Forever - Chapter 4/5
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something_rareTitle: Forever
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 3,646
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: My very first Kradam fiction
Summary: Realizing the truth is not always easy.
Forever - Chapter 4
"God, the hotel security is so lame," Allison muttered to herself as she stepped out of the elevator and into the Adam’s floor and started walking toward Adam’s room. She was looking for Kris, for both Kris and Adam actually. She was on tour for her new album and had a show in Little Rock. The night before, right after the show, she had gotten a call from Katy. She sounded upset. Kris was not answering his phone. Katy had said Kris had been staying with Adam at the hotel, and she could not get a hold of Kris or Adam. Apparently Katy had found out that Allison was on tour in Arkansas and asked her to stop by the hotel and make sure they are both OK. Allison wondered what that was all about. So she had promised she'd go and find Kris and Adam. Being an Idol herself and knowing Adam so well had come in handy. She had told the hotel security that she was in town and was supposed to meet Adam. She had even told them that she knew Adam had signed under the name of Freddie Mercury, like he always had during their stays at hotels during Idol tour. Katy was coming home a day early, that day, in fact, and she needed someone to pick her up at the airport. Allison had promised Katy to do it if she could not find Adam or Kris in time.
As Allison slid the room card at the lock and opened the door of Adam's room, her mouth fell open and she stood frozen, hand on the door knob, eyes gawking. Was she really seeing what she was seeing? Kris and Adam sprawled on the bed, with Kris's head resting on Adam's naked chest and Adam's arms wrapped around Kris? After a few minutes of sheer shock, Allison's lips curved into a devilish little smile. She crept into the room and sat down on a chair near the side of the bed. She shook her head and covered her mouth to keep from giggling. So it was true, finally! The thought had always been there and she hated herself for thinking that way about her friends, yet it had always been at the back of her mind and never gone away completely. She had always thought that Kris and Adam were maybe a little bit more than best friends, and there it was, right in front of her eyes, in the open, plain to see! Oh she could not wait for them to wake up! She would tease the hell out of them! It was going to be so good; she was going to have so much fun with it!
Kris opened his eyes slowly and stretched. He pulled himself out of Adam's embrace and propped himself up on one elbow. He ran his hand over Adam's hair and smiled. Leaning down he kissed him gently.
Allison squirmed. She so did not need to see this!
God, Kris! Just turn the fuck around and see me!
Adam woke up and smiled lazily at Kris. His hands curved around Kris's back.
"Good morning," he said softly.
"Good morning to you too baby," Kris whispered back and kissed him again.
Ok, that's it! I so didn’t need to see that! I can't take this anymore, and I'm sick of waiting.
"Good morning guys!"
Kris whipped himself around at the sound of that familiar cheerful voice.
"Allison?!"
Kris did not know what to do, what to say. He heard Adam suck in his breath. No one spoke. Allison darted her amused eyes back and forth between Kris and Adam. Adam and Kris looked scared to death. Finally after such a long and painful silence it was Adam that spoke up.
"What...what are you doing here?" He asked tentatively.
"Well let's just put that on hold for a second, OK? Why don't you guys talk to me, huh?" Allison said gently. She sensed how nervous and worried they were at her finding out about their relationship, and she felt a little guilty for sneaking up on them, "Tell you what. You guys get um...get dressed and well, I'll meet you downstairs at the hotel lobby and we can talk over breakfast, OK?"
They both nodded obediently.
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"Coffee?" Allison asked when Kris and Adam both appeared in the hotel restaurant later, still looking scared and anxious. They both shook their heads. Allison put her coffee back on the table and looked up at the guys and motioned for them to sit down. Kris and Adam sat across from her.
"God! Will you two fucking stop looking at me like that?"
"Like what?" Kris asked, not really meeting Allison’s eyes.
"Like I'm going to post pictures of you on Twitter or …or worse...like I'm going to hate you?" Allison said as she took a sip of her coffee and looked back up at them. She sighed, "When did you guys figure out you were more than just friends? Was it…was it during Idol?"
Their eyes moved from her to each other and back.
It was Kris who spoke first, "No, I mean…yeah I started to have feelings for him back then, but… I never gave it much thought until a couple of days ago."
Allison looked surprised, "That's it?"
Adam smiled and asked, "Well what did you think? That we'd been together since day one at Idol?"
Allison bit her lip and then took a sip of coffee, not willing to answer that question.
"So what happened? If you don't mind my asking."
"Nah, we don't mind...I mean unless you do, Kris?" Adam asked tentatively.
Kris shook his head, "No I don't mind."
