Forever - Chapter 2/5
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something_rareTitle: Forever
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 3,215
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: My very first Kradam fiction
Summary: Realizing the truth is not always easy.
Forever - Chapter 2:
It was two days since Katy had gone to Chicago and Kris was extremely bored and missing his wife so much, despite they would talk on phone on daily basis and for long hours. Apparently, his boredom was evident in his voice that evening.
"Kris, honey, you sound bored there. Why don't you go hang out with Adam or something? Go out, have fun. You have my permission!"She giggled and he laughed.
"Alright, I'll see what I can do. Talk to you tomorrow?"
"Of course, love you baby."
"Love you too."
The truth was Kris had not spoken with Adam since the night they had hung out at the local bar together. He did not trust himself to be anywhere near or even alone with Adam, but he wanted to see him. He missed him. The phone rang.
"Katy, I said I'm going to go out, I--"
"Kris, it's me," Adam said cutting him off, annoyed because the first word out of his mouth had been his wife's name.
"Oh, hi Adam, sorry. What's up?"
"You wanna come over to my hotel or something? I'm kinda bored and I know you're all alone."
"Yeah...yeah that sounds fine, I..." he paused, wondering if it was really a good idea to be all alone with Adam, but he gave in, "I'll be over in about half an hour, OK?"
"Sure thing, see ya then."
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Kris and Adam spent that evening together, playing video games, watching TV and eating. Each one was exploring his unspoken desires at the back of his head, while trying desperately to remain calm and collected. Adam was flipping through channels when Kris finally stood up.
"Well, it’s pretty late. I guess I should get going, I--"
"No Kris, you can stay here," Adam said, not looking up from the TV, "It's no big deal. You will be alone at home; I will be alone here, so let’s just hang out for tonight."
Adam looked up and smiled at Kris who looked unsure. Nothing had happened so far during that night, and Kris was getting pretty sure that nothing would happen between them anymore.
Kris lay on the couch, staring at the hotel room ceiling, unable to going back to sleep. He was regretting his decision about staying the night with Adam. No matter how hard he tried, Kris could not stop thinking about Adam who was lying in bed not far from him. Kris just lay there, listening and looking for a sign that Adam was awake. There was none, so maybe he could sneak a peek at that beautiful face, Kris thought. Silently, Kris stood up in his boxers and wife beater and cautiously walked toward Adam’s bed. He was surprised and a little alarmed to find the bed empty. The curtains rustled in the breeze from the open window, causing Kris to look over and see Adam staring at him, sitting on the windowsill. He stood still. Their eyes locked together.
"Yes Kris?" Adam asked softly, standing up and moving closer, "Can’t sleep?"
"I..." Kris started, stopping to swallow hard as he noticed Adam wore only boxers. He shook his head, "Adam, I..." he looked away, "I don't know..." he whispered.
Adam moved closer, sensing Kris’s discomfort.
"Kris, you can tell me what’s wrong...you can tell me anything, you know that."
Without giving it a second thought, Kris reached up and brushed a lock of hair out of Adam's eyes. As their eyes met, Kris pulled his hand back quickly as if burned.
"Kris," Adam whispered, moving as close as he could get to Kris without touching him. It was killing Adam not being able to touch him, to hold him, but he knew he could not, not yet and not until Kris touched him. He knew he had to be very careful how he played his seduction.
"What do you want?" Adam asked softly, looking into Kris’s eyes, searching for a clue about what Kris was thinking, what he was feeling. Kris could not take it anymore. He could no longer resist. Promptly, he put his hands at the back of Adam's neck and pulled his mouth down to his own. They both moaned in relief as their lips finally met. Kris kissed him softly and unsure at first, but he wanted more, he needed more. He slipped his tongue past Adam's lips, tasting his mouth. Adam massaged Kris's tongue with his own in return, increasing the intensity of the kiss. Adam let his arms wrap around Kris's waist, pulling his heated body closer. Kris gripped Adam's shoulders. It was then that Adam took over. He held Kris tightly, their bodies pressed against each other. He slanted his mouth over Kris's, pushing his tongue deeply into his mouth, their tongues entangled, their mouths molded together.
