Leap of Faith - Chapter 14
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something_rareTitle: Leap of Faith
Pairing: Jensen Ackles /Jared Padalecki (eventually), Mentions of Jensen/OMC, Jared/OMC and Others
Other Characters: Tom Welling, Chris Kane, Danneel Harris, Misha Collins
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 3,961
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: None of this would be possible and readable without my awesome beta,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bigj52 . I learn from you everyday.
Summery: AU / Everybody has a dream. Some people make their dreams come true. Some just let their life slip by thinking about it.
Chapter 14:
Jared leaned his head against his arms on the desk and closed his eyes, remembering the night before. When he was finally out of his daze, he felt himself being pulled by a cop into the back of a police car, while the paramedics were loading Chris into an ambulance. The last thing he saw before the car took off was Jensen’s face. Jared was scared, not about the press getting a hold of what had happened, not about Matt, not about the possible court and lawsuit. No. What he dreaded the most was Jensen’s reaction.
As Jared heard the door of the interview room being opened, he raised his head to see Matt walking in.
"What the fuck happened, Jared?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"This is no time for this star bullshit! You are in some major shit, buddy. You almost killed that man!"
"Well, I didn't, did I?" Matt glared at him before he took up his briefcase and made his way towards the door.
"Matt, I'm sorry!"
Matt looked back at Jared and shook his head. He walked back over to him, and put his hand on Jared’s shoulder.
"What happened to you, son?"
"I don't know. I just snapped. Is he… is he going to be OK?"
"He should be fine. You should worry about the civil court, maybe even the criminal court. How did things get out of hand, boy?"
"I don't know, Matt. I fucked up, big time!"
"Yes, you did but don't worry. I’ve already called your lawyer. He is on his way. We’re going to wait and see if this guy presses charges."
As hard as Jared tried to concentrate on what Matt was telling him about the possible trial, his thoughts drifted back to Jensen and his reaction.
"Have you heard from Jensen yet?" Jared said, interrupting Matt and his monotone.
"Yes. He was the one calling me, actually.”
"And? Where is he?"
"With his friend at the hospital."
"Did he say anything else?"
"Jared,-"
"Did he say anything else, Matt?" Jared raised his voice, causing the guard standing outside the room to give him a warning look.
"No, but I don't think this is the right time to be talking about this."
"I didn’t ask your opinion on this Matt, now did I?"
Jared regretted those words as soon as they were out of his mouth. Matt had been like a father figure for him since the beginning of his career and there was no way he wanted to disrespect the man.
"I'm sorry man, shit! I just seem to piss everybody off today," Jared said, taking his head in his hands.
"I can only imagine how hard this has been on you, son."
That was all it took for Jared to let go of all the emotions he had bottled up inside for a long time. He began to silently sob.
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Jensen just stood there, not believing his eyes. There was Chris, lying in a hospital bed with broken ribs and bones. For the life of him, Jensen could not understand why Jared would do something like this. Chris had been seriously beaten. He could not speak. He could not even open his eyes, and Jensen was desperate to understand what had happened.
He watched Dr.Collins examining him. Knowing Chris was in capable hands was a relief.
"Is he going to be OK?" Jensen whispered, pain and worry evident in his voice.
"Sure, he’ll pull through just fine. Don’t worry,” Dr. Collins said over his shoulder with a smile. He will be out for the night, Jensen. You can go home and come back later."
"Can I just have a few more minutes, just to let him know I'll be back?"
"Sure, no problem."
As Jensen stood there, watching the doctor do his job, his mind drifted to Jared. He had called Matt twice; once as soon as the police car left the place and again when he was waiting on the doctors working on Chris in the emergency room. Matt had practically begged him to go see Jared or at least talk to him. He said Jared kept asking about him. Jensen couldn't. Jared was a stranger to him. He could not understand how someone could be sweet and caring one minute and so ruthless the next. He had no right to treat Chris that way. Chris didn't deserve this, no matter what had happened between them. Nothing Jared would say or do would change Jensen’s mind about it.
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"I have some good news!"
Jared looked up at Matt and saw him smiling at him.
"You're getting out of here."
"Thank God!"
"Also the charges against you have been dropped."
"Even the assault charges? Are you serious?” Jared asked, not believing his ears.
"Yep. Mr. Kane won't bring charges against you. Apparently he told the cops that he initiated the fight in the first place."
Jared just sat there, speechless. He had almost beaten the guy to death and yet he didn’t rat him out.
"I can't believe it. So that means I'm getting out of here?"
"Yeah you are. We just sit and wait for them to sign you out."
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Jensen was packing his bag when he heard the key turning in the lock. Slowly he walked out of his room and into the hall where he saw Jared. He stood there, watching him walking into the kitchen, opening the refrigerator. As he bent over and retrieved a beer, Jensen stared at the contours of his ass outlined as clear as day. Instinctively Jensen drew in a breath which made Jared jump and spin around, stunned.
"Jensen," Jared whispered and took a step towards Jensen, only to be stopped by Jensen taking a step back.