Kris continued to give Allison an overview of what had passed between them. He still was not sure what he thought of their friend knowing...it was still so soon, so fast, but Allison was perfectly fine with everything. In fact, she was happy for them, and that made both Kris and Adam happy, and somewhat relieved.
"So Allison, you never did tell us what are you doing in town...and wait a minute," continued Adam, looking around in confusion, "How the hell did you get in my room?"
"I had a show at Little Rock last night, and you can blame me being in that room on the lame hotel security and a very predictable Adam," Allison teased.
"What? I am so totally unpredictable. Ask ABC about my AMA performance if you don’t believe me," Adam said laughing.
Kris rolled his eyes, "So Al, are you going to tell us why you're here or are you going to keep us in suspense?"
Allison looked away.
"Al? Is something wrong?" Kris asked, sounding more serious now.
"Well it depends on how you look at it."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Asked Adam.
Allison sighed, "Ok I'm just going to tell you both cause there's no use in putting in off anymore. Katy called me last night. She knew I had a show nearby and wanted to know if I could look for you, Kris."
Kris and Adam's faces paled.
"Why...why was she looking for me?" Kris asked hoarsely. Adam pretended to be very interested in picking pieces of lint off his pants.
"She said she couldn't get a hold of you or Adam. I guess you guys didn't want to be disturbed," she said, sounding somewhat embarrassed, "But anyway I told her I'd try and find you."
"What did she want?" Kris asked softly, "Did something happen?"
Adam heard the concern in Kris's voice and it tugged at his heart. After last night, he knew, without a doubt, that Kris loved him but, he had to still have feelings for her too. She was his wife after all, and that made him worry, even though logically, he knew there was no reason to.
"No everything's fine but she um...she called to tell you she's coming home a day early...today."
Adam sat up sharply, his eyes darting around nervously. Kris, though worried about the inevitable confrontation, sensed Adam's fear, and quickly grabbed his hand and squeezed it tightly. Adam relaxed somewhat. Allison watched that small exchange between them with a slight smile. They had always done things like that, long before anything had ever happened. They had always had a connection that no one could ever break. Allison wondered to herself why they had never realized their feelings until recently, "Look, I told her I was in town for a day or two and that if I couldn't find either of you that I would pick her up at the airport. If you want, I'll still do that."
Kris smiled weakly, "Would you? I...God this is happening so fast. I mean I knew I was going to have to tell her when she got back, but I wanted to prepare better than this."
"Maybe it'll be better if it happens sooner. You know, you don't want to postpone something so big," said Allison.
Adam still had not spoken. Was Kris really going to tell her? He was really going to leave her to be with him? Adam squeezed Kris's hand tighter.
"Al, would you please pick her up and take her back to our house? I'll meet you there so I can talk to her. I just...I can't face her at the airport."
"Of course I will Kris, and then I'll come over here and hang with you Adam, OK?"
Adam looked up and saw concern in Allison's eyes. It made him smile. Allison was such a sweet girl. She did not think Adam should be alone during that. She knew how insecure Adam could be. Silently Kris praised God for having been blessed with such a kind and thoughtful friend as Allison. He knew that the time he was going to be with Katy was going to be hell for Adam.
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A look of worry passed over Katy's face when she saw only Allison waiting for her when she got off the plane. Something was wrong. It was not just because Kris was not there; it was the way Kris had been acting for the past week, when she had been away. He had sounded so distant on the phone, like he was too preoccupied with something else to talk to her. She bit her lip. This was not the first time she had been thinking those thoughts. Ever since he had told her he would be staying with Adam....
"Hey Katy! How was your flight?" Allison said, smiling warmly.
"Oh...fine," she said absently.
"Hmm, so I see… You have something on your mind, huh? You're wondering where Kris is, right?"
Katy nodded as they made their way through the crowd, "I take it you didn't find him?" She asked softly, not wanting to draw attention to them. As it was, there were already several people recognizing Allison. Good thing she had brought some security. They finally managed to make it to the car unscathed.
"Katy, I kinda lied before," Allison said gingerly as they drove away.
"Lied? What do you mean?"
"I did find Kris. It's just that,-"
"Where is he?" Katy asked worriedly, “Is…is he alright?”
"He…he is fine. He's at home...waiting for you. That's where I'm taking you. He wanted me to pick you up and bring you there."
For a second Katy’s heart leapt. Was Kris planning some romantic homecoming for her? A surprise?
But Allison's tone of voice suggested differently.
"Allison, what's wrong?" Katy asked softly as she looked out the window. She did not really expect her to answer.
"Honey, you're going to have to wait for him to tell you."
"But you know, don't you? I can hear it in your voice."