Adam stroked Kris's back, kneading his flesh, pulling him as close as possible. Kris clung to him, tilting his head back to give Adam complete access to his mouth. Adam slipped his hands under Kris's shirt, running his hands over his skin. Kris jumped at his touch. Anxious to feel his naked body, Adam broke away and pulled Kris's shirt over his head. He quickly returned to his mouth, drugging Kris's senses again with his hot wet kisses.
As Adam pulled him back into his arms Kris moaned, loving the feel of their chests pressed together.
"Mmm...you taste so sweet," Adam purred against Kris's mouth. He transferred his kisses to Kris's neck, sucking gently, causing Kris to gasp in pleasure. Kris reached up and ran his hands through Adam's soft hair.
Once again, Adam moved back up and began devouring Kris's mouth with hot, hard kisses. As he did, he gently began pulling Kris towards the bed. Kris immediately tenses up. So Adam made his kisses a little lighter, softly brushing their swollen lips together, and gently running his hands up and down Kris's back.
"Shh baby..." he whispered, again pulling him to bed.
"Adam...I..." Kris tried to find his voice and his willpower to protest. What was he doing? How could he let things come that far? He had to stop it now, before it went any further, before they both did something they would regret later, but...just one more kiss, just one more touch. And then, did it really matter if he was standing up or lying down? Those scattered thoughts ran through Kris's head as Adam pulled him down onto the bed and into his arms. Their kisses started again, deep and searching. Kris sucked on Adam's sensuous lips, on his tongue, hungry for him, wanting more but not knowing how to ask. Flushed and breathing heavily, their bodies pressed tightly together, their arms wrapped around each other. Adam tugged at Kris's boxers, surprised when he met no resistance in removing them. He sat up, quickly removing his own. Kris reached for him again and Adam saw lust and heat in his eyes to match his own. Kris pulled Adam down on top of him, their mouths once again on each other. Adam began sucking at Kris's neck, his hands roaming Kris's chest, circling, dipping ever lower with each stroke. As Kris moaned, he clutched the back of Adam's head as he began kissing his way down his chest, his hot tongue burning Kris's flesh.
"Adam...please, I..." he desperately begged as he felt Adam's mouth on his stomach, his tongue swirling in and around his navel. Lifting his head from the pillow briefly, Adam looked up and glanced at Kris's flushed face. His eyes pleaded for what he could not bring himself ask for. Adam wanted nothing more than to please him, to hear him scream his name with pleasure. He grasped Kris's hips as he lowered his mouth to Kris's hard cock. Kris cried out as Adam's lips kissed the tip of him. He bit down on his lip to keep from yelling when he felt Adam begin to lick the length of him. His hands clutched at the bed sheets, his knuckles turning white, his eyes squeezed tightly shut. However, he couldn't refrain himself from screaming when Adam finally swallowed him, taking Kris's entire length into his hot mouth.
"Oh God Adam," he cried out, trying hard to breath as Adam sucked him hard. Adam began moving his mouth up and down Kris's shaft, pausing to take just the tip of him into his mouth before engulfing all of him again. His movements were driving Kris crazy and bringing him closer and closer to climax. He lifted his hips, pushing himself fully into Adam's mouth, reaching the back of his throat. Adam sucked him hard, swirling his tongue over the hot flesh.
"Adam...oh my God..." he cried out as he came violently, his body exploding in pleasure.
As Kris tried to catch his breath and stop shaking, Adam slowly kissed his way back up Kris's body. Their mouths met again in a soft kiss. Adam gathered Kris into his arms, holding him tightly against himself. Kris, still breathing heavily, clung to Adam, softly planting kisses on his neck and earlobe. They lay together for several moments, neither of them moving until Kris began sucking on Adam's earlobe and stroking his back.
"It’s my turn," he whispered against his ear. Adam pulled back and looked into his eyes.
"Kris, you don't have to, I-"
“I want you to feel what I felt Adam.”