"I'm just here to get my stuff," Jensen said, his face blank, his voice flat.
"Where…Where you going?"
"I'm going to stay with Chris."
Jared heard the hostility in Jensen’s voice and flinched. He hung his head low and ran a hand over his face. Looking up, he whispered, "Please stay."
It sounded so sincere, so honest, and so desperate that Jensen gave in, almost.
"I can't. Chris needs me now."
"I didn't mean for it to happen, Jensen. I take full responsibility for what happened. I fucked up."
"Yeah. You almost killed my friend. What the hell were you thinking?"
Jared looked like a lost little boy as he stood there, looking at his shoes.
"I don't know. I just… I just don't want to see you hurt. I know how hard you took it when Chris fucked you over."
"It’s something between me and Chris, Jared. I told you that you have to stay out of it."
"I'm not a fucking idiot, Jensen. I can see through him. I can see what he has on his mind and I don't like it one bit."
"So you go and beat him to death?"
"I went about it the wrong way."
"What the hell were you trying to prove?"
"I… I was just...," Before Jared had a chance to answer, his phone started ringing. At first, he decided to ignore it, but seeing Matt’s name on the screen he knew he had to take it.
Jensen stood there, watching Jared on the phone, cursing under his breath. He was so close to finally getting an answer out of him. Then his phone had to start ringing. Dammit! He watched Jared’s familiar moves. He could read Jared’s body language like an open book and it was really scary.
He watched Jared walking over to the television, turning it on to CNN news.
“It’s another violent day in the world of rock star, Jared Padalecki. This is just another incident in a long line of abnormal violent behavior that Jared has recently displayed although the news seems to boost his album sales even higher. The charges stemming from this latest violent incident have been dropped, leaving his fans and the world waiting to see what he will do next. This is Tim Carter, reporting live, for CNN news. Back to you, Aaron.”
Jared turned the television off and fell back onto the sofa, hands in his lap. Jensen knew he should walk out while he still had a chance, but he could not leave Jared like that. Slowly he walked over to Jared and sat down, covering Jared’s hand with his. To his surprise Jared put his other hand on his, and held it there.
"I need you, Jensen. I can't do this alone. I can't. You're the only one I can turn to."
“Let me go unpack, OK? I’ll be right back.”
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Jensen felt guilty about promising Chris that he would stay with him and then turning around and changing his mind. He prepared himself for Chris’s shouts and insults as he walked into his room, dialing Chris’s number. To Jensen’s surprise, he took the news pretty well.
"You gotta do what you gotta do, buddy."
"Chris..."
"Don't worry about it. He probably needs you more than I do."
Jensen was quite surprised by Chris’s behavior. Jared had beaten the hell out of Chris, and yet there Chris was, being so friendly and understanding about it. There was something going on that Chris was not telling him.
"Why didn't you tell the truth when the cops asked you what happened?"
"It wouldn’t be fair."
"To who?"
"To you…and to Jared. I could see that he only had your best interests at heart. Plus I provoked him into hitting me."
"That didn't mean you deserved what happened to you, Chris!"
"No, but still…what I said to him was wrong, and honestly, I did it to provoke the hell out of him. Now go be with your man."
“He is not, -”
“I know, I know, he is not your man. Now, go already. And don’t worry about me. I’m gonna call my man and ask him to call over.”
“Your man?” Jensen asked confused. As far as he knew, Chris was not with anyone at the moment.
“Yeah, my doctor, you know?” Jensen’s jaw hit the floor.
“Tell me you didn’t!”
"Oh, I did!"
"Ugh!" Jensen grunted as he started unpacking.
"What's the matter?"
"What's the matter?! Jesus Chris, what the hell is wrong with you? You've been out of the hospital less than a day and already you're acting like a slut!"
"Maybe I am,” Jensen stopped what he was doing. He could see Chris’s huge grin through the line and it made him laugh.
“Just be careful, Chris. OK?”
“Yeah, yeah. Bye babe.”
Jensen put the phone back on cradle with a smile. Chris always had a way of making him smile.
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Jared was still sitting on the sofa, where Jensen had left him, deep in thought when he felt his phone vibrating in his hand. He glanced at the screen before answering.
“What’s up, Matt?”
“You OK, boy?”
“I’m fine.”
“I just got a call from the studio.”
“And?”
“The producer wants to know if you’re ready to go back and record your album.”
“I don’t know, Matt. I'm just under a lot of stress right now, man. It's just wearing me down. I need a break.”
“I agree. I told them you are going to take a trip to Hawaii. So, why don’t you do that? Just go to the islands, bring a girl with you, get laid, just do something."
Jared sat there thinking about it. It was not a bad idea after all.
"Yeah. I think I'm gonna do that."
"Good. Which lovely lady are you going to take there with you?" Jared swore he could hear a smirk in Matt’s voice.
"I haven't even decided yet. I’m not sure I want to take anyone with me."
"Well. You can always find a sexy lady there, I’m sure," Matt laughed.
As Matt talked about the details of Jared’s new album, Jared kept thinking about asking Jensen to go on that trip with him.