Katy sighed, frustrated. She knew Allison well enough to know that she would not betray her friend, but Allison surprised her, "Look Katy, I don't want to say too much cause Kris is one of my best friends and I won't betray his confidence but I want to give you some fair warning,-"
"I'm not going to like what he has to say, am I?" She asked softly, sadly.
Allison's heart went out to her. Katy looked so sad, so crushed. She seemed to know what was coming, well she probably did not know exactly what was coming, but she looked heartbroken. Without thinking, Allison reached over and touched her hand, "Sweetie...I really don't know what to say but yeah, you probably won't like what he has to say...I'm sorry for upsetting you."
Allison knew that none of that was her fault; she was just doing Kris and Adam a favor, but still, she felt so guilty!
"It's not your fault," Katy said, smiling weakly, "I'm just...well I guess I should wait until I see what he's going to say right?"
Allison nodded.
As they arrived at the house, Allison helped Katy take her luggage into the house.
"Kris? We're here," Allison yelled from the hallway. Katy set down a bag and looked around nervously for him. Allison walked into the kitchen and saw Kris hang up the phone.
"Adam?" Allison whispered, motioning towards the phone. Kris bit his lip and nodded.
"You're going over there now, right?" Kris asked anxiously. Adam had sounded so scared, so small on the phone. It was amazing how when the whole thing started, Adam had been the one to seduce Kris, to reassure him, but now that they were in love, Adam was the hesitant and scared one
Allison nodded, "Don't worry I won't leave him alone, OK? Now you gotta go deal with the heartbroken woman in your living room."
Kris paled, "You didn't,-"
"No Kris, of course I didn't tell her. I can't believe you'd think I would. She knows something is up, though."
"Al, please...I'm sorry. I'm just so nervous, I,-"
Allison shook her head and put her hands on Kris's arms, "It's OK homey and I forgive you. Now just go talk to her. And yes...I'm going right over to Adam's."
Unexpectedly, Kris reached out and pulled Allison to his embrace, "Thank you so much...for everything," Kris whispered.
"It's nothing Kris, really," Allison said softly as she hugged him back. She knew Kris was very worried about both Katy and Adam. She did not like seeing her friend so upset. Kris had been the one who had reassured her and was there for her, when she was in doubt or insecure or sad during their days on American Idol, and she desperately wanted to be there for him as well, but she knew she had to leave and leave Kris to face Katy alone.
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"Welcome home," Kris said softly as he walked into the living room and faced Katy. She knew something was wrong but the sight of him was still a comfort. She could not help going to him and wrapping her arms around him. He held her tightly, truly upset for what he was going to do. She was a wonderful person, and the last thing he wanted to do was hurt her. But it would not be fair to lie and stay with her. It would not be fair to her or to himself...or to Adam.
They sat down on the couch and Katy brought it up first, "Kris, please tell me what it is. Allison hinted that you had something important to tell me...something I wouldn't like, and I...I've sensed a difference in you for the last week. What...what happened Kris?"
She sounded so upset, and that was making everything even more difficult.
"Katy," Kris started, stopping to clear his throat, "I…I never, ever meant to hurt you...You have to believe me when I say that I never meant for what happened to happen but it did and I...," He stopped and ran his hands through his hair, "God this is coming out so cliché and cold, I,-"
"Kris, stop! Please," she said softly. She looked down at her hands, unwilling to believe what she knew to be true. He had found someone else. She knew it. What else could it be?
"You found someone else, didn't you?" She had not meant to ask, but she had to hear what he had to say.
Kris wanted to be honest so he nodded his head, ‘yes’ and immediately rushed on, "But that's not all, I mean...I never saw it coming."
She did not want to know the details.
"What did I do wrong?" Whispered Katy sadly.
"Oh God, Katy! You did nothing wrong...absolutely nothing at all," Kris said desperately. He hated to see her hurting so much. They were both silent for awhile. Kris was trying to figure out where to start. Katy was trying to work up the courage to ask her next question. Finally she blurted it out.
"Who is it?"
Kris looked up sharply, meeting her eyes. It was now or never. He knew he was going to give her the shock of her life. After all, it had sure been a shock to him. He looked down, ran his hand through his hair, and looked back up.
"Adam."
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"Adam, you have to be patient, OK?" Allison said, desperately trying to calm him down. Adam continued to pace back and forth, saying nothing.
"Adam, you're driving me crazy. Stop pacing around!" Allison demanded, pointing to the couch for Adam to sit down. Adam did as he was told.
"You love Kris, right?"
Adam nodded.
"And you trust him?"
Again, Adam nodded.