“But,-”
Kris cut him off with a deep kiss, driving his tongue into his mouth. Adam did not resist, he could not resist, so he wrapped his arms around Kris, pulling their heated bodies together. Kris continued kissing Adam's mouth as he slowly slid his hand between their bodies and down Adam's chest. Adam moaned, the anticipation killing him. Finally, when Adam was sure he could not take it anymore, Kris's hand closed over his erect cock, gripping him tightly. Adam clutched his shoulders, digging his nails into his skin as Kris began sliding his hand up and down Adam's member. He teased him, touching him softly and then harder, gripping him tightly.
"Oh damn Kris...oh fuck yes," he hissed, putting his hand on either side of Kris's head, pulling his mouth roughly against his own, kissing him deeply. Kris stroked him harder and faster as they continued kissing. Adam moaned into Kris's mouth, biting his lower lip as he came, shuddering with pleasure.
As they lay in each other's arms, they continued to kiss each other softly and gently here and there. Soon Kris was fast asleep, his head on resting on Adam's chest. Adam pulled the sheet over them and watched Kris sleep.
"God you are so amazing," he whispered, lightly running his hands through Kris's hair. He sighed.
All Adam had to do was to figure out how to keep Kris from regretting what had just happened between them.
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Kris woke up to the sound of thunder. He lay still, watching as the rain drops danced against and down the hotel room windows. Slowly and as he rubbed sleep away from his eyes, Kris began to remember where he was and who he was with. He felt Adam's arm draped over his waist, the heat from his body that had been so comfortable with all night, now seemed to burn his skin. Carefully, he removed Adam's arm and crawled out of bed. He made his way to the sofa, gathering his discarded clothing along the way.
Once again, Kris turned and looked at Adam sleeping. It was then that everything that had happened the previous night truly hit him. He shook his head, trying to block the memories without so much success. He remembered every kiss, every touch perfectly clear. Kris had no idea what to do. The only thing that came to mind was to leave and to leave quickly. He dressed and sat down on the sofa to put on his shoes. Before he could stop himself, tears filled his eyes and the emotions he had so desperately been trying to keep hidden came out. He dropped his head into his hands and sat there crying. He was so confused. How could he have done what he did last night? How could he cheat on Katy like that? How did it happen and why hadn't he stopped it? It had felt so good, so right, but how that was even possible? He lay down on the sofa, still crying softly, and hugged a cushion to himself. He wanted nothing more than to stop those feelings, to make them go away, but he couldn't. He knew he couldn’t. He had acted on those feelings and they were still right there in his heart, just like before, only stronger and Kris had no idea as to where to go from here.
Adam awoke shortly after to an empty bed. He wasn't surprised. He reached over and touched Kris's pillow. It was still slightly warm.
So, you haven't been gone long.
He got up, pulled on some shorts, and walked over to the window, watching the storm. As he walked over to the sofa, he found Kris laying there with his back to him. Adam could tell that Kris had been getting ready to leave, yet he had not. He was still there, with him, and Adam could not but smile. That was definitely a good sign. As he heard Kris's uneven breathing, Adam knew he had been crying. Without another thought, he silently sat down on the edge of the sofa and pulled Kris into his arms. Kris said nothing; he only pushed himself closer against Adam’s chest and held onto his arms.
"Baby," Adam whispered softly, "What's wrong?"
"Adam," Kris said softly, "Last night shouldn't have happened...I don't know how we,-"
"Kris, look at me," Adam gently said, interrupting him. Slowly Kris turned around and faced him, still wrapped in his arms.
"Don't regret last night," Adam whispered, looking into Kris's troubled eyes, “Whatever you do, just… don’t regret last night…please.”
"But Adam,-"
"Kris, I know you're confused about all this right now but you can't tell me you didn't like what we did last night."
Kris remained silent as Adam ran his hand through Kris's hair.
"Kris? Tell me you didn't like it and I'll leave this town and we don't ever have to talk about this again."
"I can't Adam," he said, looking up, "You know I liked it, I liked it a lot but,-" Kris’s voice trailed off. He was still very confused about everything he was feeling.