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Jensen was still unpacking when Jared quietly walked into his room.
“What do you say we take a trip to Hawaii?”
Jensen looked up from his bag, puzzled.
“Hawaii?”
“Yeah. Matt suggested I take a break from this mess, and I agreed. So are you going to come with me?”
“I don't know, Jared. I’ve been away from work for a long time and I was thinking about going back to work this week."
“So? You always have a job with me, you know that. I’m sure Danneel will understand too. Jensen, this is what we need to get back on track.”
“OK. I’ll think about it.”
“Well, you have until tomorrow morning because I’m leaving in the morning.”
Jensen stared at Jared. He thought he saw a glimpse of hope in Jared’s face. How could he say ‘no’ to that face?
“OK, but I have to come back Wednesday. Danneel had a photo shoot and I promised her I would go with her.”
Jared grinned and walked up to Jensen, embracing him in his powerful arms.
“This is going to be so good. You’re going to have the time of your life, I promise you that," said Jared as he released Jensen from his embrace, “I’m going to call Matt and ask him to make the arrangements for us.”
As Jared walked out of his room, Jensen just stood there, trying to get his breathing and his feelings back under control. He had to admit a trip to a tropical island was a romantic idea, and maybe he should have resisted the temptation and said ‘no’ to Jared. He was not sure he could get a grip on his emotions once they got to Hawaii. He was afraid he would slip and confess his real feelings to Jared. He closed his eyes, wishing he did not have to pretend all the time. He wished things were different.
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As Jared left Jensen in the packed airport terminal to check their bags, Jensen took his cell phone out and called Chris.
“Hey Chris.”
“Hey. Where are you?”
“At the airport with Jared, waiting for our flight."
“So you’re finally going?”
“Yes, Chris. I’m finally going.”
“Is he there with you?”
“He is over at the ticket counter, checking our luggage.”
“Jensen, are you going to be OK?”
“With what?”
“With being there with Jared. I don't want you to get caught up in the moment and get rejected again.”
It was quite scary how he could sometimes read Jensen’s mind like an open book.
“I won't. I’ve accepted the fact that our relationship will stay platonic.”
“OK. Just be careful.”
“How is the doctor?”
“Misha? Hmm, quite good. He left this morning. We actually have a date tonight.”
“He asked you out?” asked Jensen, surprised. Chris was not the type to go out with someone unless he was getting serious about him.
“Yeah, but don’t worry. He's going to be out the door by the end of the week. They always are.”
“And you want him to stay?”
“Hell, no!”
Chris did not sound very convincing and Jensen wished he had enough time to actually have a talk with him about the situation with Misha, but he just heard their flight being announced over the PA and saw Jared walking towards him.
“Well, I have to go. They just called our flight. I will call you when I get there.”
“Only if you're not too busy fucking.”
“Chris!”
“OK, OK, sorry. Have a safe flight, OK?”
"OK. Talk to you later."
"See you, babe,” Chris said before hanging up.
As Jared reached Jensen, he had shut his phone off and shoved it into his pocket.
“Who were you talking to?”
“Um, Danneel,” lied Jensen as Jared nodded.
Jensen knew mentioning Chris to Jared would probably piss him off, so he kept quiet about it.
“OK. Let’s go.”
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Jared sat there, staring out the window. Flying always had a soothing effect on him. He glanced at Jensen asleep in the seat next to him. He looked peaceful and innocent and at ease. Jared could not remember if he had ever seen his friend asleep before and cursed himself under his breath for the millionth time for the way he had treated Jensen since his career had started to take off. Jensen had always been there for him, had always watched his back, had always done what he thought was best for Jared and then he had to go and fuck things up between them like that.
Jared wished he could let Jensen in. He wished he could explain to Jensen why he could not give Jensen what he wanted, what he needed. It is not that he did not want to. He was just not sure it would worth it, screwing up his life and Jensen’s life like that.
He closed his eyes and his mind drifted back to his last encounter with Patrick.
[Flashback]
It was late and Jared was dead tired as he walked out of the studio and towards his car. Jensen had just been released from hospital after his accident, and he was at Jared’s place, probably still up and waiting for Jared to get home.
"I'm glad your friend is doing better," Jared heard from somewhere behind him and spun around, seeing Patrick, leaning against his car with a smirk on his face.
Jared knew that Patrick had probably something to do with what had happened with Jensen. It had to be him, and there he stood in front of Jared, mouthing off like Jared was some idiot, like he would not eventually figure things out.
"Is that so?"
"Of course, J.T., I know that your buddy and I don't always get along but it doesn’t mean I ever want to see him hurt."
"It's strange that you should say that because I know you have tried to fuck him over in the past."
Patrick’s face fell as he realized that Jared had caught him lying.
"Oh, come on, J! You know I wouldn't do such a thing like that.”
"Cut the bullshit Patrick and be a fucking man for once in your life!"
"What the fuck is this about Jared?"
"You damn well know what the fuck this is about!"
"Do I?"
"You think I don’t remember what you did to me? You and I do something in private and then you have the gall to take pictures, remember?"
