Leap of Faith - Chapter 11
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something_rareTitle: Leap of Faith
Pairing: Jensen Ackles /Jared Padalecki (eventually), Mentions of Jensen/OMC, Jared/OMC and Others
Other Characters: Tom Welling, Chris Kane, Danneel Harris, Misha Collins
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 1,531
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: None of this would be possible and readable without my awesome beta,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bigj52 . I learn from you everyday.
Summery: AU / Everybody has a dream. Some people make their dreams come true. Some just let their life slip by thinking about it.
Leap of Faith - Chapter 11:
"What the hell game are you playing at, you son of a bitch?"
"This is not a game. What you see in there is what everyone else is going to see unless I get what I want."
"That's a fucking lie! You expect me to believe that..."
"I don't really give a fuck if you believe em' or not. There it is in living color."
"You fucking low life, he was supposed to be your friend."
"Save me the drama, Jenny. Business is business and friendship is reusable, interchangeable and optional. I thought you of all people would know that."
Jensen stared down at the pictures again. He could not believe that Jared, his Jared could have done those things in those pictures with Patrick. The thought alone made him want to throw up. The horrible sound of Patrick’s laughter was getting to him. All he wanted to do was kill him. His mind began formulating all sorts of plans, ways that he could get rid of Patrick - dispose of the body, take care of the evidence. But Jensen knew that was not him. He took a deep breath and looked up at Patrick.
"Jared wouldn't do that!" He stated.
"Well he did… with me, and let me tell you that boy sure can fuck."
"NO! Jared wouldn't stoop that low, not with you, not..."
"I had your boy so fucking hung up on me I got him to do anything I wanted. He gave me your job in the blink of an eye, Jensen. Then when I asked him to fire you, damn, he didn't want to. He fought like hell but I had to give him a little incentive. Those pictures sure did the trick. He was eating out of the palm of my hand and he will be again."
"You're fucking nuts!"
"No, but you obviously are! Did you really think you could get away with stealing my client, my job from me? I worked my ass off to get where I am today and I'm not going to let a fucking nut job like you get in my way."
"What the hell do you want from me?!"
"You're going to do whatever the fuck I tell you to,” Patrick said with a smirk, “Or else I'm gonna make sure that little boyfriend of yours never sings another song ever again in his life. You know firsthand what one little picture can do to your life. Your whole world will be turned upside down overnight.”
"So you think I'm gonna help you? You must be out of your mind..."
"Listen to me, you little shit. Tomorrow, you’re going to go in and you're going to tell Jared you quit. You understand me? And you won't say one fucking word about this or me."
"I won't do it!"
"Yes you will, or you can helplessly watch how I destroy his career piece by piece. Is that what you want, Jensen? Do you really want to watch his whole career get ruined, all because of you? Do you want to be the reason why no one wants him? Because, let me tell you, when these pictures hit the press, I am going to make sure everyone knows who to look at and where to look. Do you want to be the cause of his pain?"
Jensen looked away. Patrick did have a point. How could he just sit back and allow this to happen to his friend, to the man that he secretly loved? No. he couldn’t, he just couldn't.
"I’m going to wait until tomorrow night and not one minute more. Do you hear me? And if I find out that you're still working for him by then, you will wake up and see these pictures on the covers of every single magazine. His fans will go wild when they see this. No label will ever want to touch him. Oh, and what about Danneel? Have you thought about her? What will her fans think about her? You know how moralistic most country fans are, don’t you? You don't want to mess with them, trust me. So the bottom line is, Jenny boy that your decision could destroy a lot of people. Do you want to be responsible for that?"
With that, Patrick slowly walked out of Jensen’s apartment, slamming the door behind him.
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"What’s wrong with you today, Jensen?" Jared asked for the thousandth time the next day. They were trying to write together but Jensen was out of it for the most time.
"It's nothing, man. Just leave it alone."
"I'm not going to leave it alone," Jared said and tried to touch Jensen but Jensen slapped his hand away.
"Which part of ‘leave it alone’ don't you fucking understand, Jared?!" Jensen yelled, not knowing why he was upset with Jared.
"Shit, Jensen. What the hell is your problem?"