"There doesn't have to be a ‘but’ Kris. Don't you see? There can just be this. We're not starting a relationship; we're just...well we're just best friends with benefits."
Kris smiled slightly.
"Adam?" He asked, tracing his hands over Adam's arms, "You knew, didn't you?"
"Knew what?"
"That I wanted you. How did you know?"
"I didn't, not really," Adam said and sighed, shifting to hold Kris tighter, "I don't remember when it started, probably during our Idol days. God the whole world knows that I had a crush on you since the beginning,” Adam said which made Kris smile and the tension was immediately subdued, “I just…I started fantasizing about you. I guess it just put me more in touch with your feelings. You certainly weren't obvious about anything, but I'd notice you looking at me differently...like you wanted me. At first I thought maybe it was just wishful thinking on my part, but it kept happening and more frequently, so I started to think that maybe I was right, that maybe something was really going on between us. So I went about planning how I would seduce you if I ever got the opportunity," He smiled wickedly at Kris, "What about you Kris?"
"I had these dreams over and over again. I was in bed with someone but I could never see who it was, until a couple of weeks ago. I found out it was you. That freaked me out, but I think deep down I always knew, since the day we met, I always had felt a quite strong attraction toward you. I knew we had chemistry among us...and honestly, it freaked me out. I had no idea how to act on those feelings, I just…I knew I wanted to," Kris stopped, trying to figure out what he wanted.
“What do you want Kris?” Adam asked as if he could read Kris’s mind, “What do you really want?”
"I honestly don't know, Adam," Kris said, looking into Adam’s eyes.
"I want you to stay," Adam said simply, "For now...'til she comes home."
Kris looked away as Adam continued quickly, afraid he might have went too far, "Nothing more than that Kris, I swear. I just...I don't want you to go home yet."
Kris looked at Adam, surprised to see vulnerability in those blue eyes. Adam and vulnerability? Kris never imagined Adam as the vulnerable and insecure type. Adam brought a hand to Kris's cheek, gently running his thumb over his lips.
"Stay Kris...please," His eyes begged. Kris said nothing; he looked away, but after a few moments, when he looked back at Adam, he nodded his head with a small smile on his lips.
"Yes," he whispered, "I'll stay...for now at least."
The thought of leaving that room and leaving Adam was unbearable to him.
"That's all I'm asking," Adam said softly, wrapping his hand around Kris's neck.
He softly pressed his lips to Kris's. Kris kissed him back; he opened his mouth, encouraging Adam to deepen the kiss, but Adam teased him, keeping his kisses light.
"Adam, please!"
"Hmmm?"
Kris grabbed either side of his head and pulled him roughly against his mouth.
"I want you," he whispered raggedly. Kris kissed him deeply, pushing his tongue into his mouth. Adam let him continue, aroused by Kris’s sudden dominance. Adam had always been the one in control, of his life and his relationships. With Kris, he could experience being on the other side of the relationship without being much worried. He trusted Kris that much. Adam shifted onto his back, pulling Kris on top of him. Kris began sucking on Adam's neck, as his hand slid down into Adam's shorts. Kris's hand found Adam's erect member and began stroking him gently. Adam moaned, pulling Kris's head back up to kiss him again. At the same time, he moved his hand down Kris's body and began giving him the same pleasure he was receiving. They continued to make out, hungrily searching each other's mouths with their tongues, as their hands stroked one another faster and harder.
"Oh Kris...oh God, please don't stop," Adam whispered against Kris's swollen lips.
"Mmm...Adam, oh," Kris cried out. They kissed deeply as they both came, pleasure surging through their bodies. Once again, Adam wrapped Kris in his arms, pressing kisses to his forehead.
"I'm so glad you decided to stay," Adam said softly. Kris smiled and kissed him gently.
"Me too," he said shyly, "It's too bad that it's storming outside. I guess we'll just have to stay in here all day."
Adam smiled, surprised by Kris's obvious implied meaning. Kris looked away, blushing, which made Adam laugh as he pulled Kris closer, so happy to have him in his arms.
