "I guess I have to give you more," Jensen said, smiling at Danny.
"No!" Danny cried, "I rub it in," he said as he pretended to rub the kiss in.
"Oh okay," Jensen said, "That's much better."
Danny smiled proudly and Jensen got up.
"Daddy, can you lay wit me?" Danny asked as he wrapped his arm around his puppy's waist.
"Sure baby," Jensen said as he also laid on the bed.
Danny smiled and then closed his eyes.
Jared stood there looking at Jensen and Danny. He was fighting the urge to go over to them and snuggle with both of them. For some reason, he felt the need to protect them. He wanted to hold Jensen close to him. He wanted to run his fingers through his short spiky hair, trace over his lips with his tongue, and then pull him into a passionate kiss.
After Danny had fallen asleep, Jensen slowly got up and walked over to Jared.
Jared snapped out of his daze as he noticed Jensen standing in front of him. He smiled and then walked out with Jensen following behind him.
"You're so good with him," Jared said as they entered the living room.
"Thanks," Jensen said, smiling, "He's my everything."
"I can see that," Jared said, "Is there anyone else really close to you?"
"My family," Jensen said, “My friends.”
"I meant someone like a boyfriend or a husband," Jared said, “You are gay or at least bi, right?”
Jensen shook his head ‘no’. "I am gay but…no, there's no one like that."
"Who's Will to you then?" Jared asked curiously.
Jensen frowned as Jared mentioned Will's name. The thought of him made Jensen angry. Will had treated Danny and him so badly, and for some reason Jensen just lived with it.
Jared watched as Jensen's face became serious. He seemed to be angry. Jared hoped that he was not mad at him.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Jared asked quietly.
"Do you want to hear about it?" Jensen asked.
"Yeah, I want to know what made Danny respond that way," Jared said.
"It's a long story," Jensen said.
"Well we have plenty of time ‘cause the snow is not going to automatically disappear right this second," Jared said.
"Okay. Here it goes…" Jensen smiled, "Will, is my ex-boyfriend of 5 years."
"Who’s Danny's mother then?" Jared asked.
"He is adopted," Jensen said, “I adopted him.”
"Is that why you left?" Jared asked.
"Yeah, one of the main reasons," Jensen said, "Will could not accept the fact that Danny was our child. He always acted like Danny was not his child. Well technically, he is not our child, but we raised him; I raised him since he was five months old."
"And Will never accepted Danny as his son?" Jared asked, shocked.
"Yes. He hardly even acknowledged him," Jensen said.
"Jerk!" Jared said angrily, "Your son doesn't deserve to be treated like that. He's a great little boy."
Jensen smiled at Jared.
There Jared was, getting angry about how Danny was treated, when he had not even known them for more than a day or so.
"Why are you smiling?" Jared asked confused.
"It's just that you don't even know us really well, and you're calling Will a jerk," Jensen said.
"Oh, I'm sorry," Jared said.
"No, don't be," Jensen said, "He is a jerk."
"I just can't believe someone would treat a child that way," Jared said.
"Yeah, and unfortunately I stayed with him for 3 years," Jensen said.
"Why?" Jared asked.
"Because…I had to," Jensen replied.
"What do you mean you had to?" Jared asked curiously.
"He's the only thing I have…or had," Jensen said, correcting himself.
"What about your family? Your brother?" he asked.
"I'm sort of scared to confront them," Jensen said quietly.
"But why?" Jared asked.
"Because of what they'll say to me," Jensen said.
"Your brother is letting you stay with him though," Jared said, “Is it your mom and dad?”
"They…they will want to talk with me," Jensen said.
"About?" Jared inquired.
"Some of the choices that I've made," Jensen said.
"They don't agree with them?" Jared questioned.
"That's an understatement," Jensen muttered.
"I don't mean to pry, but may I ask what they were?" Jared asked softly, “Is it because of…your sexuality?”
"Ummm…no. It's not important," Jensen said, "Forget I ever mentioned anything."
Jensen got up and began to walk away.
"Jensen! Wait!" Jared called as he stood up.