"Then stop it! Stop worrying!"
Adam looked down at his hands and instantly Allison felt bad. She had not meant to sound so harsh. Sighing, she reached over and gently put her hand on her friend's shoulder.
"Adam, he loves you. It's been apparent to me since I found out. So just trust him, OK?"
"I do trust him Al, I'm just...I'm just nervous."
To Allison's surprise, Adam leaned over and rested his head on her shoulder.
"Thank you for staying with me," he said softly.
"No biggie Adam, now what do you want to do? Play Guitar Hero? Watch a movie?"
Adam sat up and smiled at her, with a devilish glint in his eye, "Guitar Hero," he said happily. Allison rolled her eyes.
"So fucking predictable," she muttered, as she reached for the guitar.
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Katy said nothing, only stared at Kris.
That's it!
Her brain screamed at her.
That’s what has been there in your thoughts for months, but you never let yourself even dare to think!
She finally spoke up.
"What? How? I mean Kris…," She stopped, unsure of what to say.
"You sound as confused as I was. Like I said, I never saw it coming," He smiled weakly.
"But Kris...I'm sorry… I…I just don't know what to do with this. When did this start?"
"After you left...the first night I stayed with him. I started it, I mean I kissed him first, but...he was totally in charge...he seduced me completely," Kris said and stood up and walked to the window, "After the first time I felt so guilty and very confused. I mean I was cheating on you, but besides that I...I had just slept with my best friend...my male best friend, but I found myself wanting him again...and I didn't resist the next time."
Katy watched him with a mix of pity and fascination. Her sadness was slowly dissolving.
His tone changed suddenly then. He faced her and said, "'K, it was only supposed to be sex!" He sounded upset and confused, "Even though I felt guilty, we continued with what we were doing, but then it all changed. I fell in love with him. And he fell in love with me," He stopped and sat down next to her again, "I didn't know what to do," he continued, "But I've never felt like this...ever. He makes me so happy, he...completes me."
Katy smiled softly. She felt stupid for missing it. His and Adam's relationship had always been so completely different from any other guys she had ever known. They were so loving, so caring. It had always fascinated her, and yes, occasionally the thought had crossed her mind that they might be more than best friends, but she had always dismissed that. She had known Kris for a long time; she believed he knew the guy she had dated since high school, so she never really believed it would happen, until now...now it all seemed perfectly clear. In fact, it seemed stupid to think that she and Kris would've ever worked anymore since Adam had come to their lives! Funny how such important things can change so quickly.
"Say something Katy, please," Kris pleased, “Scream, hit me, anything, just say something, do something!”
She looked up, coming out of her thoughts, "Kris I...I really don't know how to put any of this, but I'll try. It hurts. It hurts that you don't want me anymore, that we're over, but after everything you told me, it all makes sense."
Kris looked at her curiously, "What do you mean, it makes sense?"
"I mean you and Adam. You should have seen yourself around the guy. No wonder you fell for each other. That makes perfect sense," She reached over and hugged him. He pulled her close.
"You are amazing," he whispered, "So understanding, so sweet, and so beautiful. I feel lucky to have shared a part of your life."
Katy started to cry. Damn! Why did he have to be so sweet?! They pulled apart.
"I'm sorry Kris...for making you cry…for everything," he said softly.
She smiled, "No, no Kris, it's OK. You're just being too sweet. Promise me something?"
"Anything."
"We'll always be friends?" Kris looked at her happily, contentment and relief shining in his eyes.
"Always! I promise," He smoothed her hair and leaned forward to kiss her.
Chapter 5
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 3,646
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: My very first Kradam fiction
Summary: Realizing the truth is not always easy.
Forever - Chapter 4
"God, the hotel security is so lame," Allison muttered to herself as she stepped out of the elevator and into the Adam’s floor and started walking toward Adam’s room. She was looking for Kris, for both Kris and Adam actually. She was on tour for her new album and had a show in Little Rock. The night before, right after the show, she had gotten a call from Katy. She sounded upset. Kris was not answering his phone. Katy had said Kris had been staying with Adam at the hotel, and she could not get a hold of Kris or Adam. Apparently Katy had found out that Allison was on tour in Arkansas and asked her to stop by the hotel and make sure they are both OK. Allison wondered what that was all about. So she had promised she'd go and find Kris and Adam. Being an Idol herself and knowing Adam so well had come in handy. She had told the hotel security that she was in town and was supposed to meet Adam. She had even told them that she knew Adam had signed under the name of Freddie Mercury, like he always had during their stays at hotels during Idol tour. Katy was coming home a day early, that day, in fact, and she needed someone to pick her up at the airport. Allison had promised Katy to do it if she could not find Adam or Kris in time.