Chapter 3
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 3,215
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: My very first Kradam fiction
Summary: Realizing the truth is not always easy.
Forever - Chapter 2:
It was two days since Katy had gone to Chicago and Kris was extremely bored and missing his wife so much, despite they would talk on phone on daily basis and for long hours. Apparently, his boredom was evident in his voice that evening.
"Kris, honey, you sound bored there. Why don't you go hang out with Adam or something? Go out, have fun. You have my permission!"She giggled and he laughed.
"Alright, I'll see what I can do. Talk to you tomorrow?"
"Of course, love you baby."
"Love you too."
The truth was Kris had not spoken with Adam since the night they had hung out at the local bar together. He did not trust himself to be anywhere near or even alone with Adam, but he wanted to see him. He missed him. The phone rang.
"Katy, I said I'm going to go out, I--"
"Kris, it's me," Adam said cutting him off, annoyed because the first word out of his mouth had been his wife's name.
"Oh, hi Adam, sorry. What's up?"
"You wanna come over to my hotel or something? I'm kinda bored and I know you're all alone."
"Yeah...yeah that sounds fine, I..." he paused, wondering if it was really a good idea to be all alone with Adam, but he gave in, "I'll be over in about half an hour, OK?"
"Sure thing, see ya then."
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Kris and Adam spent that evening together, playing video games, watching TV and eating. Each one was exploring his unspoken desires at the back of his head, while trying desperately to remain calm and collected. Adam was flipping through channels when Kris finally stood up.
"Well, it’s pretty late. I guess I should get going, I--"
"No Kris, you can stay here," Adam said, not looking up from the TV, "It's no big deal. You will be alone at home; I will be alone here, so let’s just hang out for tonight."
Adam looked up and smiled at Kris who looked unsure. Nothing had happened so far during that night, and Kris was getting pretty sure that nothing would happen between them anymore.
Kris lay on the couch, staring at the hotel room ceiling, unable to going back to sleep. He was regretting his decision about staying the night with Adam. No matter how hard he tried, Kris could not stop thinking about Adam who was lying in bed not far from him. Kris just lay there, listening and looking for a sign that Adam was awake. There was none, so maybe he could sneak a peek at that beautiful face, Kris thought. Silently, Kris stood up in his boxers and wife beater and cautiously walked toward Adam’s bed. He was surprised and a little alarmed to find the bed empty. The curtains rustled in the breeze from the open window, causing Kris to look over and see Adam staring at him, sitting on the windowsill. He stood still. Their eyes locked together.
"Yes Kris?" Adam asked softly, standing up and moving closer, "Can’t sleep?"
"I..." Kris started, stopping to swallow hard as he noticed Adam wore only boxers. He shook his head, "Adam, I..." he looked away, "I don't know..." he whispered.
Adam moved closer, sensing Kris’s discomfort.
"Kris, you can tell me what’s wrong...you can tell me anything, you know that."
Without giving it a second thought, Kris reached up and brushed a lock of hair out of Adam's eyes. As their eyes met, Kris pulled his hand back quickly as if burned.
"Kris," Adam whispered, moving as close as he could get to Kris without touching him. It was killing Adam not being able to touch him, to hold him, but he knew he could not, not yet and not until Kris touched him. He knew he had to be very careful how he played his seduction.
"What do you want?" Adam asked softly, looking into Kris’s eyes, searching for a clue about what Kris was thinking, what he was feeling. Kris could not take it anymore. He could no longer resist. Promptly, he put his hands at the back of Adam's neck and pulled his mouth down to his own. They both moaned in relief as their lips finally met. Kris kissed him softly and unsure at first, but he wanted more, he needed more. He slipped his tongue past Adam's lips, tasting his mouth. Adam massaged Kris's tongue with his own in return, increasing the intensity of the kiss. Adam let his arms wrap around Kris's waist, pulling his heated body closer. Kris gripped Adam's shoulders. It was then that Adam took over. He held Kris tightly, their bodies pressed against each other. He slanted his mouth over Kris's, pushing his tongue deeply into his mouth, their tongues entangled, their mouths molded together.