"Nothing, OK?" Jensen snapped. He looked at Jared and saw the hurt look on his face, a look that he never wanted to see again, “Look. I'm sorry, man. I just have a lot on my mind today. There are things I need to sort out, by myself," he told Jared gently this time. Jared put away the guitar in his hand, walked up to Jensen and without saying a word, put his arms around Jensen. It was all Jensen needed to let go. The dam just burst open and he started to sob on Jared’s shoulder.
"Jenny, what's wrong?" Jared asked gently, rubbing Jensen’s back. Jensen just wanted to tell him everything, ask for his help but he knew he could not. Memories of Patrick’s little visits, his cruel words and his threats were all too fresh in Jensen’s mind. He knew he could not let Jared know any of that. He would never do that to his best friend, to the man he loved. Even if all it would take to save Jared’s life and career was ruining his own life, he would do it. Suddenly he knew what needed to be done.
He raised his head a little, leaned into Jared and allowed his lips to meet Jared’s. The world stopped for him, right then and there. He felt jolts of electricity rushing down his spine. His tongue found its way into Jared’s mouth and greeted his. He could feel Jared’s heartbeat next to his. Slowly he let his arms encircle Jared's neck, and suddenly, as if Jared finally realized what was happening, he pulled away abruptly.
"What the hell was that?"
"I kissed you."
"I know that. Why would you do that?"
"You didn't stop me."
"Jensen, -"
"I love you," Jensen said suddenly. All he got in return was an empty blank stare.
"Jensen, I…, you…, we're friends, and I'm…, I can't be more than that to you."
"You didn’t mind being more to Patrick,” Jensen blurted out in a moment of anger. He was hurt that Jared would choose an experience with that asshole over one with him.
"What?"
"You fucked Patrick who doesn’t give a rat’s ass about you, but here I am, offering everything I have and you can't be more than that to me!" Jensen could see surprise and then anger in Jared’s face.
"Mind your own fucking business, Jensen! What I did or didn't do with Patrick is really none of your goddamn concern."
"I was your fucking friend, Jared! Don't you think I should have known about shit like that? I told you everything that was happening in my life and you couldn't even share this with me!"
"There was nothing to share, OK? It was a series of harmless fucks. It meant absolutely nothing."
"Like I guess our relationship means absolutely nothing!"
"That's not true, Jensen, and you know it!"
"Then why won't you give me a chance to show you how much I care about you? I would do anything for you Jared, anything!"
"Because...because that's not me, Jensen. I can't do that and still be in this business. My career comes first before anything else; you of all people should know that."
"I guess I should."
"I didn't mean it like that, Jensen."
"Oh yeah? I've wasted my life on you, Jared. I missed out on so many things, just so that I could be near you, so that we could be together. I'm such a fucking idiot."
"No you're not, Jensen," Jared said and reached out to touch Jensen. Before Jensen knew what he was doing, he hit Jared right in the face and ran out the door, not looking back to see if Jared was OK. Jensen wanted not to care but he did. He knew he did.
You are such a fucking head case, Jensen Ross Ackles!
He ran to the parking lot and jumped into his car. He didn't care anymore. He didn't want to care anymore.
All he could see was Jared and Patrick together, knowing it should have been him with Jared, not that creepy asshole. It should have been him all along. As he turned into the street Jensen failed to see the truck as it barreled right into him. His whole world turned black.
Chapter 12
Pairing: Jensen Ackles /Jared Padalecki (eventually), Mentions of Jensen/OMC, Jared/OMC and Others
Other Characters: Tom Welling, Chris Kane, Danneel Harris, Misha Collins
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 1,531
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: None of this would be possible and readable without my awesome beta,
bigj52 . I learn from you everyday.Summery: AU / Everybody has a dream. Some people make their dreams come true. Some just let their life slip by thinking about it.
Leap of Faith - Chapter 11:
"What the hell game are you playing at, you son of a bitch?"
"This is not a game. What you see in there is what everyone else is going to see unless I get what I want."
"That's a fucking lie! You expect me to believe that..."
"I don't really give a fuck if you believe em' or not. There it is in living color."
"You fucking low life, he was supposed to be your friend."
"Save me the drama, Jenny. Business is business and friendship is reusable, interchangeable and optional. I thought you of all people would know that."