Jensen continued walking down the hall, until he felt Jared’s hand wrap around his arm. He slowly turned around to face Jared as tears began to well up. Once he did, Jared immediately wrapped his arms around Jensen. Jensen also wrapped his arms around Jared, resting his head on Jared’s shoulder, as he cried.
"Ssh, ssh, it's okay," Jared said softly as he ran his hand though Jensen’s short hair.
"I ruined their lives," Jensen muttered, "I'm a failure."
"Ssh," Jared said. He lifted Jensen’s chin so that he was staring into Jensen’s eyes. He placed his hand on Jensen’s cheek and gently wiped the tears away. He took Jensen’s hand into his, intertwining their fingers, and began to lead Jensen to his room. Jared turned the light on and they entered the room.
"I'll be back," Jared said, and then walked out.
Jensen just stood there, unsure of what to do. Soon he heard Jared’s footsteps. He turned to see Jared walk in with a blanket in his hand close the door. Jared took Jensen’s hand and led him to the bed, "Go ahead, sit down."
Jensen looked at him and then hesitantly sat down. Jared then also sat down and wrapped the blanket around Jensen, "Are you warm?"
Jensen nodded his head ‘yes’.
They just sat there in silence. After a while, Jensen moved closer to Jared and then laid down on the bed. Jared looked at Jensen and did the same.
"If you want to still talk, I'm here to listen," Jared whispered as they both stared at the ceiling.
Jensen sighed, "I'm such a failure. I disappointed my mom, dad, brother, sister and most of all…myself."
"Why do you say that?" Jared asked softly.
"Because as soon as I revealed my sexuality, things changed for my family. Of course they were very supportive of me, they still are, but being gay in Texas, it’s not that easy you know?”
Jared nodded his head ‘yes’, “I know. I’m a Texan too.”
“Where?” Jensen asked surprised.
“San Antonio,” Jared replied, “You?”
“Dallas.”
“And…I’m gay too.”
“Really??” Jensen certainly had not expected that.
“Uh-huh. Now tell me the rest of the story,” Jared said and Jensen sighed.
“It was really hard for my parents to accept the neighbors’ suddenly weird or hostile behavior. I ruined their lives. Before I met Will, I had all these goals. I was doing excellent in school, and I was looking forward to going to college, so that I could become a physical therapist. I had all of this money saved for college," Jensen said, "But now look at me…I'm 30 years old, I have a 3 year old son, I'm alone, with no boyfriend or any long-term relationship. I have no further education and I have no home."
Jared turned on his side and looked at Jensen.
Jensen faced Jared and asked, "What kind of a father am I? How can I provide him with everything he needs when I can't get a decent paying job? What happens if he gets sick or hurt? Then what do I do? I've failed him as a dad."
"What about the money?" Jared asked curiously, "Were you involved in…?"
"Drugs?" Jensen asked.
"Yeah," Jared said.
"No, it was not nothing like that," Jensen said.
"Then where is it?" Jared asked.
"I spent all of it," Jensen said.
"On what?" Jared asked.
"Trying to pay bills, taking care of Danny," Jensen said.
"How about Will?" Jared asked.
"He wanted nothing to do with Danny. I was all on my own on that part. Will made that very clear from the start," Jensen said.
"Oh wow, I'm so sorry," Jared said.
"It's okay," Jared said quietly.
"So basically you sacrificed your career for your ex and your son?" Jared asked.
"Yeah, I did not really care though," Jensen said, "Nothing mattered because I was in love."
"Do you regret that?" Jared questioned.
"Yes and no," Jensen answered.
"What do you mean by that?" Jared inquired.
"Yes, I regret that I met Will because I could go to college and have a decent job. But most of all, I could've had a better relationship with my family than I do now," Jensen said, "But the one thing I absolutely do not regret is my baby, Danny."
"I understand what you mean," Jared said.
"Danny is everything to me. He's my reason for living," Jensen said.
"So why did you end up staying with Will?" Jared asked.
"Because he seemed to care about me, when I felt abandoned. No one really understood the pain I was going through for simply trying to be me. He understood my frustrations because he was gay too and he was older than me," Jensen said.
"So Will cared about you and took care of you when you thought that there was no one else?" Jared said.