"Oh, Jared. It wasn’t like that and you know it."
"Oh really? I was fucking stupid enough to trust you and you played me. You made me fucking shit on my best friend for you!"
Jared was on the verge of breaking something or someone.
"But you know what? I’ve had enough!! You got five minutes to end this shit right here, right now before I get a lawyer on the phone."
"OK, OK. I took the pictures just for my own personal collection, I like you, Jared and you know that. I’ve liked you from the star, and I knew that this was probably a once in a lifetime thing for you. I… I wanted something to remember you by."
"Oh yeah? And that’s why you’ve blackmailed me with those pictures ever since that night? You made me fucking fire my best friend in the whole world for you, and I did that, didn’t I? And you promised you would keep Jensen out of this mess, didn’t you? DIDN’T YOU?”
Patrick just nodded.
“Then how the fuck did Jensen find out about these pictures?"
"I don't know. He came over one night to my place, all mad, because he was mad at you. He was fucking out of his mind, Jared, I swear. He came over, started trashing the place and found those pictures. He threatened to give them to the press just to get you back. That's it man. I'm not the enemy here, your friend is."
Jared had to admit Patrick’s story made sense. He had fired Jensen and he was mad enough to want to get back at Jared. He hated Patrick’s guts and he would take any opportunity he could to take Patrick out. Jensen was not like that though. Jared knew his best friend. No matter how hurt Jensen was, he would never do that to Jared.
"I don't believe a goddamn word that comes out of your mouth Patrick, not one word."
"But it's the truth, I swear!"
"Give me one good reason why I should believe you. You have fucking blackmailed me with those pictures, haven’t you?"
"Only to make you see the bond we have together, man. I let you fuck me, didn’t I? That should tell you that we got trust, baby. I have been there for you a lot, Jared. I have and I know that I have done some questionable things but I swear that I've never lied to you about this."
“You fucking took advantage of me when I was out of it. I was fucking mad at Jensen, and you took me out for drinks, and then you let yourself in my fucking hotel room with a fucking lie about losing your room keys and fucked with me. What kind of a messed-up shit is that?”
"Your ass wasn't complaining when we were kicking it though. And don’t blame it on the liquor. You could have stopped me if you wanted to, but you didn't."
"Just tell me why the fuck you are here, Patrick."
"Right to the point. I like that about you, man," Jared felt a cold shiver all over his body, “I want my job back."
“Are you out of your mind? You think I would put my career in your hands?”
“Your career is already in my hands, pal. Just remember that I’ve got those pictures and I have the power to fuck with you and your career.”
"You son of a bitch!" Jared wanted to beat the crap of that sleazy fucker. Patrick ignored Jared and began speaking again, "And I want twenty percent of the sales of your new album in cash, upfront as soon as they cut you a check unless you want these pictures in every tabloid."
Jared was backed up in a corner and did not know what to do. Suddenly Jared wished Jensen was there with him. He would know what to do. Jensen.
“I’m serious, Jared. Don't think I won't do this shit.”
“Just tell me one thing, you son of a bitch! Were you involved in any kind of way In Jensen’s incident? Did you give those pictures of his to the tabloid?”
Jared got his answer in Patrick’s sick smirk as Patrick got in his car, driving off.
Jared just stood there, thinking about Jensen, wondering if he knew about the blackmail. He wondered if Patrick had threatened him too. He finally understood that what had happened to Jensen had been entirely his fault. His face was on every tabloid just because he was a big part of Jared’s life. This was Jared’s shit. He had brought this on Jensen and on himself. He would be damned if he would let Patrick fuck with Jensen’s life again, even if he had to ruin his own life and career, even if he had to walk out of Jensen’s life just to keep him safe, he would. He would make sure Jensen was safe from Patrick’s threats.
[/Flashback]
As the captain announced over the speakers that they were soon landing, Jared promised himself that he would not think about any of that as long as they were in Hawaii. All he wanted to concentrate on was being with Jensen and making sure they both had a good time.
Chapter 15
Pairing: Jensen Ackles /Jared Padalecki (eventually), Mentions of Jensen/OMC, Jared/OMC and Others
Other Characters: Tom Welling, Chris Kane, Danneel Harris, Misha Collins
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 3,961
Disclaimer: 100% Pure Fiction
Note: None of this would be possible and readable without my awesome beta,
bigj52 . I learn from you everyday.Summery: AU / Everybody has a dream. Some people make their dreams come true. Some just let their life slip by thinking about it.
Chapter 14:
Jared leaned his head against his arms on the desk and closed his eyes, remembering the night before. When he was finally out of his daze, he felt himself being pulled by a cop into the back of a police car, while the paramedics were loading Chris into an ambulance. The last thing he saw before the car took off was Jensen’s face. Jared was scared, not about the press getting a hold of what had happened, not about Matt, not about the possible court and lawsuit. No. What he dreaded the most was Jensen’s reaction.
As Jared heard the door of the interview room being opened, he raised his head to see Matt walking in.
"What the fuck happened, Jared?"
"I don't want to talk about it."