As Allison slid the room card at the lock and opened the door of Adam's room, her mouth fell open and she stood frozen, hand on the door knob, eyes gawking. Was she really seeing what she was seeing? Kris and Adam sprawled on the bed, with Kris's head resting on Adam's naked chest and Adam's arms wrapped around Kris? After a few minutes of sheer shock, Allison's lips curved into a devilish little smile. She crept into the room and sat down on a chair near the side of the bed. She shook her head and covered her mouth to keep from giggling. So it was true, finally! The thought had always been there and she hated herself for thinking that way about her friends, yet it had always been at the back of her mind and never gone away completely. She had always thought that Kris and Adam were maybe a little bit more than best friends, and there it was, right in front of her eyes, in the open, plain to see! Oh she could not wait for them to wake up! She would tease the hell out of them! It was going to be so good; she was going to have so much fun with it!
Kris opened his eyes slowly and stretched. He pulled himself out of Adam's embrace and propped himself up on one elbow. He ran his hand over Adam's hair and smiled. Leaning down he kissed him gently.
Allison squirmed. She so did not need to see this!
God, Kris! Just turn the fuck around and see me!
Adam woke up and smiled lazily at Kris. His hands curved around Kris's back.
"Good morning," he said softly.
"Good morning to you too baby," Kris whispered back and kissed him again.
Ok, that's it! I so didn’t need to see that! I can't take this anymore, and I'm sick of waiting.
"Good morning guys!"
Kris whipped himself around at the sound of that familiar cheerful voice.
"Allison?!"
Kris did not know what to do, what to say. He heard Adam suck in his breath. No one spoke. Allison darted her amused eyes back and forth between Kris and Adam. Adam and Kris looked scared to death. Finally after such a long and painful silence it was Adam that spoke up.
"What...what are you doing here?" He asked tentatively.
"Well let's just put that on hold for a second, OK? Why don't you guys talk to me, huh?" Allison said gently. She sensed how nervous and worried they were at her finding out about their relationship, and she felt a little guilty for sneaking up on them, "Tell you what. You guys get um...get dressed and well, I'll meet you downstairs at the hotel lobby and we can talk over breakfast, OK?"
They both nodded obediently.
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"Coffee?" Allison asked when Kris and Adam both appeared in the hotel restaurant later, still looking scared and anxious. They both shook their heads. Allison put her coffee back on the table and looked up at the guys and motioned for them to sit down. Kris and Adam sat across from her.
"God! Will you two fucking stop looking at me like that?"
"Like what?" Kris asked, not really meeting Allison’s eyes.
"Like I'm going to post pictures of you on Twitter or …or worse...like I'm going to hate you?" Allison said as she took a sip of her coffee and looked back up at them. She sighed, "When did you guys figure out you were more than just friends? Was it…was it during Idol?"
Their eyes moved from her to each other and back.
It was Kris who spoke first, "No, I mean…yeah I started to have feelings for him back then, but… I never gave it much thought until a couple of days ago."
Allison looked surprised, "That's it?"
Adam smiled and asked, "Well what did you think? That we'd been together since day one at Idol?"
Allison bit her lip and then took a sip of coffee, not willing to answer that question.
"So what happened? If you don't mind my asking."
"Nah, we don't mind...I mean unless you do, Kris?" Adam asked tentatively.
Kris shook his head, "No I don't mind."
Kris continued to give Allison an overview of what had passed between them. He still was not sure what he thought of their friend knowing...it was still so soon, so fast, but Allison was perfectly fine with everything. In fact, she was happy for them, and that made both Kris and Adam happy, and somewhat relieved.
"So Allison, you never did tell us what are you doing in town...and wait a minute," continued Adam, looking around in confusion, "How the hell did you get in my room?"
"I had a show at Little Rock last night, and you can blame me being in that room on the lame hotel security and a very predictable Adam," Allison teased.
"What? I am so totally unpredictable. Ask ABC about my AMA performance if you don’t believe me," Adam said laughing.
Kris rolled his eyes, "So Al, are you going to tell us why you're here or are you going to keep us in suspense?"
Allison looked away.
"Al? Is something wrong?" Kris asked, sounding more serious now.
"Well it depends on how you look at it."
"What's that supposed to mean?" Asked Adam.
Allison sighed, "Ok I'm just going to tell you both cause there's no use in putting in off anymore. Katy called me last night. She knew I had a show nearby and wanted to know if I could look for you, Kris."
Kris and Adam's faces paled.
"Why...why was she looking for me?" Kris asked hoarsely. Adam pretended to be very interested in picking pieces of lint off his pants.