Adam stroked Kris's back, kneading his flesh, pulling him as close as possible. Kris clung to him, tilting his head back to give Adam complete access to his mouth. Adam slipped his hands under Kris's shirt, running his hands over his skin. Kris jumped at his touch. Anxious to feel his naked body, Adam broke away and pulled Kris's shirt over his head. He quickly returned to his mouth, drugging Kris's senses again with his hot wet kisses.
As Adam pulled him back into his arms Kris moaned, loving the feel of their chests pressed together.
"Mmm...you taste so sweet," Adam purred against Kris's mouth. He transferred his kisses to Kris's neck, sucking gently, causing Kris to gasp in pleasure. Kris reached up and ran his hands through Adam's soft hair.
Once again, Adam moved back up and began devouring Kris's mouth with hot, hard kisses. As he did, he gently began pulling Kris towards the bed. Kris immediately tenses up. So Adam made his kisses a little lighter, softly brushing their swollen lips together, and gently running his hands up and down Kris's back.
"Shh baby..." he whispered, again pulling him to bed.
"Adam...I..." Kris tried to find his voice and his willpower to protest. What was he doing? How could he let things come that far? He had to stop it now, before it went any further, before they both did something they would regret later, but...just one more kiss, just one more touch. And then, did it really matter if he was standing up or lying down? Those scattered thoughts ran through Kris's head as Adam pulled him down onto the bed and into his arms. Their kisses started again, deep and searching. Kris sucked on Adam's sensuous lips, on his tongue, hungry for him, wanting more but not knowing how to ask. Flushed and breathing heavily, their bodies pressed tightly together, their arms wrapped around each other. Adam tugged at Kris's boxers, surprised when he met no resistance in removing them. He sat up, quickly removing his own. Kris reached for him again and Adam saw lust and heat in his eyes to match his own. Kris pulled Adam down on top of him, their mouths once again on each other. Adam began sucking at Kris's neck, his hands roaming Kris's chest, circling, dipping ever lower with each stroke. As Kris moaned, he clutched the back of Adam's head as he began kissing his way down his chest, his hot tongue burning Kris's flesh.
"Adam...please, I..." he desperately begged as he felt Adam's mouth on his stomach, his tongue swirling in and around his navel. Lifting his head from the pillow briefly, Adam looked up and glanced at Kris's flushed face. His eyes pleaded for what he could not bring himself ask for. Adam wanted nothing more than to please him, to hear him scream his name with pleasure. He grasped Kris's hips as he lowered his mouth to Kris's hard cock. Kris cried out as Adam's lips kissed the tip of him. He bit down on his lip to keep from yelling when he felt Adam begin to lick the length of him. His hands clutched at the bed sheets, his knuckles turning white, his eyes squeezed tightly shut. However, he couldn't refrain himself from screaming when Adam finally swallowed him, taking Kris's entire length into his hot mouth.
"Oh God Adam," he cried out, trying hard to breath as Adam sucked him hard. Adam began moving his mouth up and down Kris's shaft, pausing to take just the tip of him into his mouth before engulfing all of him again. His movements were driving Kris crazy and bringing him closer and closer to climax. He lifted his hips, pushing himself fully into Adam's mouth, reaching the back of his throat. Adam sucked him hard, swirling his tongue over the hot flesh.
"Adam...oh my God..." he cried out as he came violently, his body exploding in pleasure.
As Kris tried to catch his breath and stop shaking, Adam slowly kissed his way back up Kris's body. Their mouths met again in a soft kiss. Adam gathered Kris into his arms, holding him tightly against himself. Kris, still breathing heavily, clung to Adam, softly planting kisses on his neck and earlobe. They lay together for several moments, neither of them moving until Kris began sucking on Adam's earlobe and stroking his back.
"It’s my turn," he whispered against his ear. Adam pulled back and looked into his eyes.
"Kris, you don't have to, I-"
“I want you to feel what I felt Adam.”