"This is no time for this star bullshit! You are in some major shit, buddy. You almost killed that man!"
"Well, I didn't, did I?" Matt glared at him before he took up his briefcase and made his way towards the door.
"Matt, I'm sorry!"
Matt looked back at Jared and shook his head. He walked back over to him, and put his hand on Jared’s shoulder.
"What happened to you, son?"
"I don't know. I just snapped. Is he… is he going to be OK?"
"He should be fine. You should worry about the civil court, maybe even the criminal court. How did things get out of hand, boy?"
"I don't know, Matt. I fucked up, big time!"
"Yes, you did but don't worry. I’ve already called your lawyer. He is on his way. We’re going to wait and see if this guy presses charges."
As hard as Jared tried to concentrate on what Matt was telling him about the possible trial, his thoughts drifted back to Jensen and his reaction.
"Have you heard from Jensen yet?" Jared said, interrupting Matt and his monotone.
"Yes. He was the one calling me, actually.”
"And? Where is he?"
"With his friend at the hospital."
"Did he say anything else?"
"Jared,-"
"Did he say anything else, Matt?" Jared raised his voice, causing the guard standing outside the room to give him a warning look.
"No, but I don't think this is the right time to be talking about this."
"I didn’t ask your opinion on this Matt, now did I?"
Jared regretted those words as soon as they were out of his mouth. Matt had been like a father figure for him since the beginning of his career and there was no way he wanted to disrespect the man.
"I'm sorry man, shit! I just seem to piss everybody off today," Jared said, taking his head in his hands.
"I can only imagine how hard this has been on you, son."
That was all it took for Jared to let go of all the emotions he had bottled up inside for a long time. He began to silently sob.
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Jensen just stood there, not believing his eyes. There was Chris, lying in a hospital bed with broken ribs and bones. For the life of him, Jensen could not understand why Jared would do something like this. Chris had been seriously beaten. He could not speak. He could not even open his eyes, and Jensen was desperate to understand what had happened.
He watched Dr.Collins examining him. Knowing Chris was in capable hands was a relief.
"Is he going to be OK?" Jensen whispered, pain and worry evident in his voice.
"Sure, he’ll pull through just fine. Don’t worry,” Dr. Collins said over his shoulder with a smile. He will be out for the night, Jensen. You can go home and come back later."
"Can I just have a few more minutes, just to let him know I'll be back?"
"Sure, no problem."
As Jensen stood there, watching the doctor do his job, his mind drifted to Jared. He had called Matt twice; once as soon as the police car left the place and again when he was waiting on the doctors working on Chris in the emergency room. Matt had practically begged him to go see Jared or at least talk to him. He said Jared kept asking about him. Jensen couldn't. Jared was a stranger to him. He could not understand how someone could be sweet and caring one minute and so ruthless the next. He had no right to treat Chris that way. Chris didn't deserve this, no matter what had happened between them. Nothing Jared would say or do would change Jensen’s mind about it.
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"I have some good news!"
Jared looked up at Matt and saw him smiling at him.
"You're getting out of here."
"Thank God!"
"Also the charges against you have been dropped."
"Even the assault charges? Are you serious?” Jared asked, not believing his ears.
"Yep. Mr. Kane won't bring charges against you. Apparently he told the cops that he initiated the fight in the first place."
Jared just sat there, speechless. He had almost beaten the guy to death and yet he didn’t rat him out.
"I can't believe it. So that means I'm getting out of here?"
"Yeah you are. We just sit and wait for them to sign you out."
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Jensen was packing his bag when he heard the key turning in the lock. Slowly he walked out of his room and into the hall where he saw Jared. He stood there, watching him walking into the kitchen, opening the refrigerator. As he bent over and retrieved a beer, Jensen stared at the contours of his ass outlined as clear as day. Instinctively Jensen drew in a breath which made Jared jump and spin around, stunned.
"Jensen," Jared whispered and took a step towards Jensen, only to be stopped by Jensen taking a step back.
"I'm just here to get my stuff," Jensen said, his face blank, his voice flat.
"Where…Where you going?"
"I'm going to stay with Chris."
Jared heard the hostility in Jensen’s voice and flinched. He hung his head low and ran a hand over his face. Looking up, he whispered, "Please stay."
It sounded so sincere, so honest, and so desperate that Jensen gave in, almost.
"I can't. Chris needs me now."
"I didn't mean for it to happen, Jensen. I take full responsibility for what happened. I fucked up."
"Yeah. You almost killed my friend. What the hell were you thinking?"
Jared looked like a lost little boy as he stood there, looking at his shoes.
"I don't know. I just… I just don't want to see you hurt. I know how hard you took it when Chris fucked you over."
"It’s something between me and Chris, Jared. I told you that you have to stay out of it."
"I'm not a fucking idiot, Jensen. I can see through him. I can see what he has on his mind and I don't like it one bit."
"So you go and beat him to death?"
"I went about it the wrong way."
"What the hell were you trying to prove?"