"Yeah," Jensen said, "I thought that there was no one, but I always had people who cared about me. I was just too blind to see them."
"Your family?" Jared asked.
"Yeah, they really tried to be there for me. They did everything they possibly could, and well, they never really approved of Will, but I was in love with him, so I ended up living with Will," Jensen said, "and I did everything I could do to make my family mad. I knew they hated Will and that was part of the reason that I stayed with Will, and from then on, I just stopped talking to them. I did not want them to tell me what to do, because they could never have any idea what I was going through."
"Were they upset about Danny?" Jared asked.
"I'm not sure. I wrote them a letter when we adopted Danny. I did not need to hear them tell me how I messed up my life and how bad Will was, so I just wrote a letter," Jensen said.
"Wow, I'm so sorry," Jared said.
"I guess it was for the best though. I learnt how to be independent and live practically on my own," Jensen said and sighed, "If I would have just listened to them in the first place, then I wouldn't be in this predicament."
Tears began to well up in Jensen’s eyes, "Danny deserves so much better."
Jared wiped away Jensen’s single tear, "Don't be so hard on yourself. You seem to be a wonderful dad. You're doing everything that you can to make sure he has a good life. Plus, he seems to be very happy and very loved. All he cares about is that his daddy loves him."
"Yes, I guess you're right," Jensen said, reluctantly.
"Of course I'm right," Jared said, smiling at him.
Jensen smiled as he stared into Jensen’s kind eyes, while Jared gently caressed Jensen’s cheek with the back of his hand.
Jensen wanted nothing more than to lean forward and kiss him. In fact, he had wanted to kiss Jared since the first time they touched. Jensen could not figure out what it was, but he was drawn to Jared. He wanted to be touched by Jared, held by him, and kissed by him.
Jared could not help but to touch Jensen. For some reason, he felt a strong attraction to him. Jensen was so simple, yet so beautiful, and as he laid close to Jensen, he wanted to kiss those soft lips.
Jared then began running his hand through Jensen’s hair as Jensen slowly moved closer to him. He also began to move closer to Jensen, until their lips met in a heated kiss. Both of them needed the kiss so desperately, it seemed as though they had once been lovers and were just now returning to each other.
"Daddy!" yelled Danny.
Both Jared and Jensen broke away from each other, both blushing, feeling like they had just been caught doing something that they were not supposed to.
"Daddy!" yelled Danny again.
Jensen sat up, moving further away from Jared.
"I'm going to go check on him," Jensen said.
"Yeah, okay," Jared replied.
Jensen got up and quickly walked down the hall to where Danny was. He entered the room and there was Danny, wide awake and sitting up with his puppy clutched to his chest and a big smile on his face.
"Hey sweetheart," Jensen said happily as he went over to Danny and picked him up.
"Hi Daddy," Danny said as he wrapped his arm tightly around Jensen’s neck.
"Did you sleep well?" Jensen asked as Danny rested his head on Jensen’s shoulder.
"Yep," he said.
"Can I get a kiss?" Jensen asked him.
Danny smiled as he gave his dad a kiss on the cheek.
"Kiss your baby too," Jensen said.
"Otay," Danny said. He brought his puppy to his face and kissed the stuffed animal's nose.
Jared stood outside the doorway, just watching Jensen and Danny. He could not believe how wonderful that kiss was. He had waited so long to do that, but unfortunately it did not last long, and it was not because of Jensen; it was Danny. Had Danny not woken up, Jared would have continued to kiss Jensen and continue to hold him. Jared was not sure, but it seemed as though they both needed that kiss. They seemed like they both needed each other, even though they barely knew one another.
Jared cleared his throat.
Danny looked up to see Jared, "Hi!" he said happily.
"Hey buddy!" Jared said as he walked up to them. Danny reached out his arms for Jared.
"Do you want me to hold you?" Jared asked.
"Uh huh," Danny said.
"Okay," Jared said as he took Danny from Jensen’s arms.
"Are you hungry?" Jensen asked.
"Yep," Danny said, "I hungry!"
Jared rubbed Danny's tummy, "You want some good food?"
"Uh huh," Danny said.
"How about some grilled cheese?" Jared suggested.