Jensen stared down at the pictures again. He could not believe that Jared, his Jared could have done those things in those pictures with Patrick. The thought alone made him want to throw up. The horrible sound of Patrick’s laughter was getting to him. All he wanted to do was kill him. His mind began formulating all sorts of plans, ways that he could get rid of Patrick - dispose of the body, take care of the evidence. But Jensen knew that was not him. He took a deep breath and looked up at Patrick.
"Jared wouldn't do that!" He stated.
"Well he did… with me, and let me tell you that boy sure can fuck."
"NO! Jared wouldn't stoop that low, not with you, not..."
"I had your boy so fucking hung up on me I got him to do anything I wanted. He gave me your job in the blink of an eye, Jensen. Then when I asked him to fire you, damn, he didn't want to. He fought like hell but I had to give him a little incentive. Those pictures sure did the trick. He was eating out of the palm of my hand and he will be again."
"You're fucking nuts!"
"No, but you obviously are! Did you really think you could get away with stealing my client, my job from me? I worked my ass off to get where I am today and I'm not going to let a fucking nut job like you get in my way."
"What the hell do you want from me?!"
"You're going to do whatever the fuck I tell you to,” Patrick said with a smirk, “Or else I'm gonna make sure that little boyfriend of yours never sings another song ever again in his life. You know firsthand what one little picture can do to your life. Your whole world will be turned upside down overnight.”
"So you think I'm gonna help you? You must be out of your mind..."
"Listen to me, you little shit. Tomorrow, you’re going to go in and you're going to tell Jared you quit. You understand me? And you won't say one fucking word about this or me."
"I won't do it!"
"Yes you will, or you can helplessly watch how I destroy his career piece by piece. Is that what you want, Jensen? Do you really want to watch his whole career get ruined, all because of you? Do you want to be the reason why no one wants him? Because, let me tell you, when these pictures hit the press, I am going to make sure everyone knows who to look at and where to look. Do you want to be the cause of his pain?"
Jensen looked away. Patrick did have a point. How could he just sit back and allow this to happen to his friend, to the man that he secretly loved? No. he couldn’t, he just couldn't.
"I’m going to wait until tomorrow night and not one minute more. Do you hear me? And if I find out that you're still working for him by then, you will wake up and see these pictures on the covers of every single magazine. His fans will go wild when they see this. No label will ever want to touch him. Oh, and what about Danneel? Have you thought about her? What will her fans think about her? You know how moralistic most country fans are, don’t you? You don't want to mess with them, trust me. So the bottom line is, Jenny boy that your decision could destroy a lot of people. Do you want to be responsible for that?"
With that, Patrick slowly walked out of Jensen’s apartment, slamming the door behind him.
_______________________________
"What’s wrong with you today, Jensen?" Jared asked for the thousandth time the next day. They were trying to write together but Jensen was out of it for the most time.
"It's nothing, man. Just leave it alone."
"I'm not going to leave it alone," Jared said and tried to touch Jensen but Jensen slapped his hand away.
"Which part of ‘leave it alone’ don't you fucking understand, Jared?!" Jensen yelled, not knowing why he was upset with Jared.
"Shit, Jensen. What the hell is your problem?"
"Nothing, OK?" Jensen snapped. He looked at Jared and saw the hurt look on his face, a look that he never wanted to see again, “Look. I'm sorry, man. I just have a lot on my mind today. There are things I need to sort out, by myself," he told Jared gently this time. Jared put away the guitar in his hand, walked up to Jensen and without saying a word, put his arms around Jensen. It was all Jensen needed to let go. The dam just burst open and he started to sob on Jared’s shoulder.
"Jenny, what's wrong?" Jared asked gently, rubbing Jensen’s back. Jensen just wanted to tell him everything, ask for his help but he knew he could not. Memories of Patrick’s little visits, his cruel words and his threats were all too fresh in Jensen’s mind. He knew he could not let Jared know any of that. He would never do that to his best friend, to the man he loved. Even if all it would take to save Jared’s life and career was ruining his own life, he would do it. Suddenly he knew what needed to be done.
He raised his head a little, leaned into Jared and allowed his lips to meet Jared’s. The world stopped for him, right then and there. He felt jolts of electricity rushing down his spine. His tongue found its way into Jared’s mouth and greeted his. He could feel Jared’s heartbeat next to his. Slowly he let his arms encircle Jared's neck, and suddenly, as if Jared finally realized what was happening, he pulled away abruptly.