"I… I was just...," Before Jared had a chance to answer, his phone started ringing. At first, he decided to ignore it, but seeing Matt’s name on the screen he knew he had to take it.
Jensen stood there, watching Jared on the phone, cursing under his breath. He was so close to finally getting an answer out of him. Then his phone had to start ringing. Dammit! He watched Jared’s familiar moves. He could read Jared’s body language like an open book and it was really scary.
He watched Jared walking over to the television, turning it on to CNN news.
“It’s another violent day in the world of rock star, Jared Padalecki. This is just another incident in a long line of abnormal violent behavior that Jared has recently displayed although the news seems to boost his album sales even higher. The charges stemming from this latest violent incident have been dropped, leaving his fans and the world waiting to see what he will do next. This is Tim Carter, reporting live, for CNN news. Back to you, Aaron.”
Jared turned the television off and fell back onto the sofa, hands in his lap. Jensen knew he should walk out while he still had a chance, but he could not leave Jared like that. Slowly he walked over to Jared and sat down, covering Jared’s hand with his. To his surprise Jared put his other hand on his, and held it there.
"I need you, Jensen. I can't do this alone. I can't. You're the only one I can turn to."
“Let me go unpack, OK? I’ll be right back.”
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Jensen felt guilty about promising Chris that he would stay with him and then turning around and changing his mind. He prepared himself for Chris’s shouts and insults as he walked into his room, dialing Chris’s number. To Jensen’s surprise, he took the news pretty well.
"You gotta do what you gotta do, buddy."
"Chris..."
"Don't worry about it. He probably needs you more than I do."
Jensen was quite surprised by Chris’s behavior. Jared had beaten the hell out of Chris, and yet there Chris was, being so friendly and understanding about it. There was something going on that Chris was not telling him.
"Why didn't you tell the truth when the cops asked you what happened?"
"It wouldn’t be fair."
"To who?"
"To you…and to Jared. I could see that he only had your best interests at heart. Plus I provoked him into hitting me."
"That didn't mean you deserved what happened to you, Chris!"
"No, but still…what I said to him was wrong, and honestly, I did it to provoke the hell out of him. Now go be with your man."
“He is not, -”
“I know, I know, he is not your man. Now, go already. And don’t worry about me. I’m gonna call my man and ask him to call over.”
“Your man?” Jensen asked confused. As far as he knew, Chris was not with anyone at the moment.
“Yeah, my doctor, you know?” Jensen’s jaw hit the floor.
“Tell me you didn’t!”
"Oh, I did!"
"Ugh!" Jensen grunted as he started unpacking.
"What's the matter?"
"What's the matter?! Jesus Chris, what the hell is wrong with you? You've been out of the hospital less than a day and already you're acting like a slut!"
"Maybe I am,” Jensen stopped what he was doing. He could see Chris’s huge grin through the line and it made him laugh.
“Just be careful, Chris. OK?”
“Yeah, yeah. Bye babe.”
Jensen put the phone back on cradle with a smile. Chris always had a way of making him smile.
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Jared was still sitting on the sofa, where Jensen had left him, deep in thought when he felt his phone vibrating in his hand. He glanced at the screen before answering.
“What’s up, Matt?”
“You OK, boy?”
“I’m fine.”
“I just got a call from the studio.”
“And?”
“The producer wants to know if you’re ready to go back and record your album.”
“I don’t know, Matt. I'm just under a lot of stress right now, man. It's just wearing me down. I need a break.”
“I agree. I told them you are going to take a trip to Hawaii. So, why don’t you do that? Just go to the islands, bring a girl with you, get laid, just do something."
Jared sat there thinking about it. It was not a bad idea after all.
"Yeah. I think I'm gonna do that."
"Good. Which lovely lady are you going to take there with you?" Jared swore he could hear a smirk in Matt’s voice.
"I haven't even decided yet. I’m not sure I want to take anyone with me."
"Well. You can always find a sexy lady there, I’m sure," Matt laughed.
As Matt talked about the details of Jared’s new album, Jared kept thinking about asking Jensen to go on that trip with him.
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Jensen was still unpacking when Jared quietly walked into his room.
“What do you say we take a trip to Hawaii?”
Jensen looked up from his bag, puzzled.
“Hawaii?”
“Yeah. Matt suggested I take a break from this mess, and I agreed. So are you going to come with me?”
“I don't know, Jared. I’ve been away from work for a long time and I was thinking about going back to work this week."
“So? You always have a job with me, you know that. I’m sure Danneel will understand too. Jensen, this is what we need to get back on track.”
“OK. I’ll think about it.”
“Well, you have until tomorrow morning because I’m leaving in the morning.”
Jensen stared at Jared. He thought he saw a glimpse of hope in Jared’s face. How could he say ‘no’ to that face?
“OK, but I have to come back Wednesday. Danneel had a photo shoot and I promised her I would go with her.”
Jared grinned and walked up to Jensen, embracing him in his powerful arms.
“This is going to be so good. You’re going to have the time of your life, I promise you that," said Jared as he released Jensen from his embrace, “I’m going to call Matt and ask him to make the arrangements for us.”