"Yay!" yelled Danny, "Gwil cheese yummy!"
Jared laughed, "All right then, let's go make some."
Jared and Danny walked out down the hall towards the kitchen.
"I'll be there in a second!" Jensen yelled.
"K Daddy!" yelled Danny.
Jensen sat on the bed and sighed. What was he thinking kissing Jared, a complete stranger, a movie star? He had only known Jared for about a day and a half and there he was telling Jared everything about himself. Not only that, but he wanted to kiss Jared. It was not just because they were having a moment or whatever, although that helped, but it was because Jensen wanted Jared to kiss him. In fact, he wanted Jared to touch him, hold him, kiss him, but most of all Jensen wanted Jared to care for him.
Jensen was not sure why he felt so drawn to Jared, but he did. However, when Danny yelled, Jensen was once again reminded that he could not let himself get involved. His main priority was Danny, and not himself. Danny’s happiness and well being were so much more important than Jensen’s, and that kiss with Jared was selfish on his part. He was thinking about himself and not his son. What kind of a father was he?
"Jensen!" yelled Jared.
Jensen snapped out of his daze as he heard Jared's voice.
"Daddy! Food!" yelled Danny as Jensen heard his feet pitter-pattering on the floor as he came down the hallway.
Jensen got up and walked out. Danny came up to Jensen and grabbed his thumb as he led his father down the hall and into the living room. Jensen found a blanket on the floor with three plates all ready served.
"I figured it would be easier to sit on the floor," Jared said as he came up behind Jensen with two cans of pop.
"Yeah, sure," Jensen said.
"It picnic!" Danny said excitedly.
"Yeah, it is," Jensen said as they sat down.
Jensen poured Sprite into Danny's cup and then handed it to him. The three of them sat on the floor by the fire eating their grilled cheese. Jensen was sort of worried about talking to Jared, but luckily for him, his baby boy was quite the talker.
"And Simba he run way cause that mean lion," Danny said angrily.
"Oh, yeah," Jared said.
"He get lost and he want his mommy," Danny said.
"Yeah, he gets scared," agreed Jared.
"But den Pumba and Timon come and sing and pway!" Danny said happily.
Jared laughed, "Yep, they sing Hakuna-Mata!"
"Mean no worries!" yelled Danny.
Jared smiled and began singing Hakuna-Mata, with Danny joining in.
Jensen laughed as he watched the two of them sing. Once they had finished the song, Danny continued telling Jared about the story of The Lion King, which of course was his favorite movie.
After Danny had finished talking, he asked, "Daddy, can I watch Lion King?"
"No, I'm sorry. It's in the car buddy," Jensen said.
"But I wanna watch," he whined.
"When we get to your Uncle Josh’s house, I promise," Jensen said.
Danny pouted.
"Hey, how about we read your favorite book?" Jensen suggested.
"Yay!" he yelled.
"What's his favorite book?" Jared asked.
"The Monster at the End of the Book," Jensen said.
"Hmmm…I've never heard of that," Jared said.
"It's a cute book," Jensen said.
"I wanna read!" yelled Danny.
"We will, hold on just a second," Jensen said as he turned to Jared, "Do you mind if I take a shower?"
"No, that's fine," Jared said.
"Will you watch Danny for me?" Jensen asked hesitantly.
"Of course," Jared said, "He and I will play on the piano."
"Thanks," Jensen said, "And Danny you be a good boy for Jared."
"I will Daddy," Danny said.
"And we'll read your book once I get out of the shower," Jensen said, "I won't be long."
"Otay," Danny said.
Jensen went into the room and got his things from the bag. Once he had his clothes, Jensen headed to the bathroom and took his shower.
"We'll play on the piano as soon as I clean up this mess," Jared said.
"Otay," Danny said as he nodded his head up and down.
Jared began picking up everything and was ready to take it to the kitchen, when he remembered something. He looked over at the fire and watched as Danny was mesmerized by it.
"Hey buddy," Jared said, getting Danny's attention.
"Yeah," Danny said as he looked up at Jared.
"Why don't you pick up your cup and come into the kitchen with me?" Jared said, "I have a surprise for you."
"A supwsie?" Danny asked excitedly.