"She said she couldn't get a hold of you or Adam. I guess you guys didn't want to be disturbed," she said, sounding somewhat embarrassed, "But anyway I told her I'd try and find you."
"What did she want?" Kris asked softly, "Did something happen?"
Adam heard the concern in Kris's voice and it tugged at his heart. After last night, he knew, without a doubt, that Kris loved him but, he had to still have feelings for her too. She was his wife after all, and that made him worry, even though logically, he knew there was no reason to.
"No everything's fine but she um...she called to tell you she's coming home a day early...today."
Adam sat up sharply, his eyes darting around nervously. Kris, though worried about the inevitable confrontation, sensed Adam's fear, and quickly grabbed his hand and squeezed it tightly. Adam relaxed somewhat. Allison watched that small exchange between them with a slight smile. They had always done things like that, long before anything had ever happened. They had always had a connection that no one could ever break. Allison wondered to herself why they had never realized their feelings until recently, "Look, I told her I was in town for a day or two and that if I couldn't find either of you that I would pick her up at the airport. If you want, I'll still do that."
Kris smiled weakly, "Would you? I...God this is happening so fast. I mean I knew I was going to have to tell her when she got back, but I wanted to prepare better than this."
"Maybe it'll be better if it happens sooner. You know, you don't want to postpone something so big," said Allison.
Adam still had not spoken. Was Kris really going to tell her? He was really going to leave her to be with him? Adam squeezed Kris's hand tighter.
"Al, would you please pick her up and take her back to our house? I'll meet you there so I can talk to her. I just...I can't face her at the airport."
"Of course I will Kris, and then I'll come over here and hang with you Adam, OK?"
Adam looked up and saw concern in Allison's eyes. It made him smile. Allison was such a sweet girl. She did not think Adam should be alone during that. She knew how insecure Adam could be. Silently Kris praised God for having been blessed with such a kind and thoughtful friend as Allison. He knew that the time he was going to be with Katy was going to be hell for Adam.
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A look of worry passed over Katy's face when she saw only Allison waiting for her when she got off the plane. Something was wrong. It was not just because Kris was not there; it was the way Kris had been acting for the past week, when she had been away. He had sounded so distant on the phone, like he was too preoccupied with something else to talk to her. She bit her lip. This was not the first time she had been thinking those thoughts. Ever since he had told her he would be staying with Adam....
"Hey Katy! How was your flight?" Allison said, smiling warmly.
"Oh...fine," she said absently.
"Hmm, so I see… You have something on your mind, huh? You're wondering where Kris is, right?"
Katy nodded as they made their way through the crowd, "I take it you didn't find him?" She asked softly, not wanting to draw attention to them. As it was, there were already several people recognizing Allison. Good thing she had brought some security. They finally managed to make it to the car unscathed.
"Katy, I kinda lied before," Allison said gingerly as they drove away.
"Lied? What do you mean?"
"I did find Kris. It's just that,-"
"Where is he?" Katy asked worriedly, “Is…is he alright?”
"He…he is fine. He's at home...waiting for you. That's where I'm taking you. He wanted me to pick you up and bring you there."
For a second Katy’s heart leapt. Was Kris planning some romantic homecoming for her? A surprise?
But Allison's tone of voice suggested differently.
"Allison, what's wrong?" Katy asked softly as she looked out the window. She did not really expect her to answer.
"Honey, you're going to have to wait for him to tell you."
"But you know, don't you? I can hear it in your voice."
Katy sighed, frustrated. She knew Allison well enough to know that she would not betray her friend, but Allison surprised her, "Look Katy, I don't want to say too much cause Kris is one of my best friends and I won't betray his confidence but I want to give you some fair warning,-"
"I'm not going to like what he has to say, am I?" She asked softly, sadly.
Allison's heart went out to her. Katy looked so sad, so crushed. She seemed to know what was coming, well she probably did not know exactly what was coming, but she looked heartbroken. Without thinking, Allison reached over and touched her hand, "Sweetie...I really don't know what to say but yeah, you probably won't like what he has to say...I'm sorry for upsetting you."
Allison knew that none of that was her fault; she was just doing Kris and Adam a favor, but still, she felt so guilty!
"It's not your fault," Katy said, smiling weakly, "I'm just...well I guess I should wait until I see what he's going to say right?"
Allison nodded.
As they arrived at the house, Allison helped Katy take her luggage into the house.
"Kris? We're here," Allison yelled from the hallway. Katy set down a bag and looked around nervously for him. Allison walked into the kitchen and saw Kris hang up the phone.