As Jared walked out of his room, Jensen just stood there, trying to get his breathing and his feelings back under control. He had to admit a trip to a tropical island was a romantic idea, and maybe he should have resisted the temptation and said ‘no’ to Jared. He was not sure he could get a grip on his emotions once they got to Hawaii. He was afraid he would slip and confess his real feelings to Jared. He closed his eyes, wishing he did not have to pretend all the time. He wished things were different.
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As Jared left Jensen in the packed airport terminal to check their bags, Jensen took his cell phone out and called Chris.
“Hey Chris.”
“Hey. Where are you?”
“At the airport with Jared, waiting for our flight."
“So you’re finally going?”
“Yes, Chris. I’m finally going.”
“Is he there with you?”
“He is over at the ticket counter, checking our luggage.”
“Jensen, are you going to be OK?”
“With what?”
“With being there with Jared. I don't want you to get caught up in the moment and get rejected again.”
It was quite scary how he could sometimes read Jensen’s mind like an open book.
“I won't. I’ve accepted the fact that our relationship will stay platonic.”
“OK. Just be careful.”
“How is the doctor?”
“Misha? Hmm, quite good. He left this morning. We actually have a date tonight.”
“He asked you out?” asked Jensen, surprised. Chris was not the type to go out with someone unless he was getting serious about him.
“Yeah, but don’t worry. He's going to be out the door by the end of the week. They always are.”
“And you want him to stay?”
“Hell, no!”
Chris did not sound very convincing and Jensen wished he had enough time to actually have a talk with him about the situation with Misha, but he just heard their flight being announced over the PA and saw Jared walking towards him.
“Well, I have to go. They just called our flight. I will call you when I get there.”
“Only if you're not too busy fucking.”
“Chris!”
“OK, OK, sorry. Have a safe flight, OK?”
"OK. Talk to you later."
"See you, babe,” Chris said before hanging up.
As Jared reached Jensen, he had shut his phone off and shoved it into his pocket.
“Who were you talking to?”
“Um, Danneel,” lied Jensen as Jared nodded.
Jensen knew mentioning Chris to Jared would probably piss him off, so he kept quiet about it.
“OK. Let’s go.”
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Jared sat there, staring out the window. Flying always had a soothing effect on him. He glanced at Jensen asleep in the seat next to him. He looked peaceful and innocent and at ease. Jared could not remember if he had ever seen his friend asleep before and cursed himself under his breath for the millionth time for the way he had treated Jensen since his career had started to take off. Jensen had always been there for him, had always watched his back, had always done what he thought was best for Jared and then he had to go and fuck things up between them like that.
Jared wished he could let Jensen in. He wished he could explain to Jensen why he could not give Jensen what he wanted, what he needed. It is not that he did not want to. He was just not sure it would worth it, screwing up his life and Jensen’s life like that.
He closed his eyes and his mind drifted back to his last encounter with Patrick.
[Flashback]
It was late and Jared was dead tired as he walked out of the studio and towards his car. Jensen had just been released from hospital after his accident, and he was at Jared’s place, probably still up and waiting for Jared to get home.
"I'm glad your friend is doing better," Jared heard from somewhere behind him and spun around, seeing Patrick, leaning against his car with a smirk on his face.
Jared knew that Patrick had probably something to do with what had happened with Jensen. It had to be him, and there he stood in front of Jared, mouthing off like Jared was some idiot, like he would not eventually figure things out.
"Is that so?"
"Of course, J.T., I know that your buddy and I don't always get along but it doesn’t mean I ever want to see him hurt."
"It's strange that you should say that because I know you have tried to fuck him over in the past."
Patrick’s face fell as he realized that Jared had caught him lying.
"Oh, come on, J! You know I wouldn't do such a thing like that.”
"Cut the bullshit Patrick and be a fucking man for once in your life!"
"What the fuck is this about Jared?"
"You damn well know what the fuck this is about!"
"Do I?"
"You think I don’t remember what you did to me? You and I do something in private and then you have the gall to take pictures, remember?"
"Oh, Jared. It wasn’t like that and you know it."
"Oh really? I was fucking stupid enough to trust you and you played me. You made me fucking shit on my best friend for you!"
Jared was on the verge of breaking something or someone.
"But you know what? I’ve had enough!! You got five minutes to end this shit right here, right now before I get a lawyer on the phone."
"OK, OK. I took the pictures just for my own personal collection, I like you, Jared and you know that. I’ve liked you from the star, and I knew that this was probably a once in a lifetime thing for you. I… I wanted something to remember you by."
"Oh yeah? And that’s why you’ve blackmailed me with those pictures ever since that night? You made me fucking fire my best friend in the whole world for you, and I did that, didn’t I? And you promised you would keep Jensen out of this mess, didn’t you? DIDN’T YOU?”
Patrick just nodded.
“Then how the fuck did Jensen find out about these pictures?"
"I don't know. He came over one night to my place, all mad, because he was mad at you. He was fucking out of his mind, Jared, I swear. He came over, started trashing the place and found those pictures. He threatened to give them to the press just to get you back. That's it man. I'm not the enemy here, your friend is."