“But,-”
Kris cut him off with a deep kiss, driving his tongue into his mouth. Adam did not resist, he could not resist, so he wrapped his arms around Kris, pulling their heated bodies together. Kris continued kissing Adam's mouth as he slowly slid his hand between their bodies and down Adam's chest. Adam moaned, the anticipation killing him. Finally, when Adam was sure he could not take it anymore, Kris's hand closed over his erect cock, gripping him tightly. Adam clutched his shoulders, digging his nails into his skin as Kris began sliding his hand up and down Adam's member. He teased him, touching him softly and then harder, gripping him tightly.
"Oh damn Kris...oh fuck yes," he hissed, putting his hand on either side of Kris's head, pulling his mouth roughly against his own, kissing him deeply. Kris stroked him harder and faster as they continued kissing. Adam moaned into Kris's mouth, biting his lower lip as he came, shuddering with pleasure.
As they lay in each other's arms, they continued to kiss each other softly and gently here and there. Soon Kris was fast asleep, his head on resting on Adam's chest. Adam pulled the sheet over them and watched Kris sleep.
"God you are so amazing," he whispered, lightly running his hands through Kris's hair. He sighed.
All Adam had to do was to figure out how to keep Kris from regretting what had just happened between them.
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Kris woke up to the sound of thunder. He lay still, watching as the rain drops danced against and down the hotel room windows. Slowly and as he rubbed sleep away from his eyes, Kris began to remember where he was and who he was with. He felt Adam's arm draped over his waist, the heat from his body that had been so comfortable with all night, now seemed to burn his skin. Carefully, he removed Adam's arm and crawled out of bed. He made his way to the sofa, gathering his discarded clothing along the way.
Once again, Kris turned and looked at Adam sleeping. It was then that everything that had happened the previous night truly hit him. He shook his head, trying to block the memories without so much success. He remembered every kiss, every touch perfectly clear. Kris had no idea what to do. The only thing that came to mind was to leave and to leave quickly. He dressed and sat down on the sofa to put on his shoes. Before he could stop himself, tears filled his eyes and the emotions he had so desperately been trying to keep hidden came out. He dropped his head into his hands and sat there crying. He was so confused. How could he have done what he did last night? How could he cheat on Katy like that? How did it happen and why hadn't he stopped it? It had felt so good, so right, but how that was even possible? He lay down on the sofa, still crying softly, and hugged a cushion to himself. He wanted nothing more than to stop those feelings, to make them go away, but he couldn't. He knew he couldn’t. He had acted on those feelings and they were still right there in his heart, just like before, only stronger and Kris had no idea as to where to go from here.
Adam awoke shortly after to an empty bed. He wasn't surprised. He reached over and touched Kris's pillow. It was still slightly warm.
So, you haven't been gone long.
He got up, pulled on some shorts, and walked over to the window, watching the storm. As he walked over to the sofa, he found Kris laying there with his back to him. Adam could tell that Kris had been getting ready to leave, yet he had not. He was still there, with him, and Adam could not but smile. That was definitely a good sign. As he heard Kris's uneven breathing, Adam knew he had been crying. Without another thought, he silently sat down on the edge of the sofa and pulled Kris into his arms. Kris said nothing; he only pushed himself closer against Adam’s chest and held onto his arms.
"Baby," Adam whispered softly, "What's wrong?"
"Adam," Kris said softly, "Last night shouldn't have happened...I don't know how we,-"
"Kris, look at me," Adam gently said, interrupting him. Slowly Kris turned around and faced him, still wrapped in his arms.
"Don't regret last night," Adam whispered, looking into Kris's troubled eyes, “Whatever you do, just… don’t regret last night…please.”
"But Adam,-"
"Kris, I know you're confused about all this right now but you can't tell me you didn't like what we did last night."
Kris remained silent as Adam ran his hand through Kris's hair.
"Kris? Tell me you didn't like it and I'll leave this town and we don't ever have to talk about this again."
"I can't Adam," he said, looking up, "You know I liked it, I liked it a lot but,-" Kris’s voice trailed off. He was still very confused about everything he was feeling.