"Adam?" Allison whispered, motioning towards the phone. Kris bit his lip and nodded.
"You're going over there now, right?" Kris asked anxiously. Adam had sounded so scared, so small on the phone. It was amazing how when the whole thing started, Adam had been the one to seduce Kris, to reassure him, but now that they were in love, Adam was the hesitant and scared one
Allison nodded, "Don't worry I won't leave him alone, OK? Now you gotta go deal with the heartbroken woman in your living room."
Kris paled, "You didn't,-"
"No Kris, of course I didn't tell her. I can't believe you'd think I would. She knows something is up, though."
"Al, please...I'm sorry. I'm just so nervous, I,-"
Allison shook her head and put her hands on Kris's arms, "It's OK homey and I forgive you. Now just go talk to her. And yes...I'm going right over to Adam's."
Unexpectedly, Kris reached out and pulled Allison to his embrace, "Thank you so much...for everything," Kris whispered.
"It's nothing Kris, really," Allison said softly as she hugged him back. She knew Kris was very worried about both Katy and Adam. She did not like seeing her friend so upset. Kris had been the one who had reassured her and was there for her, when she was in doubt or insecure or sad during their days on American Idol, and she desperately wanted to be there for him as well, but she knew she had to leave and leave Kris to face Katy alone.
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"Welcome home," Kris said softly as he walked into the living room and faced Katy. She knew something was wrong but the sight of him was still a comfort. She could not help going to him and wrapping her arms around him. He held her tightly, truly upset for what he was going to do. She was a wonderful person, and the last thing he wanted to do was hurt her. But it would not be fair to lie and stay with her. It would not be fair to her or to himself...or to Adam.
They sat down on the couch and Katy brought it up first, "Kris, please tell me what it is. Allison hinted that you had something important to tell me...something I wouldn't like, and I...I've sensed a difference in you for the last week. What...what happened Kris?"
She sounded so upset, and that was making everything even more difficult.
"Katy," Kris started, stopping to clear his throat, "I…I never, ever meant to hurt you...You have to believe me when I say that I never meant for what happened to happen but it did and I...," He stopped and ran his hands through his hair, "God this is coming out so cliché and cold, I,-"
"Kris, stop! Please," she said softly. She looked down at her hands, unwilling to believe what she knew to be true. He had found someone else. She knew it. What else could it be?
"You found someone else, didn't you?" She had not meant to ask, but she had to hear what he had to say.
Kris wanted to be honest so he nodded his head, ‘yes’ and immediately rushed on, "But that's not all, I mean...I never saw it coming."
She did not want to know the details.
"What did I do wrong?" Whispered Katy sadly.
"Oh God, Katy! You did nothing wrong...absolutely nothing at all," Kris said desperately. He hated to see her hurting so much. They were both silent for awhile. Kris was trying to figure out where to start. Katy was trying to work up the courage to ask her next question. Finally she blurted it out.
"Who is it?"
Kris looked up sharply, meeting her eyes. It was now or never. He knew he was going to give her the shock of her life. After all, it had sure been a shock to him. He looked down, ran his hand through his hair, and looked back up.
"Adam."
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"Adam, you have to be patient, OK?" Allison said, desperately trying to calm him down. Adam continued to pace back and forth, saying nothing.
"Adam, you're driving me crazy. Stop pacing around!" Allison demanded, pointing to the couch for Adam to sit down. Adam did as he was told.
"You love Kris, right?"
Adam nodded.
"And you trust him?"
Again, Adam nodded.
"Then stop it! Stop worrying!"
Adam looked down at his hands and instantly Allison felt bad. She had not meant to sound so harsh. Sighing, she reached over and gently put her hand on her friend's shoulder.
"Adam, he loves you. It's been apparent to me since I found out. So just trust him, OK?"
"I do trust him Al, I'm just...I'm just nervous."
To Allison's surprise, Adam leaned over and rested his head on her shoulder.
"Thank you for staying with me," he said softly.
"No biggie Adam, now what do you want to do? Play Guitar Hero? Watch a movie?"
Adam sat up and smiled at her, with a devilish glint in his eye, "Guitar Hero," he said happily. Allison rolled her eyes.
"So fucking predictable," she muttered, as she reached for the guitar.
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Katy said nothing, only stared at Kris.
That's it!
Her brain screamed at her.
That’s what has been there in your thoughts for months, but you never let yourself even dare to think!
She finally spoke up.
"What? How? I mean Kris…," She stopped, unsure of what to say.
"You sound as confused as I was. Like I said, I never saw it coming," He smiled weakly.
"But Kris...I'm sorry… I…I just don't know what to do with this. When did this start?"