Jared smiled, "Yep, just for you."
Danny quickly picked up his cup and followed Jared into the kitchen. Jared threw the plates into the trash. Then he walked over to Danny and picked him up.
"Close your eyes," Jared said.
Danny put his hand over his eyes, but slightly spread his fingers so he could see.
"No peeking," Jared said, chuckling.
"I not," Danny said as he quickly closed his hand.
Jared quickly dug into the bag and then brought something out.
"Okay, open them," he said.
Danny smiled as he saw what Jared held in his hand.
"Choc-o-let!" Danny said happily.
"Yep," Jared said as he opened it for Danny.
He then set Danny down on a chair.
"You sit here and eat this, while I finish cleaning up," Jared said.
Danny nodded his head as he began to eat his candy.
Jared smiled at Danny and walked out and quickly picked up the rest of the mess. When he stepped into the kitchen, he immediately stopped as he saw Danny. Somehow, Danny had managed to get the chocolate all over his little face and hands.
Danny smiled at Jared, "Dat yummy!"
Jared began laughing, "Yeah, it looks like you enjoyed it."
He set the cups in the sink and then went over to Danny.
"I guess we better clean you up before your dad sees you like this," Jared said.
Danny nodded his head, agreeing.
Jared picked him up and sat him down on the counter, next to the sink. Jared grabbed a washcloth and gently began to wipe Danny's face.
Jensen walked out of the bathroom and went into his room. He brushed his hair and then went to go check on Danny.
Jensen stood in the doorway of the kitchen. He smiled to himself as he watched Danny patiently sit on the counter while Jared carefully and slowly tried to get the chocolate off of Danny.
"You know, it's not going to come off if you're that gentle," Jensen said.
Jared was startled as he heard Jensen's voice. He stood up straight and looked at him.
"You have to scrub it off," Jensen said as he went over to them.
"I did not want to hurt him," Jared said.
Jensen smiled, "That's sweet of you."
"Daddy, I eat choc-o-let!" Danny said happily.
"Yeah, I see," Jensen said.
"Sorry about that," Jared said.
"No, it's okay," Jensen said, "This little guy always makes a mess."
"Yep," Danny said proudly.
Jensen smiled, "All right messy boy, let's give you a bath and clean you up."
"Yay, bath!" Danny said, "Can I pway in da water?"
"Yeah, but not for long," Jensen said as he scooped Danny into his arms and headed towards the bathroom.
Jared continued picking up until he heard singing. He walked down the hall and stood there as he looked into the bathroom.
"Row, row, your boat! Gently down the stream!" Jensen sang as he washed Danny's hair.
It was their normal routine that whenever Danny would take a bath, Danny and Jensen would sing.
"Merrily, merrily, merrily…" Jensen sang.
"Life but a dream!" Danny sang happily.
Jared smiled to himself as he watched the two of them sing, while Jensen gave Danny his bath. Jared then quietly left before they saw him.
"All right, time to get out, your fingers are all wrinkled," Jensen said as he took Danny out.
"And my toes," Danny said as he lifted his foot up.
"Oh God, look at those wrinkled toes," Jensen said, "You're getting old!"
Danny laughed, "No, I not! I still dis many."
Jensen smiled as Danny held his fingers up, "Oh okay little buddy. I was getting worried."
"Daddy, I cold," Danny said as Jensen continued to dry him off.
"Well let's get your pajamas on and then we'll sit by the fire and read your book," Jensen said, "Sound good?"
"Yep," he said.
Jensen picked Danny up and took him to their room where he changed Danny into his pajamas. As soon as Danny had his pajamas on, he grabbed his puppy and began yawning.
"Sleepy?" Jensen asked.
"Nope," Danny said.
Jensen smiled as he watched Danny tiredly rub his eyes, "Okay."
He picked Danny up, grabbed his favorite book, and walked down the hall and into the living room where Jared was.
"Are you all clean now?" Jared asked.
"Yep, no more mess," Danny said, "Daddy got rid of it."
"Well that's good," Jared said.
Jensen sat down on the couch and set Danny in between Jared and him.
"Wanna listen to Daddy read my book?" Danny asked as he looked up at Jared.