"What the hell was that?"
"I kissed you."
"I know that. Why would you do that?"
"You didn't stop me."
"Jensen, -"
"I love you," Jensen said suddenly. All he got in return was an empty blank stare.
"Jensen, I…, you…, we're friends, and I'm…, I can't be more than that to you."
"You didn’t mind being more to Patrick,” Jensen blurted out in a moment of anger. He was hurt that Jared would choose an experience with that asshole over one with him.
"What?"
"You fucked Patrick who doesn’t give a rat’s ass about you, but here I am, offering everything I have and you can't be more than that to me!" Jensen could see surprise and then anger in Jared’s face.
"Mind your own fucking business, Jensen! What I did or didn't do with Patrick is really none of your goddamn concern."
"I was your fucking friend, Jared! Don't you think I should have known about shit like that? I told you everything that was happening in my life and you couldn't even share this with me!"
"There was nothing to share, OK? It was a series of harmless fucks. It meant absolutely nothing."
"Like I guess our relationship means absolutely nothing!"
"That's not true, Jensen, and you know it!"
"Then why won't you give me a chance to show you how much I care about you? I would do anything for you Jared, anything!"
"Because...because that's not me, Jensen. I can't do that and still be in this business. My career comes first before anything else; you of all people should know that."
"I guess I should."
"I didn't mean it like that, Jensen."
"Oh yeah? I've wasted my life on you, Jared. I missed out on so many things, just so that I could be near you, so that we could be together. I'm such a fucking idiot."
"No you're not, Jensen," Jared said and reached out to touch Jensen. Before Jensen knew what he was doing, he hit Jared right in the face and ran out the door, not looking back to see if Jared was OK. Jensen wanted not to care but he did. He knew he did.
You are such a fucking head case, Jensen Ross Ackles!
He ran to the parking lot and jumped into his car. He didn't care anymore. He didn't want to care anymore.
All he could see was Jared and Patrick together, knowing it should have been him with Jared, not that creepy asshole. It should have been him all along. As he turned into the street Jensen failed to see the truck as it barreled right into him. His whole world turned black.
Chapter 12
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Date: 2009-12-09 07:04 pm (UTC)Get your act together before you lose Jensen forever.
Please let Jensen be okay.
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Date: 2009-12-11 09:02 pm (UTC)Oh I am gonna torture Patrick slow and good. I might even ask Dean's help on that part. lol
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Date: 2009-12-09 10:58 pm (UTC)Great chapter, I red all the fic this morning and now I really want to kick Jared!
First of all ... Patrick's a horny asshole, please kill him but then...give Jensen a little dignity and let him have an hard fight with Jared about all this mess.
Still great, great chapters, great fic, you're a goddess in that you know that?
Forgive my english and mistakes, I'm italian!
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Date: 2009-12-11 09:06 pm (UTC)I love your icon, btw! :D
Thank you so much for reading the story and for your feedback. *hugs*
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Date: 2009-12-09 11:30 pm (UTC)Where's by 2x4 I am so going to kick Jared's arse. He deserves Jensen finding someone else to love him and never seeing Jensen again. Jared doesn't deserve him the selfish arsehole! Jensen shouldn't even want him after Jared's been with that dick!
Then again, after what just happened, he might never get to see Jensen again.....post next chapter..need more
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Date: 2009-12-11 09:18 pm (UTC)Just posted the next chapter ;)
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Date: 2009-12-10 01:46 am (UTC)That was really intense and heartbreaking i cant believe Jared said that to Jensen,so sad,even when they try,they still are so far from each others.
Please dont let Jensen die please.
Cant wait to read whats coming next,so hurry up with the next chapter.Thanks.
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Date: 2009-12-11 09:21 pm (UTC)That's true, they both try, just not hard enough. They will hopefully learn though. ;)
Thank you so much for reading and....HOT icon! Yumm! :D
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Date: 2009-12-10 02:50 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-12-10 09:15 am (UTC)And why Jared is still being such an asshole is beyond me. Jensen deserves so much better... And now a car accident???
Someone needs so give Jensen a big hug and maybe a really nice and perfect boyfriend... And I'm not talking about Jared here! Jared really needs to think about his priorities...
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Date: 2009-12-11 09:27 pm (UTC)