"After you left...the first night I stayed with him. I started it, I mean I kissed him first, but...he was totally in charge...he seduced me completely," Kris said and stood up and walked to the window, "After the first time I felt so guilty and very confused. I mean I was cheating on you, but besides that I...I had just slept with my best friend...my male best friend, but I found myself wanting him again...and I didn't resist the next time."
Katy watched him with a mix of pity and fascination. Her sadness was slowly dissolving.
His tone changed suddenly then. He faced her and said, "'K, it was only supposed to be sex!" He sounded upset and confused, "Even though I felt guilty, we continued with what we were doing, but then it all changed. I fell in love with him. And he fell in love with me," He stopped and sat down next to her again, "I didn't know what to do," he continued, "But I've never felt like this...ever. He makes me so happy, he...completes me."
Katy smiled softly. She felt stupid for missing it. His and Adam's relationship had always been so completely different from any other guys she had ever known. They were so loving, so caring. It had always fascinated her, and yes, occasionally the thought had crossed her mind that they might be more than best friends, but she had always dismissed that. She had known Kris for a long time; she believed he knew the guy she had dated since high school, so she never really believed it would happen, until now...now it all seemed perfectly clear. In fact, it seemed stupid to think that she and Kris would've ever worked anymore since Adam had come to their lives! Funny how such important things can change so quickly.
"Say something Katy, please," Kris pleased, “Scream, hit me, anything, just say something, do something!”
She looked up, coming out of her thoughts, "Kris I...I really don't know how to put any of this, but I'll try. It hurts. It hurts that you don't want me anymore, that we're over, but after everything you told me, it all makes sense."
Kris looked at her curiously, "What do you mean, it makes sense?"
"I mean you and Adam. You should have seen yourself around the guy. No wonder you fell for each other. That makes perfect sense," She reached over and hugged him. He pulled her close.
"You are amazing," he whispered, "So understanding, so sweet, and so beautiful. I feel lucky to have shared a part of your life."
Katy started to cry. Damn! Why did he have to be so sweet?! They pulled apart.
"I'm sorry Kris...for making you cry…for everything," he said softly.
She smiled, "No, no Kris, it's OK. You're just being too sweet. Promise me something?"
"Anything."
"We'll always be friends?" Kris looked at her happily, contentment and relief shining in his eyes.
"Always! I promise," He smoothed her hair and leaned forward to kiss her.
Chapter 5
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Date: 2009-12-04 05:36 pm (UTC)I need a quick update. These two need to start their crazy life together.
This is so, so good. I really feel their love and I appreciate that you made Katy so understanding. It'll make life for Kris and Adam a lot easier.
And go Allison!
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Date: 2009-12-04 06:46 pm (UTC)Sure, the last chapter will be posted tomorrow. ;)
<3
Date: 2009-12-04 07:19 pm (UTC)Re: <3
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Date: 2009-12-04 10:02 pm (UTC)These two need to be able to start their real relationship. :P So good.
I really believe the plot and I love the way you write Katy.
I really hate when I see her portrayed as a total bitch.
:)
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Date: 2009-12-05 05:57 pm (UTC)Anyway thanks for the feedback :*
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Date: 2009-12-05 03:03 am (UTC)I can't wait for the next chapter! <3333 it!
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Date: 2009-12-05 04:45 pm (UTC)I liked Katy in this too.
Looking forward to the next chapter.
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Date: 2009-12-05 06:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-18 07:00 pm (UTC)Allison was an interesting twist. I really do wonder what she thinks about the relationship between Adam and Kris. Does she laugh at all the people speculating about them being together? OR does she see where they are coming from? Or, is she just a teenage girl and doesn't pay attention either way?
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Date: 2010-02-18 08:33 pm (UTC)I like Allison's personality, a lot. She acts like a typical teenager, but I see something deeper in her. Have you listened to her album?
You have the coolest icon selection by the way. I like 'em! :D
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Date: 2010-02-18 09:17 pm (UTC)Yes, I have heard Allison's album in bits and pieces. I love, love, love her voice but some of the songs are so-so for me. I don't seek them out to listen to them, but I do occasionally when someone posts something about her. She is getting less awkward to watch, kind like she is growing up before our eyes and that is special.
Thank you for the compliment on the icons. I love color and movement and like to capture that in icons. I like to be unique too. I had a lot more, but I lost them when they expired and now I'm rebuilding them up again.
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Date: 2010-02-18 10:03 pm (UTC)As for Allison, she can be a great artist some day if she keeps it up. She can get as huge as Pink if she stays smart along the journey.
and you're welcome! :)