"Sure," Jared said.
Danny smiled. He made himself comfortable in between the two adults, while Jared got the blanket and covered all three of them.
"So what's this book called?" Jared asked.
"The Monster at the end of this Book," Jensen said.
"Oh, sounds kind of scary," Jared said.
Danny smiled, "Wisten."
"Are you ready for me to begin reading?" Jensen asked.
Danny eagerly nodded his head up and down, then snuggled his head into Jensen’s side. Jensen put his arm around Danny and rested his hand on Danny’s little leg, while Jared placed his hand on top of Jensen’s. Jensen looked up at Jared puzzled. Jared just entwined his fingers with Jensen’s.
"Daddy, read!" Danny said impatiently.
"Okay," Jensen said. He opened to the first page of the book and then rested it on his lap, so that Danny could see the pictures.
"What did that say? On the first page, what did that say? Did that say there will be a Monster at the end of this book?? It did? Oh, I am so scared of Monsters!!" Jensen read.
Jensen continued to read even though he noticed that Danny's eyes were slowly closing. He knew that if he stopped reading and tried to put Danny to bed, he would immediately wake up and he would have to start reading all over again. So he continued on, until the end of the book.
Once he had finished, Jensen looked down at Danny and saw that he was sleeping.
"Did he fall asleep?" Jared asked quietly.
"Yeah," Jensen said, "He always does when I read the book to him."
Jensen pulled his hand away from Jared as he got up and then carefully pulled Danny into his arms.
"Here, let me help you," Jared said as he also got up.
He grabbed Danny's puppy that he had dropped and the book and followed Jensen back to their room. Jensen turned the light on and held Danny, as Jared pulled back the covers for him. Jensen gently laid Danny in the bed and covered him with the blankets, making sure that Danny was warm enough. Jared came over and placed Danny's puppy next to him.
They both stood there staring at each other.
"Uh…I think I'm going to bed now also," Jensen said.
"Yeah, okay," Jared said.
Jared began to walk out but then he stopped, "I was listening to the radio and they said the roads have been cleared. You'll be able to leave here by tomorrow afternoon."
"Oh, thanks," Jensen said.
Jared still just stood there. Then he slowly moved towards Jensen. He placed his hand on Jensen’s cheek and pulled Jensen closer to him. They began kissing.
All Jensen could think about was how good his kiss felt, about how much he just wanted to stay like that and never let Jared go, about how soft and gentle Jared’s kisses were, about how much he felt cared for at the moment. But he knew that he was being selfish again.
Jensen pulled away from Jared.
Jared looked at him sort of surprised.
"Good night," Jensen said, then went to his side of the bed and fixed the pillow.
"Good night," Jared whispered and quietly left the room and shut the door.
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I love how close he is to both of them already. Danny just adores him
What is Danny trying to say when he says Jeff in the word like: ""But I wJeffa watch," he whined.) or "I wJeffa read!" yelled Danny." BTW , not trying to offend but you have Jared asking the title of the book just before Jensen starts reading but he had already told him earlier
Looking forward to the next update
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That Jeff thing...*scratches head* That's what happens when you are in the middle of writing and you don't remember Jared's brother name and you just put a word instead so you can look up the name and replace it later, and instead of looking for the name through the chapter, you just use Microsoft Word's Replace ability. LMAO That was so stupid of me, thank you for letting me know about it.
As for the book name, yeah, but first Jared asks about Danny's favorite book and the second time he wants to know what book Jensen is going to read, but you do have a point, so I'll go through the chapter and try to edit that part ASAP, oh and of course, I absolutely loves it when you guys show me my mistakes. I love how you guys care enough to let me know about it so, thank you! :D
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I guess we will hearing about Jeff in the story then. No it wasn't stupid & you're welcome
Be careful what you wish for ! LOL!
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Can't wait to read the last part!!
And The Monster at the End of This Book!? THE best book of ALL time.
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Yeah Jensen needs to open his eyes and understand that falling in love has nothing to do with being a good father to Danny, especially when it comes to Jared, I mean...how can you RESIST that fine man? lol
Thank you for reading and thanks for taking some time to let me know what you think of this story. :)
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