Jared had to admit Patrick’s story made sense. He had fired Jensen and he was mad enough to want to get back at Jared. He hated Patrick’s guts and he would take any opportunity he could to take Patrick out. Jensen was not like that though. Jared knew his best friend. No matter how hurt Jensen was, he would never do that to Jared.
"I don't believe a goddamn word that comes out of your mouth Patrick, not one word."
"But it's the truth, I swear!"
"Give me one good reason why I should believe you. You have fucking blackmailed me with those pictures, haven’t you?"
"Only to make you see the bond we have together, man. I let you fuck me, didn’t I? That should tell you that we got trust, baby. I have been there for you a lot, Jared. I have and I know that I have done some questionable things but I swear that I've never lied to you about this."
“You fucking took advantage of me when I was out of it. I was fucking mad at Jensen, and you took me out for drinks, and then you let yourself in my fucking hotel room with a fucking lie about losing your room keys and fucked with me. What kind of a messed-up shit is that?”
"Your ass wasn't complaining when we were kicking it though. And don’t blame it on the liquor. You could have stopped me if you wanted to, but you didn't."
"Just tell me why the fuck you are here, Patrick."
"Right to the point. I like that about you, man," Jared felt a cold shiver all over his body, “I want my job back."
“Are you out of your mind? You think I would put my career in your hands?”
“Your career is already in my hands, pal. Just remember that I’ve got those pictures and I have the power to fuck with you and your career.”
"You son of a bitch!" Jared wanted to beat the crap of that sleazy fucker. Patrick ignored Jared and began speaking again, "And I want twenty percent of the sales of your new album in cash, upfront as soon as they cut you a check unless you want these pictures in every tabloid."
Jared was backed up in a corner and did not know what to do. Suddenly Jared wished Jensen was there with him. He would know what to do. Jensen.
“I’m serious, Jared. Don't think I won't do this shit.”
“Just tell me one thing, you son of a bitch! Were you involved in any kind of way In Jensen’s incident? Did you give those pictures of his to the tabloid?”
Jared got his answer in Patrick’s sick smirk as Patrick got in his car, driving off.
Jared just stood there, thinking about Jensen, wondering if he knew about the blackmail. He wondered if Patrick had threatened him too. He finally understood that what had happened to Jensen had been entirely his fault. His face was on every tabloid just because he was a big part of Jared’s life. This was Jared’s shit. He had brought this on Jensen and on himself. He would be damned if he would let Patrick fuck with Jensen’s life again, even if he had to ruin his own life and career, even if he had to walk out of Jensen’s life just to keep him safe, he would. He would make sure Jensen was safe from Patrick’s threats.
[/Flashback]
As the captain announced over the speakers that they were soon landing, Jared promised himself that he would not think about any of that as long as they were in Hawaii. All he wanted to concentrate on was being with Jensen and making sure they both had a good time.
Chapter 15
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Date: 2009-12-15 05:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-16 05:46 pm (UTC)And the new chapter will be up tomorrow. ;)
Stupid Jared
Date: 2009-12-15 05:37 pm (UTC)I love this story but......
I disgust this Jared, he's soooo stupid and not man enough to take responsibility.
Patrick is just someone that we can find anywhere in this world but Jared... all his whinny stories are not excute to treat Jensen like that or if he think that he want to do the right thing for Jensen he should leave him alone, does not give him hope.
Actually I never want to read the story that not Jared&Jensen paring but now in this story I would like Jensen to have the lover that not Jared and leave Jared miserable alone.
Re: Stupid Jared
Date: 2009-12-16 05:53 pm (UTC)I get that comment from almost all readers. All I can say is just stick around and hopefully I can change your mind about Jared. :D
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Date: 2009-12-15 05:51 pm (UTC)And by the way love Chris! He is my favorite character. I hated him when he dumped Jensen, but now it is all good. ^0^ Hope he helps Jensen!~
And hope that Patrick is dead or worst. *burning up with hate and anger*
Love this chapter as others, hope next chap will be update soon~~
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Date: 2009-12-16 06:05 pm (UTC)Thank you for the feedback! :D
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Date: 2009-12-15 06:36 pm (UTC)I hate him, really.
I continue hope for some seriuos lesson for Jared, he can't go on hittin' people and screwing around with Jensen like this although his good intenctions but I think you have a lot of surprise for us with this trip, isn't it?
Need more, great job like always.
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Date: 2009-12-16 06:12 pm (UTC)Yeah, Jared will have that. He will pay, trust me, because I am the devil! lol :D
Thank you so much for the feedback and yep, I do have a stunt or two left here. So come back tomorrow ;)
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Date: 2009-12-16 07:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-12-15 07:54 pm (UTC)But I love this story.
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Date: 2009-12-16 06:14 pm (UTC)I am so glad to see you follow the story. It means a lot. Thank you!
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Date: 2009-12-15 08:05 pm (UTC)Excellent chapter!
love, Robin
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Date: 2009-12-16 06:32 pm (UTC)