"There doesn't have to be a ‘but’ Kris. Don't you see? There can just be this. We're not starting a relationship; we're just...well we're just best friends with benefits."
Kris smiled slightly.
"Adam?" He asked, tracing his hands over Adam's arms, "You knew, didn't you?"
"Knew what?"
"That I wanted you. How did you know?"
"I didn't, not really," Adam said and sighed, shifting to hold Kris tighter, "I don't remember when it started, probably during our Idol days. God the whole world knows that I had a crush on you since the beginning,” Adam said which made Kris smile and the tension was immediately subdued, “I just…I started fantasizing about you. I guess it just put me more in touch with your feelings. You certainly weren't obvious about anything, but I'd notice you looking at me differently...like you wanted me. At first I thought maybe it was just wishful thinking on my part, but it kept happening and more frequently, so I started to think that maybe I was right, that maybe something was really going on between us. So I went about planning how I would seduce you if I ever got the opportunity," He smiled wickedly at Kris, "What about you Kris?"
"I had these dreams over and over again. I was in bed with someone but I could never see who it was, until a couple of weeks ago. I found out it was you. That freaked me out, but I think deep down I always knew, since the day we met, I always had felt a quite strong attraction toward you. I knew we had chemistry among us...and honestly, it freaked me out. I had no idea how to act on those feelings, I just…I knew I wanted to," Kris stopped, trying to figure out what he wanted.
“What do you want Kris?” Adam asked as if he could read Kris’s mind, “What do you really want?”
"I honestly don't know, Adam," Kris said, looking into Adam’s eyes.
"I want you to stay," Adam said simply, "For now...'til she comes home."
Kris looked away as Adam continued quickly, afraid he might have went too far, "Nothing more than that Kris, I swear. I just...I don't want you to go home yet."
Kris looked at Adam, surprised to see vulnerability in those blue eyes. Adam and vulnerability? Kris never imagined Adam as the vulnerable and insecure type. Adam brought a hand to Kris's cheek, gently running his thumb over his lips.
"Stay Kris...please," His eyes begged. Kris said nothing; he looked away, but after a few moments, when he looked back at Adam, he nodded his head with a small smile on his lips.
"Yes," he whispered, "I'll stay...for now at least."
The thought of leaving that room and leaving Adam was unbearable to him.
"That's all I'm asking," Adam said softly, wrapping his hand around Kris's neck.
He softly pressed his lips to Kris's. Kris kissed him back; he opened his mouth, encouraging Adam to deepen the kiss, but Adam teased him, keeping his kisses light.
"Adam, please!"
"Hmmm?"
Kris grabbed either side of his head and pulled him roughly against his mouth.
"I want you," he whispered raggedly. Kris kissed him deeply, pushing his tongue into his mouth. Adam let him continue, aroused by Kris’s sudden dominance. Adam had always been the one in control, of his life and his relationships. With Kris, he could experience being on the other side of the relationship without being much worried. He trusted Kris that much. Adam shifted onto his back, pulling Kris on top of him. Kris began sucking on Adam's neck, as his hand slid down into Adam's shorts. Kris's hand found Adam's erect member and began stroking him gently. Adam moaned, pulling Kris's head back up to kiss him again. At the same time, he moved his hand down Kris's body and began giving him the same pleasure he was receiving. They continued to make out, hungrily searching each other's mouths with their tongues, as their hands stroked one another faster and harder.
"Oh Kris...oh God, please don't stop," Adam whispered against Kris's swollen lips.
"Mmm...Adam, oh," Kris cried out. They kissed deeply as they both came, pleasure surging through their bodies. Once again, Adam wrapped Kris in his arms, pressing kisses to his forehead.
"I'm so glad you decided to stay," Adam said softly. Kris smiled and kissed him gently.
"Me too," he said shyly, "It's too bad that it's storming outside. I guess we'll just have to stay in here all day."
Adam smiled, surprised by Kris's obvious implied meaning. Kris looked away, blushing, which made Adam laugh as he pulled Kris closer, so happy to have him in his arms.
Chapter 3
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Date: 2009-12-03 05:42 am (UTC)